Twin Flames.

Some of you may not know about the experience, but I haven't spoken to her in 6 days, until today.

Back and fourth, on again off again. Typical "twin flame" bs.

I spoke to her specifically let her know how much I hate her. I'm not sad or bitter by far, I just wanted her to know. Last time we spoke, I told her how much I love her and blah blah. I no longer feel that way at this point. I don't need her, she's actually beneath me, I gassed her up to believe she was more than she could ever be. Anyway, how many of you know about Twin Flames? How many of you have a twin flame?

She probably felt impowered and flattered that I could ever love her, of course she didn't reply but the fact still remains. Whatever she feels about that situation, needed to be taken back. No, I don't love her. No, I don't want the best for her. Yes, I want her to suffer. I've let go. I used to hold love for her within my heart the first couple days, now I'm like: "fuc it and fuc her." I'm happy to not feel anything for this woman. She never deserved my love

Posted by LiveAndLove
You feel something if you feel hate and want her to suffer. Love is the opposite of indifference, not hate.

it's a nonchalant type hate.

Posted by TrueFantasy
This might sound bonkers but I can sense that I'm gonna meet my twin flame soon in the near future. Maybe next year or so...I have an idea of what it's going to be like.

that's cool. hold on to that love! I couldn't X)

She doesn't deserve to be happy. She put me through too much haha. She never loved me so why must I not want her to suffer?

It sounds like you're still in love with her

Posted by Caplunar
It sounds like you're still in love with her

how so? I'm not though, at least I don't think I am

Posted by narayana
How the hell can you say you've let go if you hate her at the same time? Letting go means having neutral feelings about somebody, not hating. Hating her will only hurt you, not her.

1. don't curse at me. 2. I said it was a nonchalant type hate. 3. I lowkey don't have the energy to hate her. I'm just typing tings

whatever I feel isn't isn't hurting me...I'm just stating my feelings.

I shouldn't have sent her that message this AM, but I did. The only reason why I shouldn't have sent it because she doesn't energy me or my energy.

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Posted by LiveAndLove
You feel something if you feel hate and want her to suffer. Love is the opposite of indifference, not hate.

it's a nonchalant type hate.

Never heard of such a thing. This is intriguing.

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I hate her without hating her. I don't hate her in a literal sense.

question, why should I want the best for someone who has done nothing for me? I don't even know how she feels about me but I'm supposed to send her love anyway? wild

I told her that I've given all my energy to a low vibrational peasant (laughing emoji). And stated that you live and you lean. I don't know why she hasn't blocked my number, yet. How nasty do I have to be? I also sent another message.

I don't believe it's bitterness. That woman doesn't even love me the most she's done for me is tell me that she appreciates me sending her positive vibrations. That's was a week ago! We've been at this TF bs for 3 years, I only learned we were connected about a year ago. Well, the actual name for it.

I used to ask her why we kept doing "this." She never knew haha. smh, but neither did I. She thinks I'm mean when I've given her all I could give a person.

She told me I was too serious, I showed her that I wasn't. She's just afraid of me.

Posted by Capri__unicorn
Do you have any personal planets in Scorpio? You do sound bitter. I'm not judging because I've been there. There is a blog by a woman named Cindy that helped me recognize my shadow self. You are currently in the state I was in. We give of ourselves then when we don't receive back we lash out and play the victim when in all actuality we should have mirrored effort. You are the chaser and she is the runner and now you hate her for being that. This might be the time for separation. If she is your true twin flame you will understand that this is just part of the process and the only way to "skip" it is to truly be at peace with yourself. You can't force anyone to do anything for you. You don't coerce or beg people into love. Either they fuck with u or they don't. Right now she might not to the degree you expect so you let her go until the universe is done with her. She is not ready to reciprocate but that doesn't mean she won't ever be. The new moon just happened and it's a time of ending things and beginning new things for yourself. Stop blaming her and stop playing the victim. Focus on you before she hurts you to the point that you have no choice but to move on

She doesn't have to fuc with me, I don't fuc with her. I'm not waiting for her nor do I expect anything from that peasant. She doesn't have to love me, she'll never will. I'm irritated at the fact that I've invested so much energy. Meanwhile, she's living her unconscious life. It isn't bitterness. Focus on me before she hurts me again? And how exactly would she hurt me? That broad has nothing for me, nor do I have anything for her. You're confused, you must think this thread is about you and your broad, but it isn't.

Posted by Impulsv
Tf Flames know u so if u been angry for along time because of this back n forth she senses her anger towards her making her want to stay away from . maybe why she said she think ur mean. Now I'm not going to say don't hate. Do it it's ur authentic feeling

I have hated mine in fact I don't want him he can stay with wife lol

But this will even pass or maybe we can be stuck in negative energy in whole lifet only to do this again. I don't want to do this again in another one. So I'm telling myself it's ok to let go n move on to all possibilities out there. I no longer need to hold him in love in hate stuck in the past.

