Helping The Parents Understand.

My friends and family have always said I am the epitome of my zodiac, Scorpio.
I guess as a child, they thought it was cute, but now that I am older they're
calling me an "ice princess" or some stupid little comment that I would rather
they shove down their throats and spare me for another day.

I dare say that I have a good amount of "friends", but they're just people I get
along with, and when I see them in college or on base (husbands a military man)
occasionally talk too. That's as far as I want the friendship to go. The only people
~close~ to me is my Virgo husband and my Sag (but more Taurus) best friend, Troi. Literally,
it stops there. They're the only people I allow myself to become "vulnerable" around
and all other people just see me as this rock hard shell.

My aunt died not long a go, and when I found out I said "that's sad", and kept doing
what I was doing. My mother asked me why I wasn't expressing some form of sadness and
my reply was "it's the circle of life." If my cats died, I would probably be REALLY
upset though. I love my cats. I didn't love my aunt, really.

And although it sounds like a horrible thing to say, It's honest. It's hard for me
to express my feelings on such situations on death and losing friendships. It happens.
So now, my mother is wondering why I can't express my feelings on things like losing
a friend of 18 years, and why, I just don't really seem to express myself.

"You can lose a game of manopoly and be mad at me for a month, but lose a friend
of 18 just be like "whatever" "



I want to try and explain to my mother that the reason this friend was not that traumatic
to lose was because for 15 years I've been expecting her to walk away, and expecting her
to manipulate and hurt me in some form. I can't explain this to my mother because her
reply is "OH YOU'RE JUST A BABY!" Then we don't speak for a few weeks, to months.

I don't even know how to explain to her how I feel about these situations. Her being a
gemini, she's all about friends and crap. She's so two faced though, and it's stupid
and annoying. She can never just get to the point. It's like we're always butting heads.

Thanks Snow_Child, it's comforting to know that I am not the only person who is feeling this way. It's really hard to explain to people why I am the way I am. If I ever said "I'm a Scorpio" they'd probably be like "bad excuse." But I honestly see a Scorpio in myself in every single way. I even got it tattooed on me, I'm very proud of being one. However, there are so many pros and cons with relationships and our personal lives that really are mind blowing. I'm always pushing people away, I'm HORRIBLE to people I don't like, and people can be literally scared of pissing me off because of my bad temper. But hey, call me a stupid ugly bi7ch and I'll just laugh, it doesn't effect me.

-_-;; so confusing!

Hey Meila. Wow... we sound like twins. My military hubby to be is an Aries though. My best friend is a Taurus guy 🙂

I tell people I just don't "do" death. I really don't understand why people get so upset over it. Yeah it can envoke sadness or anger but what the hell are you suppose to do about it? It's death ... you can't change it's mind. I will even go as far as to say I find it a little selfish and attention whorish to make a huge deal over losing a loved one. I've seen people lose their damn minds at funerals acting like fools screaming and crying that it's putting the focus all on their grief and off the fact that we are there to honor the dead. Maybe it's their way of coping but it's seems very dramatic and unnessisary to me.
I've been told time and time again that I'm cold. My grandmother passed a couple weeks ago. My cousins bawled and one even confronted me on my behavior or lack there of. *shrug* She was old. She was gonna die sometime.

So I wouldn't really worry about it too much. My mom is kinda the same way but she accepts it alot more because she knows I'm not going to change and she's a Scorp too. Maybe it makes a difference. Don't let people get you down. We all cope with things differently.

Posted by meila
The only people
~close~ to me is my Virgo husband and my Sag (but more Taurus) best friend, Troi. Literally,
it stops there. They're the only people I allow myself to become "vulnerable" around
.

I don't see anything wrong with that - the nly people I'm close to are my Gemini bf and Cancerian sister.

Exactly, GS. We do all deal with things differently. I'm on the other end of the scale - completely over-emotional. I cry over the thought of loved ones dying, and whenever I got upset as a kid, my mum was always at me "Don't be sooo melodramatic", "You're not a character in a novel you know, no prince charming is gonna turn up amd rescue you". I often envy people who have more controll over their emotions, but I don't think you are all cold hearted because you don't go flying off into a squalling mess everytime something upsets you. I do think it's funny to get mad over a game though 🙂

It can be pretty funny.
Weird though, I only
posted this a few days
and today a close friend
of mine died. My husband
was like "it's ok if
you wanna cry honey"
And I'm like "Nah, its ok"
And just kept reading
BohoChic !