I did nothing but get into her head/heart and behind her wall as a Sagittarius. We were together ALL the time for 2.5 years, except for work, I've met the one girlfriend she has (and still has), she's from another country. I was her best friend, live-in boyfriend, travel companion, tutor, lover, everything. She was my first real commitment to a relationship.
I had some business issue that I had to leave for 18 months and she couldn't come. She visited, but it got hard on both of us not seeing each other until we decided to take a break after 6 months and just communicate through email/phone. It was tough to even skype and she would cry afterwards so I cut that off. Now I am back home. When I got back to the apartment last month she moved out, but A LOT of her stuff was still here. She moved out in November, but letters I wrote to her as recent as three months ago were neatly stacked in my bed side table. So she had to come over to put them there as I mailed them to her new address she gave me. She said she felt bad moving on and treetrunking somebody else as she thought I was the one for her, I told her we were on a break and I forgive her(I don't think she believes me), it wasn't her fault I had to leave, I knew it was going to be impossible to stay a couple, but I am back now. She didn't cheat, we have been a non-couple for a year.
I feel as though my return has triggered something in her (maybe she told herself she was over us) and she's perfectly fine keeping communication through texting and phone calls, but that's not what I want after the life we had together. she acknowledged I was the best thing to happen to her, but isn't looking to reconcile.
Three nights ago randomly she face-timed me, first asking if she was disturbing anything and we talked for about 1/2 hour like we used to laughing and it felt like us again, for the first time since I left 18 months ago. I could see her happiness and at the end she just stared at me and we just sat for a second before I just told her good bye with our inside joke language. She texted me a few minutes after saying we have to see each other at some point. I got home a month ago. I saw her the first night and face-time just then, that was it. she texted me last night she feels really lost.
I honestly think she's not being truthful about the boyfriend because she hasn't mentioned him since the day I got back. the guy she said she's with isn't even in the country.. and that's verified by her that night she told me and her friend reached out to me saying welcome back (so obviously she told her friend I am here) and mentioned he's away too, but that she didn't know their status. why would she bail on our LDR and get into another one?
Plus she had a serious surgery in July, while he was gone. Since she got the test results for cervial cancer in April she was emailing me and calling me for serious emotionally support for her and that re-bonded me to her as I was hurting I wasn't going to be back in time for her surgery. That should have been her "boyfriends" job if she had one. I think he cut bait and ran when he realized she wasn't treetrunking for a while. I was one of the first people, if not the first to find out her test results from the surgery a few weeks ago.
I'm just trying to get a scorpio opinion because its obvious we both have feelings but why sting both of us?