aqua males, how would u feel-react, respond to

aqua males, how would u feel-react, respond to

In the whole scheme of things your games made u the loser.
Every single negative thing u said u don't do, u did. And u hid it under the premise that it was done to u so u know better. That was pure evil.
I was not fool enough, but faithful enough to believe that there is inherent good in everyone. Who I forgot about was (my ex). He has no good in him at all. He is completely selfish and self absorbed. And so r u. There is only one difference between u 2 and that is he can't be helped.
U on the other hand choose to do these things. They are calculated and that makes u worse. Your huge mistake was trying to make me out to b something I am not nor ever will b. I don't cheat, I don't lie, I don't deceive, and I don't set people up. What I do is trust, have faith, forgive, love, encourage, I don't judge, I'm open to growth. When I make a mistake I try and learn from it.
We are all equal on this mother fucker. Some people just choose to stay ignorant. U feel me?
I know that I know that I know that the man who is smart enough to really see me and brave enough to trust will be the luckiest man on this earth, if I choose him. Not because I'm better than anybody else, but because I love like there is no tomorrow. I love the way I want to b loved. And that is with an open mind and heart. Which makes me vulnerable but oh Fucking well.
Ur deceiving and lying to me fucked me up Fucking bad but I'm walking away victorious. U know why? Cuz I Fucking stayed true to myself in the long run. I could give a fuck abt what other people think.
U ended up Fucking Urself by assuming whatever it is u assume about me. U may have thought I would hurt u but I never would have. Fuck yeah I say things out of anger. But when was I ever angry? When u Fucking lied or were setting me up. And when I knew u were putting a wall up. Cuz I was right dumbass. And u know it. I was right about (girls name), I was right about (girls name). And I'm not sorry I wrote her cuz u Fucking lied to her too. And she deserved to know.
So where does all this leave u? Without me, and that's punishment enough.

I'm assuming this is a letter you want to send someone? and want to know how they'll respond?

I'm not an aqua, but I do have a strong aqua mars - I wouldn't read it all. Who wants to read a butt hurt letter stating how bad you are?

I totally didn't read that crap

Holy shit! That bad? I sent this to my ex because I can't get over how he fucked me over.
Now I feel like a total nim! Fuck!

Oh dear *facepalm* should have waited until you calmed down. :-/

Lol. I'm good and thank u everyone for knocking me down a few pegs. I surely needed it!
@ dirtyfrank - I didn't think he would reply. I'm curious as to his reaction/thought process may b if he reads it. He won't tell me why he broke up with me. Everything was fine then Poof! he was gone!
I'm also strung to figure out if he still has feelings for me.
I know it's stupid but I wanna know.

What do u mean?

If you weren't exclusive he owes you nothing, no explanation.
If you were exclusive, then he's a douchebag for not giving you closure.

Don't sweat it, girl. It's done did.

Actually, these letters are healthy to write. Get all your feelings out like that helps you process. Just next time, stuff it in a drawer instead of sending it.

Let me elaborate a little on our relationship. I've been single for 6yrs aftr being mentally abused for 6yrs. It took me a long time to find me again and when he first asked me out I said yes but I needed to clear some personal things first. That took 4mnths. In that time he would come knock and we'd talk at the door every once in a while. He did all of the pursuing. I had no phone so that was our only contact. I didn't even let him inside.
When we did go out and started really talking I found that I was at complete ease with him. That has NEVER happened to me, ever. I wasn't afraid to completely be myself, I mean there was no fear. Dude, I'm always afraid of being vulnerable. I am very fearful of being made fun of or mind-fucked. I've lived that damn near my whole life.
I told him this. I also was up front with my bipolar disorder and said if he didn't wish Ro continue seeing me I'd understand. He said "Im not going anywhere".
I the type that keeps my word (especially on an emotional level). I've been hurt way too many times to ever do it to someone else. Anyway he knew I was apprehensive and eventually convinced me to trust him. Then he fucked me over.
I don't understand why. I really don't. I'm not perfect I know this. But I did nothing to deserve this. I am almost 50yrs old. He us 56! I thought he was to smart Ro jump in the sandbox like that.
In conclusion, I'm hurt. Let me rephrase, I'm hurting every day. We live across from eachother so that's not fun. I still love him (y, I've no clue) and I feel like mark...
Can someone turn just like that? Be loving one day and literally the next be a monster?

@ Truecap - thank u for the acknowledgement and I usually do not send them but I was super pissed!
@DirtyFrank - I so appreciate ur input also!

I'm back, sorry! @dirtyfrank, we were exclusive. Idk what he did but I'm pretty positive it had to do with a woman. He does flirt and there's a particular female he's know for over 20yrs. He said when they were young he liked her/she not interested....then
I just got a bad feeling. I talked to him n he said I was paranoid. I said I bet if we broke up she'd b on him like white on rice. He laughed it off but that's what happened.
If we r broken Up what's he got to hide? Just say what it is. The respect level completely disappeared. And ur right about my outburst. Cuz it pissed me off. No excuses but at least I'm saying it.

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I'm back, sorry! @dirtyfrank, we were exclusive. Idk what he did but I'm pretty positive it had to do with a woman. He does flirt and there's a particular female he's know for over 20yrs. He said when they were young he liked her/she not interested....then
I just got a bad feeling. I talked to him n he said I was paranoid. I said I bet if we broke up she'd b on him like white on rice. He laughed it off but that's what happened.
If we r broken Up what's he got to hide? Just say what it is. The respect level completely disappeared. And ur right about my outburst. Cuz it pissed me off. No excuses but at least I'm saying it.

Just accept that he's moved on. Nothing else you can do about it but accept it. Don't beat yourself up. Don't second guess. Just move on yourself. What other options do you have?

None really. It sure sucks when people suck don't u think? Thank u so much everyone for the input