Hello WB! Miss you too!

How are you friend— I have been thinking about you! Just wanted to say hey!

Hope you and your Lubochka are doing good! Come back and let us know, ok?!

WB




From Unregistered: (152.163.189.199) on Saturday, September 14, 2002 @ 9:27:21 PM

Dear WB!
Sorry i dissappeared for a little bit, kinda tight up with work and few projects.He is doing o.k,,,-i guess i tried to make myself busy , so i wouldn't be missing him so much.
i still feel some walls and coldness , but hopefully it pass , maybe it is just a test that i( with my little aloof attitude) need to get through.You know maybe it is not right, maybe it is my Aqua spirit , but when he is too busy ,got places to be things to take care of i miss him terribly and at the same time scared to show that, show that i'm vulnurable(this i figure out recently---maybe i'm not feeling loved enough? And how much is enough? I guess i'm just facing some changes ).Recently went out with my friends and we ended up introduced to few cute guys, they were hitting on us, but guess what i left party thinking about him , it is like when i'm counting my blessings i'm counting him twice,,,funny in a little bit he called laughing , joking and singig ,,,-----funny but i didn't feel sorry leaving crowd earlier.
Let's stop talking about me,,,
How are you? What's new?
How is it going?
HOPE YOU ARE DOING GREAT! Miss talking to you,,,and thanx a lot for remembering about me and leaving that message!
I close my eyes
And fly somwhere
Though not really far.
The place i travel
is a center of your heart.
Everytime i'm there
i surrounded by love and peace,
And i tresure this moments
thank you for letting me in,
But longing for it more often
cause it make me feel at ease,
feeds my hunger for you,
helps face another day,
Your voice like lullaby,
Your smile warm me up,
You-soothe my heart,,,,,,,
(And though you cut your hair
I always love the way you are.)

Aqua 2.

HI AQ,

Nice to wake up to another one of your poems. I didn't get the last part of it?
I guess you liked him a certain way and then he changed??

Don't be scared he loves you. I bet he loves you more than you'll ever know. You guys will be alright; just hang in there and work it out. I know how you feel though. You want to try and do things to keep your mind off him but it doesn't matter what you do he is still with you always, love can really get into your soul deeply. I don't know it gets lonely for me and at least you can be with your baby sometimes. If I could do that I would cherish the day; I won't go a stray,
I won't be afraid; won't run away! I would show him how deep love could be--Like that Sade song. He is ruling the way that I move.
This is my prayer!
Take care. Gonna go make some coffee. I just woke up and I came straight in to the puter to see if my friend (you) had gotten in touch! Thank you that was very nice.
WB

WB,good morning,,,,
eah a warm cap of coffee that what it takes, i just woke up fixed a hazelnut one, sometimes coffee, tea will do it too, maybe even green or just home made punch, but today i'm out of it he-he.
Dear you are gonna spoil me with your compliments!..Thanx a lot.
Yep he cut his hear, so now his head is "half-nude" lol,,,,he looks like an 18 year old boy, who pretends to be 20-22,,,( i mean he looks younger, than he acts) And that is so funny, basicly you can see skin under short ends and he tried to tell me that he usually cuts them like that...people tell me that i look like a kid,,,for 18-19, very rare 20..So, i was histericall and i think a little bit too much -. About me been lucky , cause i'm able to see him...i realise that,,but still- some things look so silly beatwean us,,i'm crying and laughing at the same time---there the moments when it feels as perefctly danced tango , and there some moments when it is a bad improvised play; i said that i went out with friends and we met very cute guys, but i was thinking ,worrying about where is he, what is wrong? Haven't talked for a 3 days and for a past 2 weeks before we spoke it was me who called--i used to ignore things like that, but now barely live messages , so last time we spoke he sound tired, said that he is tired will call me back. Guess what? He called me back only after 3 days,right after i left that part at City(i swear before i was ignoring it, now u see i even count days--what is going on with me,him, us—?)and for that days i was so angry, i decided not to pick up the phone on him, and his secrecy,privacy ,silence grrrrr- i was ready for a kill:but than i forgot to look at caller ID, picked up the phone , heard his voice ,felt happy that he is o.k, and he sounded more rested and mellow---so here i at that point i turned into ice,,,yes,no,maybe--he start sound upset.We cut the conversation --i felt guilty it is emoutinal blackmail,,,i wanted to cry, but my other half was calm .
But few days later he called, i love that he "sensing" what needs to be done sometimes,,,and now he blurted , that got things to do, places to be.....kinda explanation...
But , me , i'm changing and for how long that new "other" me will be satisfied with that explanation, if things wouldn't get back as they used to be----who knows? How i think- we used to give each other more love,,,not demanding smth in-return,,and we got used to a certain amount of it, so now he is not giving enough and i'm not feeling like sharing too, i was trying to figure out why,,do i feel that way? I guess i need to just enjoy giving, as it used to be.
UGH,,,,i got carried away with all that
analizing,,,,better tell me what have you done lately? How is it?
How is your classes?What's new?
by-bye honey,,,take care and enjoy your coffee.
Aqua 2

