THE END

Today was the last day of high school I will ever go to.

*pauses and reflects*

Was the eco report and final that bad? or did you graduate?

I will graduate even if I fail that final. I already have all the economics requirements filled. I was the only girl in my school who took both AP economics classes offered. I feel as if I have accomplished something.

What's the AP?

Advanced Placement. It's the equivalent of a college class, and theirs this big test in the end, and if I do well on it, I'll get college credit for the class.

*there's... I got a 690 on the verbal section of the SAT's, you'd think I could figure out homonims...

I don't remember that either. Then again, I've trouble distinguishing my metaphors from similes.

grammar is all crap, never let anyone tell you something different.

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bs, created because someone had too much time on their hands.

You or me?

the grammar people.

Ok.. this is Grammerian Morgan.. aspect. Got it.

I write not for the pleasure of the reader, but my own pleasure. But I am distressed at my writers block.

No kidding here.. You could try "The Creative Whack Pack".. Barnes & Nobles. (a kiddy candy answer) More in a moment.

How long has it been and how often do You think you need to write?

It's been a few months... I need to write everyday, that's what keeps me alive... Oh my god, I'm dying.

Must it be creative? Not a diary, journal, etc.? Creative meaning "forced"? I understand having a passion for something. I don't know what brought you here to the boards, but I suspect mingling with the mob is good food for thought.

mingly is definitely good for thought, but sinse I'm on a role to day of saying more than I should or ment to, I'm just going to go ahead and say that I'm just terribly lonely. I do have a jounal... But I don't like writing about myself. I'm floating without purpose, and that's bad because I'm the kind of person who NEEDS to have a purpose. I need to know where I stand. I do not like it when people tell me not to stress out and not worry about it. It's important. good... if you keep me talking you might be able to turn this regret/meloncholy/depression into anger.

ofcourse I'll regret saying that tomorrow... I'm sorry... I'm not angry at you or anyone, I didn't mean to imply that.

I hear you. I'm not the sort to believe in the power of positive thinking either. I don't want you angry at me though. If that's what you're saying, but since your other post says you like expression, I assume we can continue.
There is no magic phrase I can tell you. I know about floating without a purpose. And being lonesome. I don't want to find a cure for the next polio, etc.. I just want to be happy. And it's a hard time coming.

Happyness is an odd thing. I don't know many people that are very happy just in general. I think for the most part happyness is fleeting. You're happy for only short moments at a time through out your life. The rest of the time you just don't know what to feel or your depressed or just indiferent, or at least that's what it's like for me. But I'd say it would make sense, sinse everyone always says it's a moment which lasts forever.

We sound similiar, and so I'm sure others feel the same way. I've been in one room with a significant other, and still felt depressed. So I know it doesn't matter (completely) whether you have someone with you or not. It can help Some of the time..but not all the time. I think people are their own worst enemies. Happiness is fleeting, but the idea is to get there as often as you can. And this is smaltzy, but if we had no lows, we'd have no highs either.

I guess so.

However, BS: "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger"

Not true.

Tired... so tired...

cheers drink some tea or water
and sleep
sleep
deep...
no. grammer is nesscary but it's hard to do. i was never
taught right all the way when i was younger. a gap in math and grammer and other is in ky. school system.

Morgan of Mind
"Today was the last day of high school I will ever go to."

Prepare for diversity.

Diversity is the spice of life.

Congrats Morgan 🙂

YOU are FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE to be and do what you desire....time to "create"

Enjoy the ride 😉

creation is beautiful.

lol... And fun too 😉

Wicked Morgan.. I wanted to say that, but this was your thread. (Tho.. now that you're here..) I've been asked if I have any children (alot) in every outside conversation. My standard answer is always.. "No... but I like to practice."

P.S. You were missed.

Awww Espernaut... I'll take that as a compliment.

I was busy these last few days/nights. Went to see Boston in concert, it was a great show with two encores. So much fun, even in the thunderstorm.

That sounds like fun. I'd have enjoyed as well. I've only been to one concert, Rush, Moving Pictures. Very fine. I take it yours was out of doors?

yeah, Jone's Beach Theater, it's a floating stage... Funny though, I felt sort of out of place being that the average age was 35 for the spectators. But I had great orchastra seating. Definitely a great night.

Well, that's the draw of the band tho.. that time/age frame.
I'd go to more concerts but our town isn't such a big draw. Houston's about as close as the big attractions will venture.

What's really annoying is that they renamed Jones Beach Theater into : Tommy Hill Figger at Jones Beach Theater and fly the stupid Tommy Hill Figger banners everywhere. It's so sickening. Damn corpratism.

It's chasing the dollar, unfortunately.

The ironic thing is that the band's new cd is called "corporate America" and it's title track is about how bad things like that are, and yet here they are being sponcered by all these corporations who hang their name in very large bold letters above the stage. Ironic... And slightly hypocritical, but perhaps they plan on taking down the system from the inside.

I think music as a major influential force has passed it's peak. (I'm reflecting on what rock & roll did to the status quo in the 50's.) I doubt rap did anything as radical. And I don't see how much further you can write or sing anything (up to this point) that's going to be much different.

Unless you count Sinnead O'Conner & ripping the Pope's picture.. self destructing her career. (She's stopped singing, btw., as in fairly recently)

Well, no, I don't think any one expected that that song would actually make an impact... Which kind of makes me wonder why bother, because now it just seems hypocritical, like selling out.

Don't know what to tell you on that score. About "bother to writing", I'm just as curious as you. My attention span's been overwhelmed to dullness by all the Farm-Aid, Live-Aid, Band-Aid (that was a real one, btw) etc.

End this for god sake end it.

Morgon, I read your first post--congrats!!!! Done with High School. I'm surprised that you were the only student to take those AP courses becuase many high schools offer those courses and as of today, quite a few students take them--usually the ones going onto selective ivy league schools. Well any way---congratulations girl--you did good.

I wasn't the only student to take them, I was just the only girl to take both AP Macro and AP Micro economics.

There were like ten other boys who took them both.

Hmmm, I wonder why that is.....why do you think there weren't any other girls taking these classes?

Because she's the only brain?

Who knows? Who really can say for sure? Maybe I'm the only girl who wants to major in economics and is looking to fill some degree requirements?

or *maybe* there just happened to be a certain someone among those ten boys taking both of the AP classes? no, no, I know, that was just coincidence 😉