So I've been speaking to a CM for about 2 or 3 weeks now, and we're still at that stage of scoping each other out (and I had just gotten out of some kind of thing with a CapM that didn't really work out). Anyway, I went to visit him the other day for the first time really after class. We were looking for movies to watch while talking/getting to know each other more. We settled on a movie, started watching, but we were still talking in between. He found out I was ticklish and he started tickling me; this kind of went on throughout the night where he would tickle me, then stop, then start again; and we eventually had this little battle where he tried to figure out where my most ticklish spots were. I wouldn't tell him and that made him more determined. We ended up cuddling and he kept telling me that he liked cuddling with me and that he liked me in general; now this wasn't news to me. He already told me he kind of had a crush on me already and that he was cuddler. So this was okay. I didn't really know how to respond, considering I was still figuring him out, so I kept asking him why. Not completely smart of me, but I couldn't help it. So while spooning, he would blow on my neck, ear, kiss my neck lightly. Usually I would have tensed up from this, but it just tickled and I kind of enjoyed it. We started making out, but it was very passionate. Then we ended up fooling around but stopped when interrupted by someone at the door.
After a while, we started playing video games after I asked if we could because I was so caught off guard. After a couple of rounds, he leaned over and kissed me again. Then from there, we started fooling around again. However, when he tried to have sex, I stopped him. He asked me why, and I just told him that I felt like we were moving too fast, even though we had been doing all kinds of things earlier. I was just overwhelmed and caught off guard. But before I left, I lay there and stroked his ear and tried to explain why I couldn't go that far with them. He kept telling me he understood and that he really liked me, and that to him, sex was just sex, but the heart was the heart and he was also a cautious person. Before I walked out, he hugged me and kissed me and apologized for being out of control and that the next time he'd be good.
The thing is, I wasn't tht upset with him and I can't figure out why. In fact, I haven't been able to stop thinking about him and I was incredibly turned on by how passionate he was, as well as how nice he was. Still, are caps known to move that fast? I explained to him that I needed a little time to be able to trust him fully, but I still find it strange that I wasn't as upset as I figured I should have been.
After a while, we started playing video games after I asked if we could because I was so caught off guard. After a couple of rounds, he leaned over and kissed me again. Then from there, we started fooling around again. However, when he tried to have sex, I stopped him. He asked me why, and I just told him that I felt like we were moving too fast, even though we had been doing all kinds of things earlier. I was just overwhelmed and caught off guard. But before I left, I lay there and stroked his ear and tried to explain why I couldn't go that far with them. He kept telling me he understood and that he really liked me, and that to him, sex was just sex, but the heart was the heart and he was also a cautious person. Before I walked out, he hugged me and kissed me and apologized for being out of control and that the next time he'd be good.