Where is spell thing,,can't even fix all of my mistakes, too many of them.
Please ignore!
Aqua 2

Joke of the day.
WB i hope u'll like it.

Husband suspected his wife to have an affair..so hired famous chinese detective-mr,Chow Fun Who.In a few days the man got his first report from detective:
Most honorable sir:
You live house ,
He come house.
I watch.
He and she leave house.
I follow.
He and she get on train.
I follow.
He and she go in hotel.
I climb tree- look in window.
He kiss she.
She kiss he.
He strip she.
She strip he.
He play with she.
She play with he.
I play with me .
Fall out of the tree, not see-
No fee.

he-he o hope it is not too naughty for this place, oh i'm feeling very frisky today..I love to tell him different jokes and if he really likes it, when he is laughing his eyes become so narrow, like no eyes at all. lol
funny...ups, what is it nostalgy?
Enjoy your day,,,,,
Talk to you later.
Aqua 2

"there the moments when it feels as perefctly danced tango , and there some moments when it is a bad improvised play; i said that i went out with friends and we met very cute guys, but i was thinking ,worrying about where is he, what is wrong?"

Are you dancing the tango now, or are things still like a bad play? I liked the descriptions too. And I understand about the hair cut, LOL! Maybe he should let it grow out again if it would make you happy!? How can you cry and laugh all at the same time. Sometimes I laugh so hard I cry but never both at the same time; right now I am feeling very mellow! And you're feeling frisky! Sounds like you'll be going out again and maybe not leaving the party so soon?Urg I am stuck inside, it is still pouring down rain here, and the worst part of the storm hasn't got here yet; I think I just saw a house with some people on the roof go by! Let see what else did you ask me? Oh! classes are boring! The challenge is no longer there for me. Just going throught the motions. I have 2 projects due a week and they are due by Friday at 11:55 p.m., so I wait until 10:00 p.m. to even start them. Last Friday I got a drunk first and then started just to make it a little more interesting. I haven't got my grades back, but I am interested to know how I did! Some of the courses I am taking are redundant but you have to have them to finish! Not much more to say for now. Why don't you come on over!! I wish you could that would be fun. I guess I'll go sew. Last spring I bought a sewing machine and went crazy buying material and patterns. I was making 2-3 skirts a night and I have all this stuff cut out and waiting to be finsihed and I just stopped. Now I am into it again?!! went around to all the different material stores and picked up free samples. I am making a velvet crazy quilt all out of theses six inch square samples. I collect and make quilts. This one is going to be really special and I will give it to a friend as a present.

Your joke made me laugh! Very cute and sounded just like the way it should, LOL!

Mr. and Mrs. Grabowski (sp?((polish) were working in the back yard raking leaves and mowing the grass. Mr. Grawboski sees a big pile of doggy poopoo. He goes over to his wife and opens his hands and tell her "hey, Mary would you look at this; I almost stepped in this!"
I told this to my polish buddy at work and he roared! we do this all the time!

that was from me AQ
Have a great day!

