the last straw

yesterday we had appt. to go for ultra-sound. I had been working hard to convince her to have the baby, but then as the appt. drew close, I started to freak a little. I had the chance to go through her phone more, so I did. I was able to piece together what really happened the last time I was out of town by her texts to a girl friend who was watching her dog while she spent the night with her other guy. That night happened right around the time she got pregnant, and so I lost it. I gave her plenty of chances to come clean about that night, and she continued to boldly lie to my face. Said she only met him for a bit that 2nd time and that they parted ways with out doing anything. I never really believed that, but finally I had proof that she spent the night with him.

I settled down a bit by the time we got to her appt. and we were both a little excited when we saw the amniotic sac ... then immediately disappointed because there was no heartbeat ... then we were both immensely relieved. It was not the right time or conditions for that. The dr. gave her a pill to help clear the miscarriage and we went home last night and got pretty high to help sooth all the emotion of the day. We laughed and celebrated our freedom from each other. we had a great time actually.

Hopefully she will move out with the cousin this weekend. I'll believe it when I see it, but at least I'm done and life in my house will be on my terms. I'm looking a little forward to being a dick. If I don't make life more difficult for her, she won't make leaving a priority. I think it's going to be fun being ornery.

are you sad about the relationship ending and the baby?

This is a sad situation but you were bragging about "revenge" against her. Please use this as a karmic lesson and heal your soul and heart....I am sad you are relived but also happy for you bcus the situation resolved itself.
Good luck!

no, not sad yet. We were both soooooo relieved about the baby. I think the only reason she would have kept it is because she is getting older and worried she might not have many chances left ... but, this was a really bad time.

I'll be lonely when she does finally move out though, so I'm sure I will be sad then. I was making reservations for winter vacation today ... kinda sad that it's not likely I'll have a woman to go with us. I'm not so fast as to be able to meet someone and be comfortable taking them along on a vacation with the kids after only a few months. So, little things like that are already making me sad I guess.

But, at the same time ... we had no business getting back together after we broke up before. That's when the pregnancy happened and we almost really made a mess of things. So, I'm done. I've said that before, but this time is for sure; she needs to go!

lol, now she cleans the house?!?!?!?

freaking aquas

...and now finally dragging more of the truth out of her. It's funny, I know how hard it is to tell the truth when you've done something you know is going to hurt your partner. We're broke up, and it's still excruciating for her to tell the truth ... and I don't think we're quite there yet. Her story has gone from "I didn't do anything with him that night." to "well, maybe I remember him pulling my head down to his dick, but I didn't do anything for more than 2 or 3 seconds."

Oh, and then she went on a date with another guy the next day too ... she volunteered that info pretty quick once I got her confessing. I wonder if any of that has anything to do with why her gf stopped letting her stay there ... the gf didn't want to be in the middle.

Damn man. I'm sad and relieved too but ya should've hopped off that train before it even left the station.

-cracks open a bottle of Patron and pours jru a glass along with mine-

wow !!!


I know nothing about you ... just popped in to read this, and I gather she was living with you while riding another man's dick and got pregnant, and tried to pass it off to you as if the kid was yours?


What a cunt

hey there,

even though saggis joke alot, i know its a bummer and a relief at the same time. the miscarriage probably is a blessing in disguise.

is the aqua younger than you?

@P - odds are still that it was mine, but ya know ... that's just not something you want to go into with a 90% certainty it's gonna be your kid ... especially when you're not sure about the relationship with the mom anyway -- affairs aside

Thanks DMV ... it was a blessing. We were both relieved. We would probably still be agonizing over whether or not to abort it if it were a healthy pregnancy. She's younger, but still getting up where she might not have too many more chances to have her own kid. I think she is ok with adopting ... also, she kinda likes to only have kids around every other weekend ... i.e. she likes the idea of marrying into kids. She talks a lot about missing mine now that we are spitting up.

I was so ready to move on though, but my anger is waning already. I still have a HH date set up with the Aries tomorrow though ... and the Aqua still had the nerve to get pissed and jealous about that, after all she's done. If she had ever just met the Aries months ago then she would see that we really are just friends.

We were arguing some more this morning and she tried to say that I've been having emotional affairs and that was as bad as her physical affairs. She actually believes that :/

she's trying really hard to redirect the guilt shes feeling. mad hard

I tried really hard with this relationship to have that feeling of complete sharing/honesty/acceptance with the other. It's a feeling I got a taste of with the Aries because we used to tell each other everything and we always accepted each other "as is". I failed miserably at that with this aqua though. I could never accept her "as is" and she couldn't even pretend to accept me "as is". So, we never got that feeling I was going for. It's wonderful if you can ever get there with another person. But geeze, just as soon as I got to a point where I could accept something about her ... she threw another curve ball, and she had some wicked curves. lol, but I forget that I'm no better. She hasn't done anything that I haven't done to others in the past.