Ragdoll
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Geminis and death
When I lost my aunt a few years back, it was ruff because she took part in my upbringing. My condolenses to you and your family. I'm not going to tell you to be strong or keep your head up, but what I will say is that this too shall pass, and as you already know, part of life is to die. It's to be expected. At least your grandfather lived a full life and he past down his memories, trials, and tribulations to share forever within your blood line...He is always with you no matter what. One thing that doesnt die along with the dead is love. This is an eternal feeling, forever... Take care of your love and I send your way a cyber hug......
P.S. It doesn't really matter how you deal with it, being a gem like yourself or a cancer like your mom, what matters is that you eventually learn to face it and deal with......
P.S. It doesn't really matter how you deal with it, being a gem like yourself or a cancer like your mom, what matters is that you eventually learn to face it and deal with......
My condolences to your family Ragdoll.
Ragdoll
I lost my mother to breast cancer the day after Thanksgiving, 1998. I will never forget that day as it's embedded in my brain and soul forever.
She had been diagnosed with breast cancer about 6 years prior, and had to have a radical mastectomy and then was placed on Tamoxifen. She started having pain in her sternum, and a lump developed in that area. I work in the medical field, so I knew that her cancer had probably metastasized to her lymph nodes and beyond. On the day of Christmas Eve, 1997, she went to her first chemo treatment, which made her feel like total crap. I realized it would probably be the last Christmas I would spend with my mother on this earth.
I took her to all her chemo treatments and spent time as much time with her as possible. However, my husband and I (had gotten married earlier in July) had plans to move to Col. Springs and start our new life together. We told her we'd delay those plans and remain close to her if she wanted us to. She told us to go and start our new life. She would be fine.
Mid Nov. 1998, we received a call from my father telling us that my mother wasn't doing well, however, he didn't give us an accurate update as to just how much she had declined. We flew home and got in very late at night. When I walked in my front door of my parent's home, my mother was walking from the bathroom back to her room. She looked terrible and so feeble. This was a lady who when healthy was about 5' 9". I couldn't believe my eyes when she looked about my height, 5' 4". The cancer had completely overtaken her, and that was the first time I realized she was really going to die.
That evening into early morning, I wept for hours. My husband and I were staying downstairs in our basement and all he could do was hold me all night long while my emotions ripped my heart and soul apart. The next morning, I went into my mom's room and sat with her in bed and just talked. It took all my strength to withhold getting all emotional on her. I knew she needed me to be strong.
A couple days later, while struggling to take her last breathes, she died in front of us. Her struggle seemed to go on forever the last few hours and I prayed the Lord take her and stop her suffering. When she died, I felt my heart being ripped out. My family was in complete shock and utter agony. At her funeral, I shed a few tears, but was so emotionally gutted by then, I couldn't even feel anymore. I was numb. RIP Mom.
I lost my mother to breast cancer the day after Thanksgiving, 1998. I will never forget that day as it's embedded in my brain and soul forever.
She had been diagnosed with breast cancer about 6 years prior, and had to have a radical mastectomy and then was placed on Tamoxifen. She started having pain in her sternum, and a lump developed in that area. I work in the medical field, so I knew that her cancer had probably metastasized to her lymph nodes and beyond. On the day of Christmas Eve, 1997, she went to her first chemo treatment, which made her feel like total crap. I realized it would probably be the last Christmas I would spend with my mother on this earth.
I took her to all her chemo treatments and spent time as much time with her as possible. However, my husband and I (had gotten married earlier in July) had plans to move to Col. Springs and start our new life together. We told her we'd delay those plans and remain close to her if she wanted us to. She told us to go and start our new life. She would be fine.
Mid Nov. 1998, we received a call from my father telling us that my mother wasn't doing well, however, he didn't give us an accurate update as to just how much she had declined. We flew home and got in very late at night. When I walked in my front door of my parent's home, my mother was walking from the bathroom back to her room. She looked terrible and so feeble. This was a lady who when healthy was about 5' 9". I couldn't believe my eyes when she looked about my height, 5' 4". The cancer had completely overtaken her, and that was the first time I realized she was really going to die.