Love
WB

Oh One more thing AQ,

What about a mohawk or how abut completely bald, I don't really like the way that looked! How do you like him to look? I am wondering because I am thinking about what the latest style s are and I like to keep up! LOL

About his hair, i guess i don't mind , i just did get used to it...right now ?
mhhhh i think it is somwhere in the middle betw tango and play,,,
Wow,, i haven't sewed for a very long time...you are just wonderfull!I feel so proud of you he-he,,,
About classes i guess at some point it happens, still you'll need to try to get that challange back.
Yeh it is getting rainy here too,,, i'm making collection of russian songs, getting the best songs on one tape from 8 cds,,for my gf, she is going to have her birthday is soon, thinking to make one copy for lubochka- usually he likes russian songs. About me going out,, i tried few times, i can't say that i'm not enjoying my friends company and i do have fun , but feel uncomfortable when smbody start to hit on me too hard, i can't say that i really appreciate that attention.
About crying and laughing, that when you smile when little teardrops running down the cheeks.
Lol maybe it really fun if i was able to meet you, he-he u would remind me how to sew!....That joke of yours is funny,,,,so funny i got to write it down....
o.k doki--i'll keep doing that record i'll write you in a little bit..
Listen don't take it too personall, do you drink because of that not "materalized dream" or it was really a challange?
I just worry about how you feel now,,,,don't wear mask, if it is too painfull ,try to let it out somehow,,,please don't tourture yourself: esp about it been on public display( i just finished reading all what i missed recently on a board) i think that you a very strong person, because anybody else wouldn't even show a tip of feelings if they were aware of it to be on public..You deserve the same strength , apprecation and care in return , so i think it is all ahead of you darling.
Aqua 2

one more thing, about goin g out, most of my friends are settled down, other half is in betw few bf,,,,,both of this parts crave fun, changes and heavy flirt that sometime ending up in short term relation plus if settled part kinda carefull, because they are affraid to lose settled relationship, the part that in betw take it as: oh you
are not calling me so,, i'll find substitued" so hanging out a lot with them bores me a little bit + there couple of malefriends who act as they have crush on me(or maybe they see me as a challenge that got to be conquered ,submitted?) for sometime, i'm trying to avoid them also and pretty often they are part of the crowd ,,,,and there so many things that i like to do-read,write,draw,cook, making design notes(or is it dreaming that one day i'll be able to design clothes or homeinteriors) ,watch tv,,,and so on, i perfectly can live without getting out so much.
Aqua 2

tada ,,,,,sun came out,,,,rain stoped
skies are blue,,and i'm dancing in here;
i guess i'll talk a walk to the beach in next hour

by-bye
Aqua 2

Listen don't take it too personall, do you drink because of that not "materalized dream" or it was really a challange?

You tell me. You seem to know me very well! How come you do that? I am fine though...there is nothing to worry about! But it does hurt; I try not to let it and to think only good things. And read the poems. I hope everything works out someway!!! I can't do everything by myself; I need some help!
Do you think my dream will happen?? Is it possible? I think it is but I always think that way!!! Please tell me, ok! I listen to your advice.
Love,
WB

and please don't tell me something like "it may not turn out like the way you want it to, but down the road blah blah" if you are going to say something like that, then I would rather you just relpied with a simple yes or no!

When I lived in Connecticut and I would go in this bar, the bar tender would say, Jesus, you here again, so I thought for a long time that's who I was!!!

Just kidding!!!

I am not like you are thinking! Please give me some slack??

WB , sweety;
on one part it takes two to tango, on another nobody knows situation better than you,,,,+ if you really believe usually it comes true.What else can i say..the border between possible and impossible is thin and life never could be 100% guranteed, but hey who is not risking, don't drink champaign.Anyway only patience ,belief and trying can prove or bring result.
I wish that all what you desire will come true with all my heart, but you the one who is making choices, cause in a life you always have a chance and situation is ,as you relate ,view, feel or taking it.It is like see glass half-full or half-empty.
Keep faith and don't "sink" in that water because of some influence, you should be the main influence. You'll never know ,unless you try: whatever the result is you tried, you were strong enough to voice it , so you are winner with big "w" doesn't matter what!

