Am I Lesbian?

I'm a gay guy and I'm starting to have revelations at 28.

My dad is a jehovah witness and doesn't try to convert me but he does push for kids really bad and wants me to marry a girl??_??_lately I've been finding myself watching more and more str8 porn and I also fantasise about hot guys with vaginas..

Ive always been around gay guys and had heaps of gay friends and been clubbing and stuff and I'm just sick of it and them??_??_.I really admire my cousin and his wife because they have this really cool relationship and they are just so relaxed and thoughtful of each other and don't openly express love when people are around but you know its there and that they would never cheat on each other..

So the thought of starting a family with a woman is really in the back of my mind because I really want kids and a family and I don't care if I'm with a woman just as long as we get along and can be best friends, maybe she might be a lesbian and we could have mutual feelings, who knows?

anyways my dad and and step mum told me there was this girl who badly needed to come into the country from fiji and was willing to do anything because she's a fiji volleyball gold medal champion and dad was telling me to marry her and I was like I dont even know the bitch!

So two nights ago they have a dinner party and she turns up with a plate of doughnuts "to sweeten the deal I guess" and I go really shy and don't make eye contact with her and I eventually did and found myself really liking her??_she was gorgeous and her body was amazing like thick and chunky and her face looked so young and she was 39! she looked younger than me??_..and afterwards I was fantasising about marring her and me and her being parents and teaching our kids to be future presidents ~ sigh??_..it probably will never happen

Interesting topic!

I'm not gay but I'm a woman with a lot of masculine energy who looks very feminine. I used to wear boy clothes, had lots of male and female friends, crushes on guys but I never really wanted anyone touching my body. When all my girls were talking/sexing guys I was out at the gay clubs dancing. I loved those clubs cause I was underage, gay guys loved me but weren't sexually attracted to me. It was perfect. I would get attention from women too, kissed a few but it didn't really do anything for me.

I also knew a girl in high school who had long term relationships with 3 guys... who all came out to be gay later. One of them was interested in me for awhile. He is now with a guy and has a couple of kids.

So, maybe you have something similar. A strong or equal combination of masculine and feminine energy. It is what it is and I suggest you just take your time trying to figure yourself out and not buy into labels or put yourself into any categories.

@The_eleventh... I know a guy who is gay but is married with 2 kids. His wife & family know and it all seems to work out. They have a very interesting, yet loving relationship and have been together for over 15 years. His family are jehovah's witness

It sounds like you're either lesbian or asexual.

to determine which u are, pursue women. If you enjoy and desire SEX with women, lesbian. If not, probably asexual.

Hope u find what's right for you!

Posted by The_eleventh_sign_11
I'm a gay guy and I'm starting to have revelations at 28.

My dad is a jehovah witness and doesn't try to convert me but he does push for kids really bad and wants me to marry a girl??_??_lately I've been finding myself watching more and more str8 porn and I also fantasise about hot guys with vaginas..

Ive always been around gay guys and had heaps of gay friends and been clubbing and stuff and I'm just sick of it and them??_??_.I really admire my cousin and his wife because they have this really cool relationship and they are just so relaxed and thoughtful of each other and don't openly express love when people are around but you know its there and that they would never cheat on each other..

So the thought of starting a family with a woman is really in the back of my mind because I really want kids and a family and I don't care if I'm with a woman just as long as we get along and can be best friends, maybe she might be a lesbian and we could have mutual feelings, who knows?

anyways my dad and and step mum told me there was this girl who badly needed to come into the country from fiji and was willing to do anything because she's a fiji volleyball gold medal champion and dad was telling me to marry her and I was like I dont even know the bitch!

So two nights ago they have a dinner party and she turns up with a plate of doughnuts "to sweeten the deal I guess" and I go really shy and don't make eye contact with her and I eventually did and found myself really liking her??_she was gorgeous and her body was amazing like thick and chunky and her face looked so young and she was 39! she looked younger than me??_..and afterwards I was fantasising about marring her and me and her being parents and teaching our kids to be future presidents ~ sigh??_..it probably will never happen

YOU are a fascinating individual.

Just saying. 🙂