I care too much!!

Sometimes I feel like the odd scorpio out. I read and hear about our confidence, mysteriousness and everything else...and I look at myself and I'm none of these!

I always trust that people are telling me the truth, which leads me to telling them about myself...and then it gets used against me. I can't keep myself...to myself...I'm too open!

I don't really want to be mysterious or hard to get to know but I wish that I could keep the things closest to my heart away from people until they've proven that they ARE what they say they are.

I also seem to rub people the wrong way with the things I say. I will say something and they will think I've said something else. When I tell them "Oh no, this is actually what I meant" they don't believe me. It's like they think I'm talking in code words and they have to look deeply at everything I say and pull shit apart until it's something completely different! If I say that it's a good day today but a little cloudy I MEAN WHAT I SAY!! I am not implying that YOU are the cloud in my day!! (that didn't actually happen but that seems to be how people twist my words).

I'm also afraid of hurting peoples feelings, to the point where a lot of the time when I should be standing up for myself because I'VE been hurt I will keep quiet in case I hurt THEM.

Does anyone else have these problems or am I really the odd one out? Is there something going on with my chart that makes me so weird?

Sun Scorpio 23.30 Ascendant Capricorn 26.44
Moon Cancer 0.21 II Aquarius17.40
Mercury Scorpio 26.30 III Pisces 12.32
Venus Capricorn10.22 IV Aries 13.15
Mars Scorpio 7.51 V Taurus 19.09
Jupiter Cancer 10.20 R VI Gemini 25.04
Saturn Capricorn10.35 VII Cancer 26.44
Uranus Capricorn3.08 VIII Leo 17.40
Neptune Capricorn10.27 IX Virgo 12.32
Pluto Scorpio 15.28 Midheaven Libra 13.15
Lilith Scorpio 1.19 XI Scorpio 19.09
Asc node Aquarius 20.41 XII Sagittarius 25.04

Wow I thought I was the only one who felt this way. Thought maybe it was my Sagg side. Guess its not!

But... if I think about it a moment... other people STILL say I'm mysterious, hard to get to know, and that I can be a coldhearted bitch. Even though none of it is true in my eyes. Again, why I say only a scorpio can really understand a scorpio. The other signs just don't really get us.

Skykomish - I'm glad that I'm not the only one! I was thinking it may be my cancer moon but even they can keep their mouths shut, and the ones I know can be quick to put people back in line!

Now that you mention it, SOME people find me mysterious and a lot of people think I'm a bitch. When I read both of your comments it got me thinking...I wonder if people think that way because they are used to us telling too much or used to us being quiet when we shouldn't so when we actually find something we can keep to ourselves...or we finally have enough and say something they're like "Woah!! You're such a bitch, I never knew you were like this, why do you have to be so mysterious!" lol I don't know.

everevolvingepithet - It might as well have happened, that's how ridiculous some people can be when I say things. I've had people flip out when I told them I wasn't having a good day, thinking I was pissed at them and if that's what I mean I should just say it. If I'm in such a mood that I would say someone is pissing me off in code then I would probably just say it...and I wouldn't take it back when I'm asked about it lol.

I know it should be easy to speak up when I'm hurt/pissed but sometimes I feel like it's easier if I just feel hurt instead of making them hurt too. I'll also sometimes think that maybe I'm being too sensitive at that moment and it's not until a while later that I realise "hang on, that was really unnecessary and I should have said something!". Maybe it's something I just have to practise.

Posted by Chance11
but like a scorpio you seem to be very sensitive and very reactionary. once you get that calmed down i think you'll be able to use it to see things that others are unaware of. being a young double water scorp is tough when you haven't fully reconciled your abilities as empaths or fully realized your powers of resurrection.

you can't really worry about what others will think as long as you're being true to yourself.

Sorry for being a bit slow but what do you mean by "reactionary"? 😛

I'll also sometimes think that maybe I'm being too sensitive at that moment and it's not until a while later that I realise "hang on, that was really unnecessary and I should have said something!".

Yeah this too, for sure. I know I can be sensitive so I try to step back from it. Guess it comes across cold.

Well what would it be for me then Exo? I have a Gemini Moon/Taurus Asc.

...I do put on this "front" like I don't trust ANYONE. But I really actually do. There are very few people that I judge to be unsafe, and those that I do, I keep at distance and watch closely. For example, I started a new job in june. Probably 20 coworkers in my department? Only two of whom I instantly went "uh uh, no way, these people will stab you in the back" and they remain that type of person- one even got fired for it. Everyone else I was maybe shy around the first day, but by the second day I was friends with, and I'm still friends with most of them. Couple of them bring their personal drama into everyone else's life and I just get tired of it so I dissociate from them. But they're not bad people, just too stressed.

Chance11 - Oh I see what you mean now. I think you're spot on with that observation. I think on top of the sensitivity and putting too much into their views I'm also scared of how speaking up would change their views even more and therefore push them away. So I understand that I need to learn to calm that down and get a handle on that I just don't see how I'd get there.

Which gets me to what exo said about projecting it until I AM that. So kind of like...faking it til I make it? lol. You're one of the people on here that I'll read something you've written and I've thought "Oh I wish I could have that attitude!" haha.

You both give really good advice, I'm just not sure how to soak it all in and put it into practise...but I guess I'll never know until I try it 😛