Scorpio man is really driving me insane!

This is a long story but I need to tell it all so you can have all the info.

I met this Scorpio guy in 8th grade, we've known each other for almost 20 years now. His family had just moved to town. I've had feelings for him since the day we met. Throughout the rest of Jr. High and high school, we were pretty good friends. We went out to movies every once in a while, hung out at the skating rink with other friends, etc. He dated a few of my friends but it was never anything serious. About a year after we graduated, we had a thing. It was mostly a FWB thing. It only lasted a few months. During this time, I met my current husband. I wanted a relationship with Scorpio Guy but I was too scared to tell him. He was comfortable enough to talk to me about other girls he liked and he never knew how jealous it made me. I didn't want to be the jealous girl so I chose to not let it show. Anyways, within 3 months CH told me he loved me. I wasn't hearing anything from SG so I stopped seeing him and devoted my time to the guy who was showing me love.

SG and I lost touch after that, we had the occasional phone call but that was it. In mid-2005, my husband and I separated. I went back to live with my parents to get back on my feet. I started talking to SG again. He listened to me and my problems, one time even coming over and taking my daughter and I to Burger King, where we sat for hours just talking while my daughter played. A few weeks later, I asked if I could talk to him face to face about a problem I was having at work. We went out and had a couple of beers. He was house sitting for his parents while they were out of town, so we went back to his house, where we wound up skinny dipping in their pool. That was, undoubtedly, the sexiest night of my life. Both of us were so incredibly turned on, but he wouldn't do anything because I was still married. He finally succumbed to one temptation and kissed me, the most passionate kiss I've ever had.

A couple of months later, my husband and I got back together and I became pregnant with our second child. SG kept calling me but I would either ignore the calls or tell him I'd call him back, which I forgot to do. After a while, he stopped calling.

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We kept in touch through Myspace for the next few years, the occasional email and rare phone call. Then, this past December, I text messaged him out of the blue. I don't know why. I kinda wish I hadn't because it turned my world upside down. We had a few texts here and there, but in January is when everything started again. He told me that night when we went skinny dipping, he wanted me so bad it literally hurt, and if I had pushed him just a little more, he wouldn't have been able to control himself anymore. I was shocked. I had no idea how bad he wanted me that night. Since then, we've texted or FB chatted every day. (As of this writing, the text message count on my phone is over 3000, to and from him. Same count on FB chat) In February, he told me he still has feelings for me and is scared to be around me because he doesn't know how much he can control himself. We've gone out a few times since then, just for a beer or 2. I've been to his house. Absolutely nothing has happened. I know he still has feelings for me because I'll see that look in his eyes. You all know what I mean! The first time we went out, a guy I hadn't seen since high school came over and was hugging all over me and kissing my cheek, saying how great it was to see me again and how great I looked. I watched SG and he had turned away but still kinda watching me. He looked so jealous. I asked him about it later and he said he wasn't jealous, the guy shouldn't be all over me because I'm married. I argued he had no idea I'm married. He says he's protective of those he cares about, and "Think of you on a pedestal, and if anyone tries to knock you down, they deserve a lesson on why they don't touch". Earlier in the evening, I was looking at a cute guy that was walking up the stairs next to us. I felt SG kick me under the table (not hard) and I immediately looked at him and said "What the f*ck?!?" And his eyes flashed almost angrily but he was smiling, then said he kicked me because he saw I was zoning out.

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A few months ago, I realized I had fallen in love with him. I don't know when it happened. A couple of weeks ago, I finally told him. He didn't say anything much. I told him all I wanted was for him to be happy. He said he just wanted to find a girl, I said I wanted him to. He was quiet then said almost teasingly, "No you don't" and I said "Yes, I do. I want you to be happy". For some reason, I immediately thought "This is a test". And that was it. What got to me was earlier in the night he had been opposed to going back to his house, but after I told him how I really felt, he asked if I had to go home right then or could I hang out a little longer. Of course, I said I wanted to hang out a little more but I couldn't stay out late. We hung out at his house for a little while, listening to music and talking. The past couple of weeks, he's barely said anything to me, I asked him what was wrong and that I shouldn't have said anything. He said it wasn't me, he's just been depressed and not in a chatty mood. I miss him so much right now but I'm trying to let him have his space because I know Scorpios need that time alone to gather their thoughts. I feel like he's pulling away, even though he's emphasized it's not me or what I said, he's just been depressed lately. He??ll have a day or two when he's back to his usual self but then something will pull him down again. I feel like I'm addicted to him, and not talking to him for a few days is hell.

Absolutely nothing physical has happened between us since that midnight kiss when we were skinny dipping 5 years ago. There's been a hell of a lot of flirting, texting, FB chatting, random pictures sent. I know he has feelings for me but of course he won't vocalize them. I don't know why its so important to me to know how he feels, and I know he may never tell me exactly how he feels.

I'm confused about my marriage, and that's another story altogether. I'm thinking of leaving. My husband has no idea what's been going on. Obviously we have issues or I wouldn't be turning to another guy for affection.

I don't want to hear anything about my marriage, I know what I'm doing is wrong. Scorpio Guy is so addicting, we've known each other for so long (almost 20 years). He really is one of my best friends, and I know I'm one of his. He'll randomly open up to me, then back off for a few days then come back. I need opinions and advice. Thanks for reading this super long post.

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Posted by Sagittarius89
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this is so fucked up...i dont even know where to begin

WinterLeo:

Perhaps if you could write without capitalizing all your words, people can read it better. I read it...and clearly you are involved in an emotional affair with this man. Doesnt matter if you have not had sex, you are sharing something more valuable, your emotions, your vulnerability with him. You need to find out why you are choosing to tak esuch high risks. Usualy these things never work out positively. You need to take care of current business first. Your marriage or divorce or whatever.

You are suffering from a form of "love addiction". Google it. Its real and valid. I have been there...and yes, once with a Scorpio man. I am free now. I wish you the best of luck!!

*oops..sorry I got your confused with the other person who capped it all out.