Love and hope it don't sound too much like a puzzle.
Aqua 2

And my motto it is better to love and lose, than not to love at all,,,because you heard it before it is like a gym for the soul....also i think that all people in our life is for some reason,,,
they could stay or could teach us something and go....we don't own each other, and how one of the great wise man from the east said:
-The more clinging , the faster losing
-We got to enjoy and be happy , while we got a chance.
-People who really love each other,getting out of the control of destiny and rules that the rest of the people obide too,and through there love they complete each other,share strength,knowledge,love and double it in inside of there realationship.
-happiness for him is "i want", happiness for her is" he wants"
,,,,and i don't remember there a few more...
I guess i answered it , not as you wanted to hear---still i think it is like in that russian song:"Listen it is all in your hands, and even me,," I guess you should know better,,,and for you that should be the only truth.
Aqua 2

AQ,

Ok!, I hear what you are saying, but
I don't know the situation better; this is why I was asking you. I would not ask if I knew! Very true about life &love guarantees. Maybe we are coming from two different places in our lives. Maybe I am landing to make my nest, and he is taking off to feel & test his wings. I have been by myself for along time, and I never knew what security or even cared to know what it was. I have always lived for today and that was it. Not always did I want to, but my life always went where it wanted to go, and I never questioned anything; I just went with the flow. I have loved and lost enough, and I really don't care to make any more mistakes! Not as far as relationships go!!! I guess I need to find out where he wants to go, in his life. Is he testing his wings or is he coming down, or what? If he is not a mate for life, like I am, then he ought to fly away!

Love,
WB+

Thanks for your words they were of comfort to me.

AQ,

Before I shut down becuase there is a flash flood and a terrible storm here now, I wish he knew how safe his feelings are with me. I would never hurt him, and I would make him very, very safe and happy! I just don't know how to get this through to him!!!!!!!!! There is NO reason to fear anything with me. He should already know that he is the only one I want, forever!!!

Love and thank you for your friendship
WB

WB:
You just have to let him know that,and if he is not easy to believe-prove.
But first as you said, you got to figure out what he is looking for?Than you will know what to do.Nobody will know or understand it better than you, cause you love him, and it is in your heart,,,
All the best, good luck and my thoughts are with you; hope you'll clear it all up and your dreams will all come true.

Aqua 2

AQ2,

Well, I got my answer last night, and it wasn't what I wanted to hear!!! I can't say I wasn't expecting it though. He called and left a message. I wanted to call him right back, but I tried and got the wrong number. I ended up talking to some guy I didn't even know. He has so many different ph# numbers; I never dial the right one, and sometimes I end talking to the wrong person.LOL I never wait to see who answers. As soon as I hear, what I think is a familiar hello, I start talking. Yes, I do talk to much, and maybe I shouldn't!!! I cried much last night and today and swore to myself that I would never, ever, let someone close to me again! I have said this before, but each time it last a little longer. Why is it so damn hard, to do something that feels so damn easy—? I hope your Lubochka knows how lucky he is!!!! You are a sweetheart and a treasure and I wish you so much love and affection! You deserve it. We both do! Take care; CU when I CU
your friend,
WB

and I am not gonna stop smiling! 🙂 just can't do it!!! when I think of all the funny things he has said and the wonderful conversations, It still makes me laugh!

WB

Wb:
Solnishko(from russian sun or sunny)
i'm happy that you'll keep that smile on,,,
About answer, so did you funally got him on the phone? Sometimes communication with people close to your "candy" is good ,,did you bumped on his friend?
How far do you live, you never said that, and if he makes effort to reach to you, here we go---ta da.....
And ofcourse it feels good when we hear nice, funny, fuzzy things but when we here from the person we also in love with it is like regular multiplied 100 times , no million----because you remember every word, every joke, voice......oh and yes, i heard that before i'm very idialistic(how others think) , too romantic and blah-blah ,,,but for me it means Love....

Enjoy yours,,,,be good,,see u later.
You go, honey!
Aqua 2

"Wb:
Solnishko(from russian sun or sunny)
i'm happy that you'll keep that smile on,,,
About answer, so did you funally got him on the phone? Sometimes communication with people close to your "candy" is good ,,did you bumped on his friend?
How far do you live, you never said that, and if he makes effort to reach to you, here we go---ta da.....
And ofcourse it feels good when we hear nice, funny, fuzzy things but when we here from the person we also in love with it is like regular multiplied 100 times , no million----because you remember every word, every joke, voice......oh and yes, i heard that before i'm very idialistic(how others think) , too romantic and blah-blah ,,,but for me it means Love...."

