getting in touch with my original scorpio side

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Hello all 🙂

I'm a scorpio, born 15 nov 1994, lately my friend has told me that I change rapidly and without warning, I know this to some extent as when I find something I don't like I change it but I have become aware of problems with this strategy.

1. Impossible to analyse myself in my own perspective or shoes sort to say

2. There is a possibility that if I were to judge myself fully I might go insane, (so my friend warns me)

I want to go back to a normal Scorp, changing the entire time has taken its toll with me mentally.

Can you please give me some pointers on how to change back or stop the change, it was easy to start

this but I'm having trouble stopping the rapid change emotionally and mentally.
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What changes have you undergone that leaves you believing that it is detrimental to who you are?

Sometimes, to shed a past self though a shock to others, it may be to your benefit in the long run.



Perhaps the change in itself is not as bad as the fact that you miss the past selves you have gotten to know but shed?

Perhaps it is change itself, which you are feeling uncomfortable with?



Change is good, it is a sign of growth, therefore if it is not harming you or any one around you.



Why stop?



Oh, and welcome fellow Stinger. 🙂
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Anton
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Hello TheLady Scorpio

Thank you for your reply.

To answer your question-

I feel like it ages me inside and it feels like its breaking me emotionally,

I have had this changing for about 6 months now and it feels like I have lost sight of myself,

I don't know why I feel sad, why I feel happy and what gives me joy.

I get bizarre emotional episodes where I just go 100% logic, sometimes I feel really really sad for no reason like my heart has been crushed and I can't find out why.

The past 6 months I felt that I need to perfect myself but that endeavor... I feel that I need some solidity in me.

I usually had my strong times then I break for a bit and sad and need some alone time but now its a different ball game, I am unsure if this change really is for the better.

I really wish I knew what I should do.
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Posted by irreconcilabledifferences
wear jean shorts and go out during the full moon
I would take your advice but I do value my life and that act would extinguish it.

(lots of crazy people in my neighborhood, and unsafe even tho this is supposed to be the safe neighborhood.)

The general statistic is that 1/3 people here has some untreated mental problem, as the study is a bit old I do believe it's correct 🙂

Thank you for the humor tho 🙂
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Anton
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I can really relate to this. I say go with the change - just let it happen. Enjoy it. Consider your self as objectively as you can, but allow for grace and forgive your self. Change is the best part of life in my opinion and what life is all about - the only constant is change. You are always your self, which in my view, is your consciousness, and not your sun sign. You are not a Scorpio, but are having a Scorpio experience. Everyone feels like they lose a grip on their sanity at some point in life. Sometimes you have to really experience the depths of darkness to appreciate the light, and other clichés.



Hello EnochtheWise, I am unsure of what you mean by the following?

"You are not a Scorpio, but are having a Scorpio experience."

The book we have on astrology has a year calendar at the back and I went back till I found my date, it is within the Scorpio range, although be it by a day or two.

Can change not be seen as the tidal force and us the shore line? Too much of a good thing can be bad?

I tend to stay for extended time in my own head to think about things and to say change can be good if you have stagnated for a while but to change rapidly within a day or two may be a bit too fast to the point where you cease to enjoy the "new you" long enough to find your new current you is inadequate and needing more change, the continuous cycle of change and re change can get tiring.

I did initially enjoy it to the point where my friends thought I was high, but I do agree with points that you mentioned but as they say.. " the grass appears to be more green and lush on the other side of the fence than where I currently am"

I am grateful for your advice and I thank you for taking time to answer my question, I do wish to see if TheLady Scorpio has a different perspective or advice. Thank you nonetheless.
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Posted by CrimsonGirl
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You are not alone!! I literally never post on here, but your post really grabbed my attention because I'm born only a few days before you and I am going through something so similar right now!! It's terrifying and has caused a lot of anguish over the past couple months because I've never experienced anything like this before. I've always enjoyed being a scorp because I've felt in control. Whether it's been jealousy, obsession, extreme passion etc, I've always felt weirdly motivated by those qualities and they have never put me through much pain before, but lately they're driving me crazy and bringing me down.

I know what has triggered this for me personally, but can you think of anything that set these thoughts off for you?? Has there been any part of your personality that you've needed to work on for a long time and now something has brought out an absolute need for it change? For me it's my extreme jealousy in my relationship and also my complacency with the way I am (which I didn't even notice until I thought about it lol).

Maybe we're just really transforming for the first time in our lives and weren't aware that it was gonna be this painful?? haha. I always thought I fully understood the emotional side of being a scorpio ... looks like I was wrong... lol
Hello CrimsonGirl

Thank you for your post 🙂

" I've always enjoyed being a scorp because I've felt in control. Whether it's been jealousy, obsession, extreme passion etc,"

I can't agree enough with you. 🙂

"For me it's my extreme jealousy in my relationship and also my complacency with the way I am (which I didn't even notice until I thought about it lol)."

There is something that also happened to me in some way,(about the time this got out of control) I asked the girl I had a crush on if she would become someone special to me, after knowing her for almost 6 years and got rejected with the reason we don't know enough of each other and I should make more of a effort if I wish to date her. Perhaps this pushed me a little to the edge wanting change from the same emotion I have felt for 3 years for her?

"Maybe we're just really transforming for the first time in our lives and weren't aware that it was gonna be this painful?? haha."

Yes, maybe we weren't ready for this change when it was started by the specific event?

I really do hope this stabilizes at some point tho.

"I always thought I fully understood the emotional side of being a scorpio ... looks like I was wrong... lol"

Looks like we rediscover the scoprio way every day?

Thank you for your advice, just knowing your not alone can make a difference, you gave me a really good hint to what did it.

I really hope to see you around more 🙂 and I hope that things will go better for you 🙂

(I am just ending it in this way as I am unsure if the post I made has a date or time when it will be closed so I try to do a full greeting at the end of the message so if it were to happen I can at least thank them and say a proper greeting)
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Posted by Explicit
Are you initiating the change? Or does it just happen naturally and organically?

If you are initiating the change, is it because you might not want to deal with a part of yourself that could be hard to accept so you put on this layer of a new personality to protect yourself from dealing with the dark side of yourself?

Woah, hope this makes sense. My grammar and spelling hasn't been the best since my weed days.

Finding something that you don't like and changing it isn't always the best answer. Dealing with it would be a better way to put it to rest, depending on what it is though. You can't really fool yourself, even if you think you are. The subconscious mind stores everything, and if you're just changing to avoid dealing with parts of yourself that you find difficult, eventually you're just gonna have a breakdown and the part of yourself that you tried to put a lid on for so long is gonna explode and you're gonna have to deal with it anyway.
Hello Explicit

Thank you for your post



The change is automated, no, I would say I like nearly every part of me, especially the dark side of me.

"Woah, hope this makes sense. My grammar and spelling hasn't been the best since my weed days."

I would say I know how you feel but I didn't have the pleasure yet of weed, but I get the idea🙂

I do have a hint at what started it now, perhaps I wished to change the never ending feeling of pain and emptiness while suppressing the need to hold her in my arms and never let go, same as she wished.

I am a bit new to this ground, if you wouldn't mind can you perhaps drop a hint to help me advance further in the dealing of the underlying problem?

Thank you in advance/ hope it goes well with you. 🙂