Retreat

You know those moods we caps get into where we just need to be alone... What's the longest its ever lasted for you fellow capricorns?

Aside from what you are mentally or physically hashing out with yourself and any outside factor, what feelings have accompanied you in these phases?

I'm feelin a pretty strong one... It's been a week and I can see it going at least another. At least. Possibly a month... Or more! Probably to early to tell yet.

In the last few years, I've never felt the need for lone time any longer than a day, a few days tops.

Its not anything that dissappoints me either. Im not sad about these episodes. The only thing that makes me sad about it is how others might feel.

Elusivesoulll... i went through the same learning curve with not knowing how to communicate it when i was younger to being able to tell those it would mostly affect now.

MeToo... yep I do yoga a lot, it helps, but i could afford to refocus my practice so that it helps more. i've been doing yoga for a long long time now. i've gotten lazy with the meditation.

but that is a really good question about what has triggered it. i've realized over the years that these episodes, when they do come up, are definitely triggered by something, and it can take a moment for me to dig into myself to understand what that is.

honestly, it irritates the crap out of me because it makes me feel like i dont know myself that well. if there's something affecting me on these deep of an emotional level, one would think i'd have it figured out fairly quickly.

in this case, i think it's emotional exhaustion. severe emotional exhaustion. from... all major aspects of ones life. sounds like a lot right? sure is. i can't being to go into detail about the diff aspects, but in short... work, relationships, social life.

i have my health, my family does too... i have that that i can be thankful for, but all else is a struggle. much of it was expected, but id say a good 75% of this struggle is over the top, created by others who feel threatened by me or who behaved overly selfishly.

with work... that is something i'm choosing to deal with head on and squash. that's where all my energy is going right now. with my personal life... that part i feel like i've been taxed beyond my desire to deal with at the moment.

scorp "bf" wanted to hang out tonight and tomorrow night. even though we're supposed to be spending time away from one another. i hadnt seen him for almost a week. i really missed him so i agreed to hang out, but i had this feeling like i didnt want to be around him while we were at dinner. missed him, but didnt want to be around him.

i think part of me still feels deeply hurt by everything. i'm still not over it, i guess. as much as i miss and love him. i'm not yet over myself.

but that is a really good question about what has triggered it. i've realized over the years that these episodes, when they do come up, are definitely triggered by something, and it can take a moment for me to dig into myself to understand what that is.

honestly, it irritates the crap out of me because it makes me feel like i dont know myself that well. if there's something affecting me on these deep of an emotional level, one would think i'd have it figured out fairly quickly.

Yes. This is what bothers me the most as well. I could imagine how difficult it is for the other person, as well as yourself, trying to explain that you need alone time, yet.not able to really explain why. I rarely ever know what triggers my mood for wanting complete isolation because its never just one thing, but emotional exhaustion sounds about right.

Being very slow to react to most things. I like to make sense of every situation/feeling so the majority of my time is spent observing, analyzing, processing everything and thing is, I'm constantly fed so its impossible to rest. I'm sure it builds until a break is needed from it all. At that point you just don't want any outside influences to trigger the thoughts. Want to be in your own space and pay attention to what comes to / from you for once.

I'ts definitely a sensitivity thing, at least in my case. Even if I manage to put people on ignore I'm still sensitive to noise, even of people talking. Things like that will even become exhausting to me. Its like I can block out what's being said but the tones used can trigger emotions. I just long for silence 80% of the time.

Posted by lnana04
Being very slow to react to most things. I like to make sense of every situation/feeling so the majority of my time is spent observing, analyzing, processing everything and thing is, I'm constantly fed so its impossible to rest. I'm sure it builds until a break is needed from it all. At that point you just don't want any outside influences to trigger the thoughts. Want to be in your own space and pay attention to what comes to / from you for once.

I'ts definitely a sensitivity thing, at least in my case. Even if I manage to put people on ignore I'm still sensitive to noise, even of people talking. Things like that will even become exhausting to me. Its like I can block out what's being said but the tones used can trigger emotions. I just long for silence 80% of the time.

inana... exactly how i feel right now!! your bday is on the 23rd too right? that's crazy... i feel like i could have written that myself.