Wb:
Solnishko(from russian sun or sunny)
i'm happy that you'll keep that smile on,,,
About answer, so did you funally got him on the phone? Sometimes communication with people close to your "candy" is good ,,did you bumped on his friend?
How far do you live, you never said that, and if he makes effort to reach to you, here we go---ta da.....
And ofcourse it feels good when we hear nice, funny, fuzzy things but when we here from the person we also in love with it is like regular multiplied 100 times , no million----because you remember every word, every joke, voice......oh and yes, i heard that before i'm very idialistic(how others think) , too romantic and blah-blah ,,,but for me it means Love....

I hear from him, but we are very far from each other! No, on the bumping of friends. He feels too much a part of me, like he is here with me sometimes! There is no other quite like him! Love, yes I would say so!

WB
sometimes i feel u getting upset about all that distance thing,,,,i'm not going to bring it up anymore, sorry.
And i guess respond that u get wasn't to your satisfaction too.
Anyway u should know better, but it is good sometimes to leave a bebifit of the doubt,,,,,cause we all different and sometimes could just be a missundrestanding....
I hope you aren't upset....if you'll want to share you know where to write too, if you'll need my email, let me know....
Anyway,,,,,feel better, head up!
Life is beautifull.
Aqua 2

AQ2,

Had to write you!!! I am so excited!!! I got an interview with my dream job and I am flipping out! Oh! god what if i screw up—— I have been bugging this women for months. I finally begged and told her "I would do anything for a interview", she said laughed and said ok! This is with the big boys, and I have to know if I can cut the mustard. I have been doubting myself and thought the only way to find out was to try! It's legal interning for the not just any old judge but Distict judges! If I get this, I will learn from the best! I have to thank the Lord!! Ok! what am I going to wear? I have to look my best! Oh! I feel kind of sick to my stomach! I'll talk to ya later!
WB

AQ,

I got my grades back from last Friday and I wanted you to see how I did! this is a message back from my instuctor!LOL

Maybe I should try this more often—?

I better not push my luck!!

Ok, if I tap myself on the back—


"Message no. 5 [Branch from no. 4] Sent by Susan Werner (IST_225_880_02fa) on Tue Sep 17, 2002 16:40
Susan, Excellent report! Where is the attached clipart?"
Susan Werner

WB
Write me when you feel like it!

WB
sorry i was all tied up yesterday
honey i know for sure that you'll get that job,,cause simlply u are the best!
So go ahead and don't even question it!
You hear me?
And i'm going to hold my fingers for ya,,,,just to make myself look more important,,,,,,joking.....listen i feel that you are up to the challenge and you will impress them all, don't even doubt it

see you later
love
Aqua 2

AQ,

Ah! AQ, you are always so damn good to me!!! and you are very important to me!!!! You're the BEST! I want life to be shininy and new for you just like a happy and loved little child! You deserve nothing but the best! That would make me happy! Do you hear me—

My mind feels tired! I was talking to someone on the other board, and I don't know but I feel drained! Not unhappy so much, just blah! I should feel excited but I don't! I am defintely not myself. My sister asked if I am eating right?! I need to get the zing back again, I feel like running away! Just F*** the ball game! Ever feel like disappearing and leading a secret life? Maybe it is mid-life crisis! HAH! thanks for always being such a good friend. I'll talk to you soon!

WB

o.hhhh feel better
it is just a full moon, joking
we all need some breaks, cause it is too
dangerous to go all sytem ahead all time.
Just enjoy your quiet times and also it could be very usefull, some time tet-a-tet,,,to sort out thoughts,opinions,plans. It doesn't always mean, that your diet should be changed-take it as just moments for yourself, we all need to be loved by ourselves.....he-he hope u feel better alredy.
bye-bye
And how is that impression things worked, did they alredy felt in love with you and gave you the best employee benefit program? Hope it is good and you got it.....see ya
Aqua 2

and sweety get a good night sleep before next interview,relax....just be yourself , be confident(not too confident,,,,just enough to show them that you are the who is responsible and the one they need)...and oh ,,,i'm sure you know it all by yourself...
Good luck,,,,,
Aqua 2

AQ,

Ok! But when and if I get hired( and I will cause I won't let up unitl I do!), I want you and me to meet and I will pay for everything! We can meet some-where and have a little vacation!!! You help me so much and you have no idea how much I appreciate you!!! I listen to all your advice and you are so smart and wise! Now, I am single and have no one to answer to, but maybe you need to ask Lubochka? Then later in life when years go by and you are a grandma, you can tell your grandkids about your crazy friend WB! LOL! I just have to meet you and give you a hug!!! You really are my friend! Maybe my best!!!

