Started seeing my now ex feb 2014. All was well for afew months until he had a death in the family. He hit the drink (alcoholic proportions) lost his motivation enthusiasm etc.i stuck by him. Im very domesticated.I cooked cleaned his butter mopped his brow cleaned up his sick. Even stupidly turned a blind eye when he was verbally abusive almost daily whilst paraletic drunk....Then a disappearing act for five weeks. This hurt as he wouldnt reply to texts or calls and I was genuinely worried he would turn up dead threw drink and drugs! Stupidly when I found out his mum and siblings hadn't heard from him I didnt take it so personal. After an ultimatum he finally came home and things slightly improved. For a while anyway.Few months down the line sex completely stopped altho I know he has a porn addiction which was hard to get round especially when he would turn down my advances. Im not a bad looking girl n im efficient in the bedroom lol. I brought up the topic n got called a sex addict which is unfare as once a week is on the lower end to what im use to but that hardly constitutes a sex addict Iin my opinion. As the time continued I noticed his friends falling away as he systematically pushed everyone away with his drunk abusive behaviour. I must admit I love this man dearly. Looking at the facts before me and being a logical person I should have walked away. But how could I leave him in his time of need. We broke up couple more times and I got the feeling that altho he said the words love that he was just using me for money for drink and clean shelter and cooking. Forward to the last two weeks tomy horror I realised Iim pregnant.I told him and he was very excited. He told his parents and told my son even tho I told him I wasnt comfortable with that. Afew days later he came homedrunk and abusive towards me and my daughter which was very upsetting. The next morning I chachallenged his behaviour and stated that if the drink didn't stop he would have to leave.So he left. Now he doesnt want the baby. He wants me to terminate the pregnamcy. So far hadnt come to any of my hospital appointment s. Yesterday I found out im 8 weeks gone already. I informed him over text and he didnt seem bothered. I feel that everything he claimed was a lie and I was a mug. He came round last nyt told me he was sick of the rut and tried to pin the problems all on me. I tried to get him out of the rut but his heavy drinking and hangovers made him reluctant to leave the house.I ignored all the advice from friends and his family and now im literally left carrying the baby. Was I played for a fool? Iv never been treated this way. Im 29 and hes 26. My last relationship lasted 10 years so I know mosly what makes men tick and relationships work but I could never figure this one out. I ignored narcissisic tendency and chalked it up to grief. Oh how wrong I was. Do I keep the door openfor him lile some kind of doormat or do I walk away for good? Help and advice needed
