It has been a crazy year

Hi everyone,

I've spent years on my life where nothing seemed to happen. And now since December last year everything seems to be happening. I feel in such an emotional turmoil that I can't think clear. I won't go through work and family things (which I can deal with) but relationships wise:

- Last year my ex finished our six year relationship. She is an Aries 13 years older than me. We met at work, she was the ex-wife of my (at the time) boss. Problem was she never wanted to tell him about us, which limited the relationship moving forward to share a house. They had a young kid. Other than that it was a very complete relationship, we very attracted to each. Mind, body and soul connection was there. It wasn't easy and emotionally we were very different, but there was enough attraction to overcome that. We split in good terms after leaving in different countries for three years. We would see each other every month, but the distance was difficult. This process of splitting finished in December last year. I was there for Christmas, we had dinner many times, ended up in bed but she never wanted to reconsider. She felt there wasn't a way we could have a future. I know she is/was right, even though for me a mind and soul connection is a lot more important than any quotidian life. During Easter I told her I had met someone (see paragraph below). I said, we are not together, we met a month ago through friends and have been messaging since we met. She freaked out. Not in that day, but she started sending messages the next day. She said that if three months after I was interested in someone else, that's because I didn't loved her and the last two years had been. Other things happened in the meantime, but fast forwarding to the present, after 3 months without almost no communication she texted me this week. She says that she misses me a lot, feels my absence and thinks about me the whole time.

- I met this Scorpio girl through a common friend in March. There's a topic for it actually: https://www.dxpnet.com/opinion/scorpio/scorpio-girl-insights-8796549/. I liked her a lot, since the very first moment. She certainly liked me but, either she lost the interest on the way, or she never had it and just wanted to be friends, or she put me in a slow burner. Either way, she messed with my mind completely.

Actually, both of them messed with my mind a lot. I realised that I hurt my ex a lot and it made really sad. Like if I could feel her pain (my jupiter is in pisces btw). She spent one year and a half trying to convince me that we had to move on, as much as we liked each other. And when I finally let go and I'm interested in someone, she freaks out. As for the scorpio girl, regardless of her intentions, she certainly came across to me has being shallow emotionally. Or at least not letting any emotional depth come to surface. I don't what it tells about me, but both are 43 and I am 31 years old!

With so many emotions I don't know if I can feel anything right now!