Thank you for lighting the fire and I will do my best, I promise! Not too over confident; yes, I have learned that lesson already! They say when you are in your 20's and 30's it is all about looks and when you hit your 40's, it's all about personality! After that it's money! LOL I think I still got it, and I still feel like I am a youngerster, but I know so much more!! ya know what I'm talkin about? LOL

Anyway, thank you and I cherish you!

Promise me you will get some rest! You sound very tired and I am worried about you!!! Seems like you are always trying to hold things together on your own. Let someone help you for a change!!! I hope you are OK and things are fine! Tell me otherwise,ok! You know if you need anything, I am here, for real! I am not just saying that!!! Want my phone #?

Goodnight and sweet dreams,
WB

PS: About this job, I have to do something so I might as well do it well and get all the experience I can. One day I will work for myself. I already have my plan! I will work from home and be my own boss! What do ya think?

Love
WB

AQ,

How's it goin? I wanted to give you the lowdown!

I did very well today, and it looks very good. I go back Tuesday at 3:00 and we go over job duties and meet with others. Sounds like I'll be a gopher, but I will be busy and will be on the go. Every job I've had, that I liked, has been that way! On my own! I can't stand someone looking over my shoulder.

The woman I will be interning for is a character!!! She is maybe late 50 or early 60's! A real Southerner. Kind of like Ann Richards the demo from TX. A real straight shooter, and I think I am going to really enjoy this one. I have only had one or two bosses in my life that I really respected and this one I have a good feeling about!

I guess I am set, just need a man!LOL Ya know what, I am going to start asking my ex-husband and b/f for written references and a ph# so they (new one) can call and hear from them! What I am like! I'm for real! It seems like guys are so damn bitter and think we (women) are always trying to bulls*** them! I just don't understand them. What do they want from a women— Do they want a nice girl or do they want a sexed out beauty queen? or a total friend? The total friend seems to get their way!

Well, bent your ear enough! Got to get this insipid project in the mail by midnight! Better start hammering the Coo-Coo juice!!! I need a little of that Johnny Cochoran combo! It always get me off LOL!
Another worthless evening!

WB
truly it is 20 min to 4 at the morning and as after that busy day a fell asleep at the couch ,,now i woke up to move to the bed(usuall thing with me) , so i decided maybe it worth to check a massage board while i'm still in a living room.
he-he i was soo right,,,,,,i got a slight cold...so maybe my concentration is not at best.
About meeting --sure thing,,,,if you don't mind to hung out with 22 years old....just know that some people still see me as a big kid.
And you don't sound as it is just a regular evening,, maybe it seems for ya at first , but you have so much of positive energy going in your letter.
He-he ,,,totally agreed about bosses,....
O.K I Think i better move to bed, my feet are freezing.....so i see you tommorow morning,,with a cup of coffee(you) and a cup of hot tea with honey(me), so than i'll write you more,,,
have a nice one.....
by-bye
love
Aqua 2...
WB have you seen TM,Heather or anybody recently,,,, last time when i responded to you ,i wanted to ask---cause it looks kinda too quiet.?

Aq-

Hey ya I am up to early for ya! Early bird cathces the worms. No i had to take the sis to work. Clemson is playin this weeknd she has to goin at 6 to make 500 pieces of fried chicken and all the other soul food we eat down hear in Beulah land! We like football down here, do you like it? You gonna catch a cold letting your feet get cold! I had a regular night and got my homework done, and after this weekend no more coo-coo punch! and if it stops rainin me and the dogs are gonna go mow the back yard. gonna go make some coffe. oh! i got some new green tea and it has hold on is green tea with orange passionfruit and jasmine. This is very good, you should have some. you are only 22? you seem very older and wise!!! I don't know where everybody went to on here? like BobDylan says Things have change- people are crazy and times are strange- im locked in tight- i'm out of range- i use to care- but things have changed! but i'm still here! do ya know it is still rainin here since last week. the front of the yard looks like muchroom farm. no kidding. my sister says that means good luck. Must be cause i feel very lucky! ok talk to ya later! hope you get alot of rest and feel better!
WB

