When you keep thinking about a person for 18 months you tend to forget the relationship wasn't perfect.
She tried to sting me saying "of course you want me, all of my exs still want me" that put my mind to beat her at her own game to show her I am still in control even though I've been gone. I think she likes her control back because she fell in step in our relationship bc I am a strong man.
She now has guys that just follow her like puppies and she doesn't have to deal with not being in the drivers seat.