Supressed Feeling

Hey Everyone, earlier I was writing about how Scorpios build a circle around them and decide who they should let in, the reasoning and how far they let them in the circle. We all know its nearly impossible to let anyone get to the core of the inner circle but even near its boundries, its very difficult to let someone in. Majority of this has to do with our insight of seeing peoples true intensions, and being very suspicious we test people in numerous ways. So once we find that mistake were looking for in them, we make sure they never enter the circle but rather see a mask of someone elses personality. But if theres no one in your circle, who do you go to when hurt, or who do you share your thoughts and feelings with in general when you dont trust anyone? that has been the case with me, no one to speak to and no one in my circle since I was a kid. And today it seems like I gained alot of patience by supressing my anger, but at the same time I have formed a Volcano of feelings. The good thing about this is the volcano is all under control, it will only explode if I command it to. but the good part about this is, the volcano can be used in a positive way or negative and is fulled with Red lava Passion. From my chart, what I believe is that Pluto and Saturn are the Volcanos and they are controlled by this incredible software, Mercury and Sun in Scorpio and the additional insight of moon in pisces. And for relaxing purposes you got Venus in Libra. Sort of like this Ultimate Human Machine!!! lol. ok ok i know im getting carried away now...but what I really want to know is how you other Scorpios deal with feelings and anger? Since I had no one to go to, i used to go to the park late at night and sit in the back benches by the trees, where it was pitched dark from far away and just sit there for a hour or so, sort of like talk to myself about my life and where im going with it. I shed alot of tears on that bench fulled with anger and resentment but I think it has made me a better and more aware person, and thats how the volcanos were created.

Mr. Scorpio

You are pretty deep and you have alot inside.

"who do you go to when hurt, or who do you share your thoughts and feelings with in general when you dont trust anyone?"

Work it out within myself.


"Scorpios build a circle around them and decide who they should let in, the reasoning and how far they let them in the circle" I have less than 10 people in my circle of close friends and they don't really know me. They now what I want them to know that is it. They ask me questions I give one word answers and skip the conversation.

Hey Scorpionlady thanks for the reply. Yea I see what you are saying, I do the same with people and they know nothing about me. But are those really considered friends? I think the way the Scorpio was created, was designed to have just one friend, its lover, and everyone else only see's what the scorpio wants them to see. and its like we are in control...but the main drawback to this is that people assume that what we choose to reveal to them, is actually us. but its not, its only a mask, and they dont understand that...

"I have less than 10 people in my circle of close friends and they don't really know me. They now what I want them to know that is it. They ask me questions I give one word answers and skip the conversation."

I have 5 in my circle. It's even harder for us ladies, Mr. Scorpio. Many chics out there are very shallow. They will swallow you whole if you let them. I have invested years in a friendship, only to be stabbed in the back. One friend of 3 years slept with my man weeks after he and I brokeup. It's very hard to trust. Once that trust has been broken, you don't want to get back up on the bicycle and try again. It takes years for me to open up. Even then, I can't do it completely.

theJollity

No one understands us because we are to deep we don't think on the surface we are not practical at least I'm not. I know every thought in my mind comes from a deeper perspective then other people and sometimes when I am in a conversation with people and I say certain things they just look at me like duh..so I have to warn them and say "Ok I'm going deep with this" and they try to figure out where I am coming from...a lot of time I try to stay on the surface with people but it is hard.

Shaka

You are probably right he is probably to much in the stars, but right know I think he is trying to really understand his personality. Let me know if I am wrong Mr. scorpio.

Mr.Scorpio

Yes I do consider them my friends because I know if I need something from them they will come and vise versa and they know that, and just because I consider them my true friends does not mean they have to know me 100% . No one will ever no me 100% until I am ready and I can trust and believe that they are on the same level as me mentally, and can go where no man has gone before. LOL LOL

Agree, I found poetry. It doesnt' matter if it makes sense. But it does help the soul.

