Scorpio and Gemini / need advice / I can take anything

So my Scorpio & I have been on & off for two years . He confuses the hell out of me . How after 2 years do you not know exactly what someone wants from you ?! I'll start at the beginning so everything is understood . We started off amazing (just talking) hanging out on weekends & just being absolutely perfect together with the most amazing conversations . He went on deployment for 6 months . We both agreed while he was gone that we weren't together cuz we wanted to be sure that we could handle it . I met someone after the 4th month & I was very honest with him about it.. (Yes I regretted it later on) he was so mad & hateful . He had told me he loved me while he was gone too but I never said it back.. I just told him I couldn't believe that he really did yet & he would get mad & say "whatever . I ended up ending things with the guy I met while he was gone . We got back on talking terms . Obviously things were rocky but at the same time we were doing alright.. He kept telling me how he was gonna remind me I was his.. Saw him when he got back & it was good for the most part . Since then things have been confusing as hell . One minute he's there telling me he misses me & begging me to see him & not to leave cuz I feel walked away from . I would only walk away cuz I figured he was walking away.. So he's aware that I could do it but he's also aware that I deeply feel for him so obviously I'm gonna give in... (Usually takes me a day or so) one minute it's I want your babies & I want to marry & die next to you.. The next it's "don't tell me you love me." Cuz I started saying it a few months down the line cuz I truly knew how I felt (still feel) . Things got even more complicated recently . I sent him a long ass text saying how much I loved him but I couldn't deal with the pain anymore.. Never responded.. A couple weeks later I receive "you should be here" I don't reply.. I receive "..." & I just start bitching & moaning cuz I'm so mad that I just said everything I said & thought maybe this is it.. Maybe we won't be toxic to each other anymore.. It took him al night of begging for me to finally come . I don't regret it at all... That's my baby.. I just wish I could see what the hell is going on with him.. He made sure I was the last person he saw before he went to Germany for a month... I'm still here waiting . I'm not going anywhere smh we can't get away from each other . (I don't chase until after he has chased) he's a Scorpio sun & cancer moon

He will come back if he truly loves you, only time will tell. Just focus on you and try to keep your mind off him. I've got a past with scorpios and for some reason I can't stay away, I know what you're going through and I feel for you right now. Be strong.