the dumping garden

random, cryptic, one sentence ...and 'i wonder...?'

ever have something you just want to yell out? out of anger? happiness? ever want to say something to someone, but maybe its not the right time or you feel you shouldn't? ever have a one sentence story run through your mind that sums up some funny, tragic, happy (etc.) situation you went through? ever think of something completely random and want to just put it down somewhere? something poetic? about someone? to someone?? no need to say who.

well, this board doesnt make posting anonymous or anything, but im just starting this thread for the freedom of your random thoughts. short sweet and to the point or a novella ...if it pleases you then be my guest.

here's the rules: post the thought(s) you want. i know i should say that asking others their meanings is not allowed. 😉 but i know rules are meant to be broken and im a pretty curious person anyways, so if asked, no one is obligated to answer. do as you see fit for you. discussion is all good. this is supposed to be fun, and maybe even therapeutic. 🙂

i'll start with a one sentence story:

he winked at me. i smiled on the outside and blushed on the inside.

ohh i like this thread! cant wait to read other's thoughts.

mine-- i am my own worst enemy.

*sigh*

I miss my husband terribly!😢

I really need to start/stop creating my own reality...

Well, at least it isn't a haiku thread.😛

if you don't loosen your grip,
i could slip away,
dead to you,
and lost forever.

cuando soy buena, soy muy buena
y cuando soy mala..soy mucho mejor 😉

yo tambien 🙂

Oooooh it's raining... how perrrrty

He hasn't called me back and I threatened to kill him... I wonder if he's mad?

I wonder how my sister and her boyfriend spend so much time together... they're sickening...

I never knew how alike me and that gem lady are... she's freaky... too... no wonder we hate each other sometimes

I noticed I have a lot of random thoughts... I wonder if anyone will get mad at me for posting so much... well they shouldn't because I can't help it and I'm in a random thought thread... duh... there is something brewing right riiiiiight at the top of my head right now but I can't quite point the finger at it... oooooooooooh it's bugging me now!

nothing, i feel so self-conscious about my random thoughts now... like i'm thinking about my random thoughts and that's my only random thought... it has screwed with my wonderfully brilliant thoughts...

maybe this thread was meant to do that... who posted it anyway? i'll check right now... screwing with my head like this! outrageous! i could be wrong but maybe not...

maybe we are being analyzed... maybe this is a conspiracy! freak knows how many times i've been a target! i wonder if i should turn my web cam away from me... yes... maybe someone can see me throught it somehow...

still no call... what the hell is he thinking?! ... that imbecile... he shall suffer my wrath when he's back!

squirely wrath! lol that's funny... man i love that little squirrel... squirely wrath squirely wrathhhhhh ... i forgot the song...

maybe there will be thunder tonight... i hope so... i wonder what my sancho is doing? i'm in the mood for mind fukking... heheeheehe

"dumping garden" thought it was gonna be about dumping luvers... hey! maybe there should be a place... a garden... where you can take someone to be dumped... it'd be nice with lots of flowers and trees and secluded benches to cry on... that would sure make it easier... they'd get the hint once you started walking them towards the entrance and maybe they'd walk away without much fuss ORRRR they'd resist enough to make you angry... perfect, no remorse... hmmmmm ... i'm tired... maybe i should watch tv... or go to the gym! wonder if mikey is there... that sexy bastard...

She read too much into it...

or shall I say too little? 😛 that was not a randon thought... i broke the rules :{

................... 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂

... g'night dxppppppppppppppppppppp ... until tomorrow I shall return *sigh*

Is this it...is THIS all there is...damn, I know better than to have great expectations.

i both love and dislike that feeling just moments before saying goodbye when i already miss him and he's still right there in front of me. i say, 'i already miss you'. he says, 'im lucky that i dont let myself feel that way. instead i just enjoy these feelings that i have for you while you're right here because i have plenty of time to miss you when you're actually gone.' i always love it when he does that.

wish i knew what to say!

i realize i may actually be running from problems when some are important to face.

I am too afraid to say it out loud...

then.... write it 'out loud' 😛

😉

🙂 Hey, thats not a random thought. 😉

If I do it will mean admitting my...

the NAU thread maxed out!

busted ...breakin' my own breakable rules. lol 😛

weird how that works, me too.

He said "I Love U" and I froze in happiness. When I came to my senses, he was gone.

When doing nothing you can't stop to rest...

i had no clue how insecure i was about this. sometimes i really cant stand myself.

but i always appreciate being who i am... insecure, worried, make-life-more-difficult-than-it-needs-to-be capricorn and all 🙂

anyhoo...

gray clouds out there as if it is about to... water is being held in. but here in my room, water finally runs freely from my eyes. the day can't so i will cry for both of us.

...WeepyPants

i knew it was coming and it still hurts worse than i ever could have imagined.
the saddest part is that no one knows and they probably still won't hesitate to tell me what my problems are and what i always do wrong and why i need to stop doing this and that and why i need to be more of this, less of that, more of this, more of this, and less of that. but it's ok. they think that i'm strong and that's what they can and will keep believing for the rest of their fucking lives...in the end it's not like anyone really cares anyway.

you are a good person, you'll make a great mom, in 3 or 4 years from now i'll have a baby...

WHAT.THE.FUCK.

that's pretty convenient you little prick, you HAVE to make this harder than it already is ASSHOLE, it was your fucking idea, what the HELL do you want from me. fuck you, i wish you would get the hell away from me I KNOW WHAT YOU'RE TRYING TO DO

you weren't hanging in 'i love you' by yourself. you never were.

if you cant follow my honest and straight lead... then i'll just toss back to you whatever you want to throw at me, and if you're really lucky... i'll just ignore you altogether because i dont have time for games and no time for those who dont try to be above them.

can i? yes, i can.
would i? if, i must. if i see a pattern of no committment to betterment and compromise, then it ceases to be good for me. stale is not for me. i'll move on after i've tried and worn my feelings to absolutely nothing... to the point when i have absolutely no choice and i'm literally leading myself away in complete agreement with myself. only to the point of no regret... the point of happiness about the decision. i've already been letting go slowly.

but perhaps this is the way it should be.

the dumping garden

i chose this title because i wanted this thread to be one you could dump your thoughts into... or delicately place them 🙂 whichever perspective you prefer, but i figured it would be a chaotic mixed bag... so 'dump' seems more appropriate. and they're all beautiful, i think, like a garden.

...i never said i was clever 😛

ingenious!

JD makes my artistic heart go pitter patter
🙂
thanks JD!
i think you're a Lover in soul. poetic and real.

visiting sleepy town for a few hrs 🙂

normally anything will wake me up at night, especially someone moving around next to me, but i sleep incredibly soundly when i'm with him.

water, meditate, and try massaging your own head with your fingertips. i find this helps at least a little.

im sure i have less than what he wants too, but he's still more than i could ever ask for.

this past monday morning while out doing errands, i spoke with a cashier. i had commented that there were way too many crazy people out there today! the observation came from seeing lots of drivers dangerously cutting people off. of course when i got home the news of the slaughter in Lancaster CO. was breaking. lately alot of young girls,really only children, have been targets of violence. and i wonder, will the heavens cry another flood?

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