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Posted by lnana04
Being very slow to react to most things. I like to make sense of every situation/feeling so the majority of my time is spent observing, analyzing, processing everything and thing is, I'm constantly fed so its impossible to rest. I'm sure it builds until a break is needed from it all. At that point you just don't want any outside influences to trigger the thoughts. Want to be in your own space and pay attention to what comes to / from you for once.

I'ts definitely a sensitivity thing, at least in my case. Even if I manage to put people on ignore I'm still sensitive to noise, even of people talking. Things like that will even become exhausting to me. Its like I can block out what's being said but the tones used can trigger emotions. I just long for silence 80% of the time.

inana... exactly how i feel right now!! your bday is on the 23rd too right? that's crazy... i feel like i could have written that myself.

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Yep, that's my bday. Is yours on the 23rd?

Posted by Metoo

My gut feeling is your heart is telling you to move on from scorp but you dont feel strong enough or dont believe you can let him go and his continued prescence in your life right now is both satisfying (u still have comfort from him) but the writing is on the wall and you dont want to read it, your in a gray zone, you dont want to take the steps to get past him and let go because its going to hurt, and you dont want to face that. Just guessing. I hope you'll be ok soon, give it time girl xoox

this is what has been in the back of my mind... esp last night. my heart telling me to move on. it could be part of why i need this time... i'm not sure if that is what i'm really feeling or if i just need to have time to myself for a bit. it's not so much that i wouldn't want to face it... though i do know it would hurt... i just want to make sure i know what im feeling.

it scared me last night while we were walking around because these feelings are familiar. right now i'm afraid to say anymore than that

it's amazing to me how out of control my feelings can be at times... then times like this when they seem so mysterious, i dont know where they are exactly coming from, yet they're so... stable.

he could tell something was up. he was very touchy feely, holding my hand, holding me... saying he loved me and i'm amazing... he saw how distant i was. i held him back and told him i loved him too and i do! those feelings just arent bursting from me like they normally are right now. im very contained and closed off at the moment. i wasnt exactly trying to hide it... i'm utterly incapable of putting on a face right now. i didnt mean to come off that way and i feel like a shit for it. we were supposed to watch a movie together at his place, but i peaced out. i told him why... i needed alone time. he was understanding.

broken heart... yes, and i told him. but how and why it was broken in this case is easily mendable. it was just because of the timing of the "break" we had. it hurt me because it came at a really tough time. and i told him i felt like he was leaving me hanging at the worst time... im still not sure if thats fair or unfair, but it's how i felt. which leads to the next question...

broken trust? i can trust everything about him... his word, his intentions, commitment... completely and undoubtedly. the only thing im struggling wit

im a 23rd too 🙂

dang that last post was totally cut off...


the only thing i'm struggling with is trusting that he can put me first before him in this relationship the way i have and will/would continue to with him. in my heart and mind this is imperative in the kind of successful relationship i want.

when i really think about it... he can and has. if he has ever failed or if we might ever stumble/struggle with this... he and i both know how to make amends, re-align and succeed.

my wishy washy doubt is just coming from a weakened heart i think.

big sigh... pardon the french, but i fucking hate this.

The longest this mood has ever last for me personally is a year from being emotionally drained,broken heart and just trying to connect with myself and emotions.
Honestly during this time at stages i didnt know what i felt sometimes more than none nothing i just want to be left alone. Not sure if my mercury retrograde has anything to do with it but during this time last thing i want to be is verbal i would rarely on occasion text but thats dry and one worded.I loose all expression i care but i dont at the same time i could see everything happen around me but i wouldnt do anything about it.


@Elusivesoulll... when was younger i had the same issue would normally just drift of seeing i didnt know how to tell someone i needed my space. Through experience hard lessons from a pass scorp i can openly say it to anyone when i need to be left alone for awhile. much more verbal even though my mind be rambling and trying to shut me up >.

ladies... you all rock. 🙂 thank you for the understanding and advice. seriously. i cant even begin to tell you how much this has all helped. xoxoxo this thread wasnt exactly meant to be a vent fest for me, but that just goes to show how detached me head and heart is right now. neither knows what the other needs.

thank you thank you thank you