MY SPEECH TO CANCER MALE

well...... okay, those of u who know me,me and this cancer male had alil affair going. we were bestfriends as kids/teens, had sex, had a fight, and a flaling out, started seeing eahcotehr once again ( intimately)... but time after time it seemed as if he would only want to talk to me , or see me if he got sex. and time after time i would try and re-build a friendship with him. he always got what he wnated, and i never got what i wnated, ( unless we had sex first). last night, i just couldnt take it anymore and left him a message saying:
u kno wut, ur not worth it anymore. im sick of trying to be your friend. you're a jerk, and i hate the person u've become. ive been nothign but nice to u, and u still treat me like i dont mean anything to you. if pushing me away, and trying to get rid of me is what you've been trying to do.... then congrats, cuz im finished!

what do u think? i was shaking after. i blocked him. was it too harsh? does he even care? will he contact me? lol support please!

redrovertoo..i unblcoked him today,i was jus angry and vented, and now i wish to speak to him.... but i kno if i do, it will jus mean he will continue to walk all over me.

welll then i will stick to it...... i owe myself atleast that much

ahah okay niice, iw ill totally join u!

help!

UPDATE: I CALLE DHIM TWICE, AND NO ANSWER, AND NO CALL BACK....... how come?

Any particular reason you're giving this situation so much power? If you blew up at him. Then let it be that. Let him come back to you! Let him explain himself. You blowing up at him and then calling him defeats the purpose of your anger...

Don't back track. If you are angry be angry. If he comes around then he likes you and is geninuely sorry. If he doesn't come around to hell with his ass.

i knoo, i bet i look really stupid..... i was feeling vulnerable, so called him..... i jus hate my last words to be offensive, especially to sumone i really care about

yeah, and thats wat i wanted to avoid.... i knew i should never sya things liek that, becuase i will never in my life mena it, not with him, so i jsut look stupid.
and the fact hes not answering makes me feel even worse..... then again, it kind of give sme a second chance to put my words into action, and let it be... he doesnt kno why i called, it could have easily been for any purpose not regarding us.

thankyou redrover... i was doing fine not calling, its the second i feel vulnerablee when i jsut drop all reason and call him, just becuase. i was up all night in pain becuase i have the worst ear infection ever, i could not sleep. and that is why i called him.
but i am feeling better now, and have distracted myself once again, so i will continue without calling. i just hope he knows i care for him, and did not mean to say those things, but menat to at the same time...( if u understand)

haha that iss awesommee lol well played, i love all your step by step comments.
it is hard ,its very hard. but im glad your doing well, its the fact that we are trying that counts i think. when peopel call me stupid, and say just STOP IT. i get so angry, becuase, you dont think ive tried——————?? lol

kateinkansascity: "That is exactly what I meant, you should be able to speak freely and say what is on your mind, but my cancer experience is that in the end, they cant urn it all around and you are the one that has the problem, not them....makes one wonder does it not."

I completely agree with this... that's been my experience too. I like being able to be honest and say what's on my mind, and I don't like people who can't deal w it.

Lil.ladie.taurus... sounds like you've been through enough with this guy. Just remember that sometimes people don't change and if the friendship is mended, you might find yourself in this same situation again.

okay, so i fialed once agian, he wa sonline, and i messaged him... no answer. i called him... no answer.
its driving me crazy, hes actually avoiding me. but it makes me mad, becuase.... i dont know what to think.. is he mad becuase of what i said? is he mad becuase its true? is he avoiding me becuase i gave in too fast and disrespects me? or is he avoiiding me becuz he doesnt care? or avoiding me becuz he relaised its what he shouldve done all along and now is the perfect chance lol.?
i swear, he will be the death of me

It does not matter WHY he is doing what he is doing, the fact is he is doing extactly what he wants to and displaying to you how he feels about you. That should be enough for you to know the answer.

Kateinkansascity

Hmmmm lil ladie i need some advice u can send me an e-mail if u like

Kateinkansascity,

im pretty dense so, with how he's doing wut hes doing, what is he displaying? how doe she feel bout me? i dunt kno.

i calle dhim again this morning, and he picked up.... he said: i thought u werent tlkaing to me ne more.. and i played dumb, pretending i didnt kno he got that message... then i wa slike: i was just angry... and he slike: well u kno what.... its okay, CUZZZ II DONNTTT GIVEEE SHIITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT NO MOREEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!! and he hung up.
so i call back liek 3 times he answers saying: WTF, Y R U CALLIN ME, IM AT WORK, AND IM BUSY, and im like:i have to tlak to u.
he said: OU SAID U DIDNT NWAT TO TALK TO ME NE MORE, SO U R U CALLIN, and im like: cuz i didnt nwat that to be the last thing i said... but i dont think he heard me becuase he was tlkaing over me... ne wayz, he hung up on me again, and so far i jsut left it.
uughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh lol

Okay, lol so i called AGAIN lol... THANKGOD THE ANSWERING MACHINE CAME ON.... so i said:
im sorry....... thats all i wanted to say...
then hung up
i feel alot better now, we'll see bout him