Tbh I became more masculine when I identifed with what was feminine to me which was emotions. I accepted what I felt and let it transform me. I've always been assertive. But I became more calmer, more instinctive and assertive in a very different way. I think wrote all have different views on what it is. To me its the emotional side of life. And I experience emotions in a very profound way. But I tried to ignore them in the past and developed severe anxiety. I think masculine energy is "active" energy. The ability to put things in motion. To create in a way. The thing is, by ignoring my feminine side I could only create bitterness, anger, failure and at one point depression. Because my emotional side grew from negativity and negligence, I became a huge ball of stress where everything I put in motion went wrong and every relationship failed.
I understand that now. I understand me now. And I'm clear. Free from anxiety and transformed from trauma. But it all came from me addressing my feminine side. What controlled me without me knowing. What I felt.
So to me masculine energy is the ability to act. Feminine energy is the ability to feel and have an unspoken understanding. We have both sides in us all. Up to us to balance it. I know I'm a man. And a proud one. But accepting that I have feminine energy within me has made me a man I never thought I could be