Oh I journal and I right poetry and I talk alot to my higher power... I am a people person no doubt. For me I don't take to a lot of people when I frist meet them first impression is what I go by if my instincts are not good from just looking at you then I won't try to talk to you...I will watch you a bit see where you are coming from and then figure out the best approach to conversate with you but I just can't meet you and expect to kick it with you I need to feel you out first.

"For me I don't take to a lot of people when I frist meet them first impression is what I go by if my instincts are not good from just looking at you then I won't try to talk to you...I will watch you a bit see where you are coming from and then figure out the best approach to conversate with you "

Check! I know exactly where you are coming from, SL.

Do you think we are twins seperated at birth?

Shaka

What tip are you on today? I was just a question people come to these boards for different reasons.

I first came to these boards to get some insight on Capricorns I got what I needed. Know I am on this board for sheer pleasure of conversating with people and from across the world.

I know that you can't go deep in a converstion when you just meet someone I know it take time and that is what I was talking about not talking to people that I don't know people that I do know and associate with, co-workers etc. See what I am say I did not understand me either, LOL Case Closed...

juwanapla

We we could be are you in your 40's if not then I think you and Missmorals are so me at a younger age.

I think my personality was spit in half so that you both can share a part of me.
LOL

Some people might not understand what I said it might be a little to deep but I know you will understand...LOL

FIGHT, FIGHT, FIGHT!!!!!!

Hey Nutz, we haven't fought the Virgo Virgins yet!

Besides, it's to early for me to get deep. Unless your are taking about other indoor sports. 🙂

I think I am in between you and Missmorals. I'm, well, in my early thirties. OUCH! I hate typing that. Most people think I am in my early 20's.

But I totally relate to you both. I don't need to elaborate on what I say to you guys. You both seem to reply on the same level I am on. You both seem to understand me.

*Getting a tissue. Blots the corner of one intense eye.*

OK, I got that out of my system. Shall we take on a Virgin?

You know how virgos are DB...why go there...just stand in his face and tell him like it is he will back down...LOL

DB, are you calling out the Nutz?

It's ok JP I'm in my 40's early that is and you know what they say. Women go through there mid life crisis in there 40's...sex and all...I was blown when it happen to me when I just turn 40 I was off the freaking hook....could not get enough if you know what I mean....LOL embarce your 30's sweetie and have fun, it only get better...

Shall we put on the studded bras and start spanking?
Of course DB will be standing in the background shaking his head at his Nutty girls.
And encouraging us on... 🙂

Loving it so far!!

hey I am game not much work today...let roll

"SL rolls her hands around each other in a fist motion waiting....."

He ment "trip"

Hallucination?

DB I remember when I first turned 30 I could not wait, I thought I was going to feel so different, but I woke up that morning and the whold day I was waiting and saying to myself that I was going to feel different, but sadly enough I felt the same.

"SL closes her eyes and hold her head down in rememberence"

I meant Tip...as in attitude.

I'm giving Shaka one good smack on the arse then I'm going to the pool. It's suppose to get up to the 90's today and I need to work on my tan. By next month I will be golden bronze like the goddess I am.

*Pulls out the strap-on. Shaka looks alittle interested until JP slaps him across the face with it*

There's more where that came from!!!! How bad do you want it?

"Juwanapla, you definately dont sound like someone in his thirties.."

*clears throat LOUDLY*

her thirties..

Female..Woman....Beotch!!!!

yes, we definitely are very selective of our friends. I go for the gut feeling and instinctively takes likes / dislikes at the first meeting itself from a few questions (sometimes 'none' after seeing/ hearing them)...

very rarely if the person consistently proves his/her trustworthiness and depth, I will let the person enter the outskirts of my friends circle.

Very few...only 4 or 5 matter at that very close level. For a person to matter, he/she has to like/love me SINCERELY and should be willing to go to ANY length possible for me, as I would be giving MUCH more in return. And Scorpio protection is nothing to scoff at :-)

Above all the person should evoke my respect for him/her. Without mutual respect and trust, there is going to be nothing there.

