Gemini depth

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Damnata
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Only Yesterday

Only yesterday, I was twenty years old
I caressed time and I enjoyed life
Like one savors love
And I lived for the night
Without counting my days that were fleeting with time


I've made so many plans that never came to life
I've build on so many hopes that withered away
That I remain lost not knowing where to go
My eyes seeking heaven but my heart entombed


Only yesterday I was twenty years old
I wasted time thinking I could make it stop
And in order to retain it, or even get ahead of it
I did nothing but run and I ran out of breath

Ignoring the past, conjugating only in the future tense
I preceded with —I?? every conversation
And I spoke my mind saying I only wanted to do good
So as to criticize the world with insolence

Only yesterday I was twenty years old
But I've wasted my time by doing foolish things
That in the end leave me nothing, nothing really specific
Except for some wrinkles on my forehead & fear of boredom

For all my romances are dead before they even existed
My friends have left and will not return
Through my fault I've build an empty space around me
And I've wasted my life and my young years

The best and the worst by throwing away the best
I let my smiles go stiff, numbed my fears
Where are they now at present my twenty years?
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Damnata
@Damnata
15 Years25,000+ PostsVirgo

Comments: 252 · Posts: 36418 · Topics: 473
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The walls of my life are smooth
I cling to them but I slide

Slowly, to my destiny
Dying (because) of love

While the world is judging me
I only see one shelter for me
while every solution is condamned
Dying (because) of love

Dying (because) of love
Voluntarily getting lost in the night
Pay the price of your life for love
Sinning against your body, but not against your mind

Let's leave the world with its problems
The hateful people against each other
With their petty ideas

Dying (because) of love

Because our love can not live
it's better to close the book,
and better than burning it
Dying (because) of love

Leaving holding the head high
Emerge victorious out of a defeat
Overthrowing all the information
Dying to love

Dying (because) of love
Like we can (die) of anything
Leaving everything behind
To take only what were us, what were you


You are Spring, I am Autumn
Your heart is taken, mine is given
And my path is already drawn
Dying (because) of love
Dying (because) of love
Dying (because) of love
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Whimsy
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I am a very deep thinker. Gems excel at thinking, and it's something that I understand. I'm a little more confused about emotions. That doesn't mean I don't have them, but that they are experiences that go beyond the rationalization that I want to impose on them.

Rarely do I display the emotion appropriate to a given situation (i.e., the emotion that everyone else is showing). I cry at strange times. I laugh at very strange times. I don't cry when everyone else is being very emotional. It can make me seem cold...or strange.

I can get into moods in which I feel crushed by intense emotions. I don't know what other signs do about this, but my self-defense is to stay light and on-the-surface. If I don't, I sometimes feel that I'll literally go insane.

It's like I said in another thread...why do people disparage the ones that are able to stay afloat on the surface? If you are drowning, who do you think is going to rescue you- the one that's floating on the surface, or the one that's drowning with you? To be able to keep things light is a gift. It doesn't mean that's all there is to us.
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Whimsy
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Posted by gggemini
Posted by Whimsy

I can get into moods in which I feel crushed by intense emotions. I don't know what other signs do about this, but my self-defense is to stay light and on-the-surface. If I don't, I sometimes feel that I'll literally go insane.



I actually just realized this about myself, as well! Very interesting. What a great way to put it into words, too. I'm a bit uncomfortable with emotions.. talking about them, dealing with them.. it's like I rationalize them to death when I've got them. When I'm swamped with intense emotions, I am so overwhelmed with the why's and how's that if I can't wrap my head around it I drown in the feelings.
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