I told him I love him

I met this aqua guy online in February and we would talk a few times a week. In April his grandfather passed away and he would call me 1am/2am in the morning b/c he couldn't sleep. This is when I started to care about him as a person or friend. The friendship continued to blossom, he started to open up to me more and vise versa and we started to talk more during the week. Two years ago he was in a serious relationship where she cheated and he hasn't been in a serious relationship since then. He's always said that he's not ready for a relationship right now. Please note that I didn't ask him for a relationship we were just having a conversation. He likes his space which is somewhat typical for an aquarius. I'm a gemini so my space is valuable to me too. A little insight: He was seeing a girl that he met at work that he told me about, the relationship was strictly sexual. She started to have feelings for him and he broke it off. He said that it made him feel awkward because he didn't feel the same. We finally met in person Labor Day weekend and the chemistry between us was awesome. The next time we met, we crossed the line. After the sex, we would lay in bed and talk for hours about our life just about everything. This happens between us all the time. To me we have this special friendship even though we're intimate with each other. He's just the perfect guy. I have a deadly but curable disease that I've been keeping from him and I finally told him last week. I'm this strong person and I don't like to feel people pity so I don't share. But it was killing me that I hadn't told him. The same day that I told him, I saw him that night and after we had sex he started crying. I've never seen a man cry like this before that it broke my heart. I felt bad for telling him because I didn't want to hurt him but I didn't know that I would get that type of reaction from him either because to me he's unemotional. Last night, I told him I was falling in love with him. He makes me want to fight the disease that I have. After I told him I said that I was sorry if I'm making him uncomfortable. He said not uncomfortable, overwhelming maybe but I'm glad you told me. Even though he didn't say it back I do know that he cares. But I'm scared that maybe he might become a little distant now. I don't know? I guess only time will tell. Are aquarius men good at hiding their emotions even if they feel the same way?

Hi,
Thanks for sharing your story, it is very special. I can't talk about your friend for sure, but I noticed, with my aqua, that they may feel something that they won't want to voice. Before my aqua started saying he loved me, he said it in many other ways, by doing things, by being there for me, through our physical and mental connexion, with his eyes, but there was no words coming out of his mouth. Even today, he says he loves me but not in French directly. I know mine suffered a lot before, so it's like he's being extra-cautious and maybe a bit superstitious not to voice too much. But if you can connect on a certain level with him, you can feel his love for you. I actually like the way he does it. It requires a bit of adaptation, but it's priceless!
Good luck with him and with your upcoming struggle.
S.

Thanks Cali. I guess I never looked at it like that before. He did tell me one time that he shares his emotions better in the physical rather than verbally expressing them. With me I guess I want both. I'm just curious to see how things will be between us now. Hopefully nothing will change.

Hi Cupcake! I am not an Aqua male, Saggie through and through but I just wanted to say your story touched my heart. And hopefully your Aqua is being honest with himself since it seems it touched his to.
I will not bore you with what I think, so just "feel". Good luck! 🙂

cupcakes... im no aqua, but i do have an aqua moon.i think ur story is really precious 🙂 im glad u found the courage n sincerity to tell him ur feelings. i pray he is able to reciprocate it 🙂 don think over it so much n worry urself. this has come straight from the heart...so have no regrets no matter what the outcome maybe. good luck! ^__^

I am so so sorry to hear about your disease. I hope that you will fight it. Life is so precious and it is truly a gift. It's hard but it's worth living. I am happy that were able to share that with him. I think he feels the same. He cried for you. *touches heart* oooohhh. *sigh*

I wish you all the best and everything that you need to overcome your strife hun.

I could be wrong but I'm going to go with my gut instinct

I doubt he'll stick around, if he couldn't stick around for a girl that he was only having sex with whom displayed loving feelings towards him which he could not reciprocate only to end up dumping her well the odds are he's probably contemplating a way out with you as well especially since you didn't wait for him to say he loved you first and on top of that you throw in something heavy like illness and now he's in a dilemma, he can't just let you go and be okay with it b/c that would make him look like a huge asshole breaking it off with someone who has an incurable disease, I'd cry too if I were him, it's a heavy situation and that would weigh down on me emotionally especially if I knew I wasn't going to stick it out with the person. I hope he sticks around for you, you seem to be a really awesome strong willed person, this is one of those situations were I deeply hope I'm wrong.