You are an early bird,,,,
WB , i knew that you'll be surprised that i'm soo youngm plus i look like a 17 year old,,,,so that fool people sometimes.
I'm still with this cold,,,and pills making me sleepy,,,unbeliavable get cold while in Nyc is sunny weather, must to be AC.
I got some green tea with jasmine too,but my favoriet is raspberry or black currant,,,
Maybe i need to drink some mixx of vodka , salt ,pepper -in russia they believe that it help to sooth throat,,he-he i don't know about my throat , but i'll be laughing and smily is 100% , my voice right now sound like i'm smoking 24/7, ...some say is sound sexy,but i'm not a fast believer.
WB you'been married alredy?,,,I bet he tried to get back with you, right or wrong?
About who the looking for, i think for a friend, lover,sweet homekeeper,oversexed bi..h,innocent girl---all at once,,,,,before i thought that they have some certain ideals,,, but now i think that they could search to marry somebody who is close to there mother,still they want somebody who is a little bit of everything,,,,,maybe i'm wrong?
O.k got to make some more tea,,,,
love
Aqua 2

There you are AQ,

Finally got your rear out of the bed?? j/k! Every January I would catch the worst cold; sometimes it would last 6 weeks or longer, before I would get my voice back; and yes, I had people tell me it sounded good, but when I laughed which is often, you would get this high pitched giggle!! They would say it sounded like a little girl laugh. I don't like staying in air condiitong too much. It's not good for ya. I was married at 18 for 10 years and learned alot and I am sure if you called him, he could tell ya some stories about me. I think he still loved me; but no, too much trust had been taken away. I never went out on him and I was all those things above and I guess maybe he was young and got tempted and strayed big time (even in front of me not good because I am jealous natured) and well, long story! Plus he was a Gemini and he was a dual personality! I try to forget the bad stuff, and remember the good. I talked to him about 5 years ago. I called and no answer. He had caller ID and phoned me right back! It was like talking to my brother. I think of him as that. Go rest and keep drinking your tea! I have to take the dogs to the park. It is still pouring rain here, and they won't go out if it's raining unless I take them in the van to the park! Ok, my friend, hope you get well very quickly!
Talk to ya later
WB

AQ,
You must be out like a light! Thats good! Lots of rest! I can't take sleepers; they make me feel tooringy! They certainly work though!

K, also tea and maybe rock& rye with lemon and honey! Very soothing and will make you feel so good.

Nothing is gonna get rid of it,but time. I think it takes about 10
days for a cold. I can help you from ever getting another one though! Start taking Echinacia (purple coneflower);it is a medicinal herb you can get at most stores that sell them. I turned a friend on that
use to get sick all the time and have severe migraines(kind that make you vomit and can't move)she
has not been sick or had any headaches since.
got to run to town.
WB

All of this Girl Talk....

Hello Honey buns,,,

TM

TM ,,,hello
how are you?
where have you been?
Is this girls talk keeping you of posting something that you will want to talk about?LOL,,,you know we can post day and night,doesn't matter if besides that "talk " we will have
couple more topics.
Whats new with you?
I kinda missed you alredy,,,,,he-he
hope you are doing fine,, stay in touch.

WB !
i'm almost cured, no coughing, no fever....lol like a brand new.
How are you sweety? How is your new job going?
Still raining? How is your mood? Smiling?
Classes?
O.k see you later,,,be good,,take care of yourself.

Hi! AQ,

I am glad you are well, sugar!!! You also sound terrific! I will go to the job tomorrow and get the details.

Yes, I am always smiling, don't know why! My mom said at 6 months old I had a huge laugh! 🙂

Today is first day of fall, and no more drinking with the school classwork or anytime. I am going back to more simple adequate and serious life style . I like to cut loose every now and again but enough is enough! don't feel good and changes my mood too extremely.

Got a pile of laundry to fold and get ready for tomorrow, so I will talk to ya later!

Love,
WB

AQ,

Just a quick hello to let you know that all is going just fine!

The job looks very good. I had another meeting and was given intern duties etc...and met staff. When I start? If I take it, and I am considering it. There are a few things that I have to think about and I am not sure which way I should go yet!

Ok, doing my homework and got to get it done!