That evening into early morning, I wept for hours. My husband and I were staying downstairs in our basement and all he could do was hold me all night long while my emotions ripped my heart and soul apart. The next morning, I went into my mom's room and sat with her in bed and just talked. It took all my strength to withhold getting all emotional on her. I knew she needed me to be strong.
A couple days later, while struggling to take her last breathes, she died in front of us. Her struggle seemed to go on forever the last few hours and I prayed the Lord take her and stop her suffering. When she died, I felt my heart being ripped out. My family was in complete shock and utter agony. At her funeral, I shed a few tears, but was so emotionally gutted by then, I couldn't even feel anymore. I was numb. RIP Mom.
Posted by CrabbyTwins
When I lost my aunt a few years back, it was ruff because she took part in my upbringing. My condolenses to you and your family. I'm not going to tell you to be strong or keep your head up, but what I will say is that this too shall pass, and as you already know, part of life is to die. It's to be expected. At least your grandfather lived a full life and he past down his memories, trials, and tribulations to share forever within your blood line...He is always with you no matter what. One thing that doesnt die along with the dead is love. This is an eternal feeling, forever... Take care of your love and I send your way a cyber hug......
P.S. It doesn't really matter how you deal with it, being a gem like yourself or a cancer like your mom, what matters is that you eventually learn to face it and deal with......
Thank-you, and I'm sorry to hear your story of your loss. I have accepted that it's for the better. He had Alzheimer's and the last couple of months it seemed to be progressing fast. I'm thankful it never got to the point where he had forgotten who we were. Plus my grandmother has cancer and he was very psychically and mentally draining on her too. I understand and accept what happened. But what worries me is my lack of emotion towards everything. I haven't felt sad, angry, happy, lonely, or anything these past two days.
@Gemini64,
Oh how horrible ):
My best friend lost her mother 2 years ago, and I honestly couldn't think of anything worse.
Cancer is such a horrible disease. My grandmother has it and my grandfather was expected to out live her. So his death was just so sudden and such a shock. She had melanoma on her scalp and although they had removed it, it had also spread to the lymph nodes in her neck. They cut it out and I visited her in hospital just after she'd awoken from the anesthetic. Seeing her lying there with fresh wounds and all dopey was really traumatizing for me, I'd never seen anyone in hospital before. But numb is a good word to describe how I feel at the moment..
Oh how horrible ):
My best friend lost her mother 2 years ago, and I honestly couldn't think of anything worse.
Cancer is such a horrible disease. My grandmother has it and my grandfather was expected to out live her. So his death was just so sudden and such a shock. She had melanoma on her scalp and although they had removed it, it had also spread to the lymph nodes in her neck. They cut it out and I visited her in hospital just after she'd awoken from the anesthetic. Seeing her lying there with fresh wounds and all dopey was really traumatizing for me, I'd never seen anyone in hospital before. But numb is a good word to describe how I feel at the moment..
Posted by RagdollPosted by CrabbyTwins
When I lost my aunt a few years back, it was ruff because she took part in my upbringing. My condolenses to you and your family. I'm not going to tell you to be strong or keep your head up, but what I will say is that this too shall pass, and as you already know, part of life is to die. It's to be expected. At least your grandfather lived a full life and he past down his memories, trials, and tribulations to share forever within your blood line...He is always with you no matter what. One thing that doesnt die along with the dead is love. This is an eternal feeling, forever... Take care of your love and I send your way a cyber hug......
P.S. It doesn't really matter how you deal with it, being a gem like yourself or a cancer like your mom, what matters is that you eventually learn to face it and deal with......
Thank-you, and I'm sorry to hear your story of your loss. I have accepted that it's for the better. He had Alzheimer's and the last couple of months it seemed to be progressing fast. I'm thankful it never got to the point where he had forgotten who we were. Plus my grandmother has cancer and he was very psychically and mentally draining on her too. I understand and accept what happened. But what worries me is my lack of emotion towards everything. I haven't felt sad, angry, happy, lonely, or anything these past two days.click to expand
Just because you dont cry or feel like laying down and dying doesnt mean you dont care or your heartless....or that there is something wrong with you mentally.....Dont worry about it, time shall reveal all and heal all in the end.
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