Now Libra is mad I didn't share my adderall....

SOOOO we got in a little fight last night. I told her through text that i lied about bringing her adderal when i came over the other night because i didn't want to trigger her, she got pissed i didn't bring her any. Than we debated about it for a few hours through text and I stuck to my guns and moral standard. She's very smart, but so am i. And finally I said something she chose not to respond to. I think I had "won" the debate at that point. We kept misunderstanding eachother and finally I wrote "see this is why I hate texting. I should remember that."... than a few minutes later to ease her mind a little I followed up with a compliment... "You are very intellectually stimulating.It's very sexy. "... which is exactly what i was feeling about her atm so I wanted to share that.

No response. for now.

Should I just do nothing and wait? or chalk this up as a loss....?

Posted by Aliensusedourbogroll
Is this the suicidal one?

yes and yes. i just don't have insurance so i've been getting it from a friend.

Posted by tiziani
Just let it play out organically. This level of detail and analysing just turns into manipulation on your part, which is exactly who you don't want to turn out being unless you just have that lesson coming in life.

maybe i do... idk i have "player" issues i have been trying to get rid of. and though her and i are communicative af. I still have abandonment issues so i play games. I told her about that though. She knows im crazy. lol we both have a few loose marbles, maybe thats why im so attracted?..

Wait.

You told her you were bringing adderall... then

didnt bring any, at all?

Posted by Montgomery
Wait.

You told her you were bringing adderall... then

didnt bring any, at all?

Not exactly. We were drunk. Idk..

Posted by Aliensusedourbogroll
You're a good 'friend' or whatever you define yourself as to her to not give her the adderall.

Thanks for saying that. I'm conflicted. We hooked up. But I still wanted to stick to my morals... I know I'm not perfect. I did coke with her when we slept together by I'm not depressed. She is. Not that it's not any better..

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Posted by WaterDevil

Posted by tiziani
Just let it play out organically. This level of detail and analysing just turns into manipulation on your part, which is exactly who you don't want to turn out being unless you just have that lesson coming in life.

maybe i do... idk i have "player" issues i have been trying to get rid of. and though her and i are communicative af. I still have abandonment issues so i play games. I told her about that though. She knows im crazy. lol we both have a few loose marbles, maybe thats why im so attracted?..

Could be, it's like how she's trying to play games with you for the drugs. Attraction - double edged sword.

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Yeah I feel that. In a weird f'd up way though it feels like I found my intellectual match and it's confusing me.

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Posted by Montgomery
Wait.

You told her you were bringing adderall... then

didnt bring any, at all?

Not exactly. We were drunk. Idk..

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Here.



i lied about bringing her adderal when i came over the other night... she got pissed i didn't bring her any. 



And

"... because I didn't want to trigger her"

Could we substitute with this:

"... because I knew she'd let me come over if I

had it"



?

Posted by Montgomery

Posted by WaterDevil

Posted by Montgomery
Wait.

You told her you were bringing adderall... then

didnt bring any, at all?

Not exactly. We were drunk. Idk..

Here.



i lied about bringing her adderal when i came over the other night... she got pissed i didn't bring her any. 



And

"... because I didn't want to trigger her"

Could we substitute with this:

"... because I knew she'd let me come over if I

had it"



?

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No you misunderstood. I was already over her house for a separate reason. To talk. I forgot the night before I told her I'd bring her adderal next time I saw her but the next time I saw her turned out to have a purpose of me wanted to talk to her about the bad sex we had. But I mentioned I had taken adderal before I saw her and my heart was racing. So she asked me "why didn't you bring me any??"

So I lied and said it was because I didn't have enough.

And the next day I wanted to tell her I lied about why I didn't bring her any after she asked me and admitted I did think of her but I thought it wasn't appropriate given that specific situation was to talk. And I didn't want her to think I was unappreciative of the night she gave me 2 days prior of free cocain and chilling. But that I felt morally obligated not to bring any because last time I saw her she seemed like she were struggling. I was trying to be respectful.

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Posted by Aliensusedourbogroll
You're a good 'friend' or whatever you define yourself as to her to not give her the adderall.

Thanks for saying that. I'm conflicted. We hooked up. But I still wanted to stick to my morals... I know I'm not perfect. I did coke with her when we slept together by I'm not depressed. She is. Not that it's not any better..

Don't be conflicted. Depression and prescription drug abuse is a bad mix and you knew that. You don't have to be a saint to help someone.

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i needed to hear that.

Posted by GC02
From a highly intuitive cancer I can tell you from reading this I sense/feel she is trying to use you to get the pills. If I weren't correct then she wouldn't be mad at you and care for you with or with out the pills. ??‍♀️

Do you mind being used for drugs?

she's never used me for drugs. i never brought her any lol. she has a really good job. and her own money and drugs. she was spoiling me the first time we kicked it with cocain and shit. i dont think you understand. me and her chatted naked in her bed for 4 hours about life. im not stupid. there is a connection there. i just think i was telling her about her self and she didn't want to hear it. i gaveher my connect's number. they also happen to be a good friend of mine who told me they have yet to hear from her. she doesnt need me to bring her drugs. she needs to feel like i dont care to bring her any. get it now?

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Posted by GC02
From a highly intuitive cancer I can tell you from reading this I sense/feel she is trying to use you to get the pills. If I weren't correct then she wouldn't be mad at you and care for you with or with out the pills. ??‍♀️

Do you mind being used for drugs?

she's never used me for drugs. i never brought her any lol. she has a really good job. and her own money and drugs. she was spoiling me the first time we kicked it with cocain and shit. i dont think you understand. me and her chatted naked in her bed for 4 hours about life. im not stupid. there is a connection there. i just think i was telling her about her self and she didn't want to hear it. i gaveher my connect's number. they also happen to be a good friend of mine who told me they have yet to hear from her. she doesnt need me to bring her drugs. she needs to feel like i dont care to bring her any. get it now?

Okay so she's mad because she shares with you but you didn't share with her.......

You do cocaine together— Smh this is all just no good & it hurts my heart.

Take care of yourself out there man.

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We just started hanging out for context. we dont DO coke together. We did coked together. and yeah i didn't want her to think I was unnapreciative, i was. But I don't do drugs when im depressed. she does. and she did that with me. so I didn't feel like bringing her any the very next day when we were about to talk about the attempted sex we had was the respectful thing to do... self preservation feel me?