Hope you and Lubochka doing great, and he is over there molesting you as I type this. 🙂

CU later
Love
WB

Hi! ya AQ,

How are you?? I think I got the same cold you had last weekend!!! I have sore throat, fever. It got cold here last night and I woke up yesterday morning and was freezing. I leave fan on me pretty much year round because I like the air to circulate. Well it is almost 4 in the morning and I am gonna try and go back to sleep for an hour. Hope you are well!
Write me soon if you can, I need to ask you something, ok!
Love,
WB

Honey,,,WB,,how are you? Did u take any medicine,hot tea?
Ilike to keep fun working too, and windows open-i guess love for fresh air.
I was working and though i got no fever or cough i feel tired ,weak ---i guess need to take vitamins ,it is a seasons change period.
About Lubochka , he is too busy, secretive and too introverted now,,,,truly i'm a little bit upset, but trying to ignore it---plus i almost finished book where i put all poems about him and now very tempted just to give it to him as a present and take some time by myself,,,explaining it to him like a need for a break or maybe break up, whatever , cause maybe if i'll know that i'm not with him , imagining that we wasn't really meant to be , it will help me to start a new, will make me feel more easier, less worried about him also i hope i'll be able to switch my attention (let's say to work,actually that what i was doing lately) and wouldn't be missing him so much---i'll try to move on.Because when we know something for sure, we accepting new reality and getting ready for something new.It just feels that i got no more patience, need to settle it once and for all.
o.k i wasn't trying to upset you, just mentioned how i feel and what is going on....
What did u wanted to ask me?
Sweety get well, do something before that cold got farther , o.k?
How is your classes and new job?
Is it still raining there? How is your family, sister and your dogs doing?
O.k hope to hear from ya soon,,,,,take care.
Love
Aqua 2

i meant fan instead of fun

Hi AQ,

Glad to hear from you!!! You always make me feel better cause you call me sweety or honey. I don't know what happened to me! I am really sick. It feels like pnuemonia. I have had that a couple times in my life and it feels like it now. I am taking and drinking grapefruit juice. It has it's own natural quinine in it. Has worked before. I can't let myself get cold anymore or this happens, and did wake up the other morning freezing. Today I had to fix the fence because my big dog gets out and I don't want him to get hit by car. He has an ear infection and I had to get him taken care of today.
I don't want you and Lubochka to splitup! You will break his heart if you do! Can you just tell him simply what you need? Maybe he is clueless? Can I continue in this in the morning I need to go back to bed!!! I am watching the Abyss and trying to stay warm. Have you ever seen it? It is one of my favorite movies. The part when she drowneds to save her husband was sad but I would have done it too! It is on WE channel. I am getting cold again sitting here.
I will talk to you in the morning.
Do you ever have any trouble loggin in?
I always do. I don't know why.
Ok, hope you are well. And I want you to talk to me about how you are feeling and what you need to be happy! I think you need to come and see me and we can have some fun!
Love,
WB

Good mornin AQ,

I just got up and came into puter to see if you left me a message. Yuk, I feel awful!!! It hit me fast. I went from sore throat and cold like to a full blown virus. Last night around 7 pm I just got really sick. It is in my lungs and it hurts!!! I was thinking about what you said to me last night about your attention to your job and how you are stressing because of Lubochka. I don't think you two should call it the end. You guys I'll be alright! Tell me how you would want it to be if it could be perfect? I know it is hard, but when has it ever been easy? I feel bad about this and want you to be happy and your mind should be at ease! What happened to trusting and caring and all that? Are the feelings just not there anymore? OK, I am waiting to hear from you!
WB

oh and AQ, are you may be losing intrest in Lubocka because he is not around so much, and has someone else caught your attention??
You know what they say "out of sight- out of mind!" Remember those moments you danced? You are a very special person and whatever you need or want you should have, you deserve it!!! I am positive that if he knew what it is you wanted, he would try and give it to you if he could!
WB

I think sometimes that the best way to view a situation Aq, is to try and put yourself in the other persons shoes. We really don't know what it is they(Lubochka)is going through at times, or anybody really. I just hope you don't feel like he is taking advantage of you! I can't imagine him being that stupid!!! Whenever you want to, you let me know, and we will have our little get together and you will go back home with a different perspective!!!LOL

ps: I meant to say, I hope you don't think he is taking you for granted!!!