And this trust and respect is not something which everyone says so easily in relationship issues. It is meant to be felt at the MOST INTENSE AND DEEP/PASSIONATE level, something which only the Scorpio can comprehend.

Thank You topazwomen...

Hey I say me you JP and MM get together one day and discuss the joy of being a scorpio hell lets go out and give every one we meet the LOOK, that we are so famous for.

Well Shaka I am not going to go there. If you are ok today and is not with a attitude then I believe you. Know can we have some FUN TODAY.

Talk about intimidation! We'd have the whole town terrified of us!

Wasnt sure if about the first two, but very sure about the third one..

Thanks! 🙂 just doing my job.

LMAO @ JP,

Hey sometimes when I go out and I see guys looking I just look at them then see if they are going th strike up a conversaton then if they don't I start talking and the first thing they do is blush, and I go at them then...I can sense the shyness in them and I work it, work it, work it then they get boring to me and I stop talking to them....I know that is bad..but they don't interest me just somebody to play with. If you are that shy then you really don't need to talk to me..

If I call, they will come.

Well kids, I'm heading to the pool. Shaka, I'm just having fun with you. But, if you are offended by anything I've said.....

OH WELL!!

We'll continue later.

You are welcome scorpionlady :-)

Shake you virgos are so easy yall just like to play hard to get. LOL I have dated all the types of virgo's

Damn....shaka you think...well if that is your opinion. So you think scorpio's put on a facade? I could be incline to believe you but I don't think so. People just don't understand us and find us very hard to read. That is not our problem LOL

>>But if theres no one in your circle, who do you go to when hurt, or who do you share your thoughts and feelings with in general when you dont trust anyone? that has been the case with me, no one to speak to and no one in my circle since I was a kid.

It's not the fact that we don't let people in, it just takes them a long time to get there, a very while. I have friends that I can go to, but these people have been friends with me for the longest. My Scorpio friend is having this problem, she can come to me, but when I'm gone she has no one to turn to because she closes herself in a little TOO MUCH. I used to be just like that but my Aqua friend taught me to get out of that phase a tad bit. Life is much better that way.

>>but what I really want to know is how you other Scorpios deal with feelings and anger?

Most of the time I will deal with them myself. I write, I sleep, I sing. But sometimes it has gotten bad to the point where I just needed someone to talk to but at that time I was like you and wouldn't tell anyone anything. Except my cousin but c'mon now she didn't want to hear it.

>>Since I had no one to go to, i used to go to the park late at night and sit in the back benches by the trees, where it was pitched dark from far away and just sit there for a hour or so, sort of like talk to myself about my life and where im going with it. I shed alot of tears on that bench fulled with anger and resentment but I think it has made me a better and more aware person, and thats how the volcanos were created.

That made me sad for you. I used to do things like that but I'm happy no so I really don't. Sometimes you could call on people and it just doesn't work. whatever it is it will get better, sweetie. It does make you better.

I have 0 tolerance for long posts...

Hey thanks alot everyone, that really helped out alot knowing other scorpios also feel or felt that way before...so i guess im not alone....thats what I really like about this message board, you guys are all here for eachother and i really admire that. you know i was at work today, and the whole time i was thinking, i cant wait till i get home and check the messages, lol... it really felt good. you know....no matter how many friends you have or how close they are, I think nothing can top a good oh conversation with other fellow Scorpios, mainly because alot of you are experienced and been through it all. You know whats funny is that Im seeing myself surrounded by a bunch of Scorpions, me being one myself, and its like we all come here together to have a discussion. Sort of like when you go camping and at night time they all get together, roast marshmallows and have a huge discussion about how we Scorpios can make our lives better and protect ourselves from these other non-emotional signs. this is truly amazing. thanks everyone