I haven't been angry for a long time, I'm generally happy.

I have mood swings when it comes to her, sometimes she's my punching bag (verbally) and she allows it. She could block my number. Loving somebody who doesn't even know you nor love you is stupid af. I've done enough of giving my love to that peasant.

and I have Rising and Scorp, so does she. She's also a Scorp.

Posted by Impulsv
Op it hate is just hurt why do we get hurt over rejection? Ask those questions

If she is just a peasant why what they think about u mattered that much or them being with us.

For me it came down to wanting the acceptance of my mother. That is how deep this goes n u must find ur answers

We both have screwed up childhoods. I mean, I had love and all but I've faced rejection at a young age. We both have internal issues, but they say that's what come with Scorp Risitng. I'm not even hurt to be honest, I've learned to numb myself when it comes to her. Will it last? Who knows. She's a peasant because I gave her my all for nothing in return. Peasant traits.

I've always wanted acceptance, I'm not gong to lie. But I'm different, black sheep. Always have been.

Posted by Impulsv
Exactly all that love You given to her give to urself

If that means walking away from something that doesn't serve u then be it. But when ur choosing to do it for urself no need to be angry at her.

She has her own issues to deal with. Who would stick around to be anothers punching bag!

I just want her to hate me and block my number, but she refuses. But that's funny! I expressed that to her. That it was time to fully love myself last week. When I'm clear my energy, she comes back. But I'm just tired. She should be tired of being my punching bag. I used to be at her punching bag in the very beginning. haha, going out of my way to help her. That's how I know this is Divine. Why did I want to help her so much? I barely knew her. But reality I knew every about about her

Capri,

You're right and I do apologize. There's no facade here. I'm honestly numb.

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Posted by Impulsv
Exactly all that love You given to her give to urself

If that means walking away from something that doesn't serve u then be it. But when ur choosing to do it for urself no need to be angry at her.

She has her own issues to deal with. Who would stick around to be anothers punching bag!

I just want her to hate me and block my number, but she refuses. But that's funny! I expressed that to her. That it was time to fully love myself last week. When I'm clear my energy, she comes back. But I'm just tired. She should be tired of being my punching bag. I used to be at her punching bag in the very beginning. haha, going out of my way to help her. That's how I know this is Divine. Why did I want to help her so much? I barely knew her. But reality I knew every about about her

So why don't you block her instead of provoking her?

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If she blocks my number, I can't get in contact with her. That's the goal.

I've been hurt too much in the past to feel sadness, I'm only speaking facts. I used to cry over that broad. I'm good...trust me. I'm numb.

Block her to only take more jabs at her self-esteem.? No, she has to block me.

Posted by Impulsv
Because he can't cut the ties so he wants her to do it. Pushing her away so he's the runner. Treats her bad so she can leave.

she ran from me when I was showing her love. she's the runner.

it never lasts...our contact never lasts. You're right, I can't cut ties because I'm going to feel triggered. she doesn't speak to me, so she needs to block my number

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Posted by TheChosenOne
I've been hurt too much in the past to feel sadness, I'm only speaking facts. I used to cry over that broad. I'm good...trust me. I'm numb.

Numb says it all

N nothing wrong over crying over another.

At somepoint it came down for me that I hated I had allowed him in my life, I hated I wasn't ready for the connection, I hated I had cried so much for one who could care less for me.

The hate for her is actually the hate for urself

N that's not self love

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I don't hate her in a literal sense. I love myself! I treat myself, I eat healthy. I fast. I love myself.

I can't feel anything, I couldn't cry if I tried.I'm numb. She don't care for my existence. She deserves to suffer. She doesn't deserve happiness. So, now I'm the runner and she's the chaser? Not even. She don't love me, she can't be the chaser nor could I be the runner.

Me and my twin flame.

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Posted by TheChosenOne
Capri,

You're right and I do apologize. There's no facade here. I'm honestly numb.

I'd hug you. I recognize Scorp energy because my Venus is in Scorp. You're also an empath like me. We are weak for certain people. My perceived twin blocked Me last week and started talking shit about me to his friends. I'm ok with the separation but the shit talking has me on a war path mentally. We were involved 2 + years. I lied to myself over and over again saying I hate him and he's a nobody and I wanted nothing to do with him when In all actuality I wanted everything I gave to him. I could not heal properly until I admitted that to myself. I did everything and I felt like he spit in my face...whether entertaining other women, ignoring me at times, not following through with plans. I was the chaser. I did an awesome job of pretending it didn't bother me either. The cold Capricorn face was always in full effect. But now I am truly ok without him. I don't hate him, he's not beneath me. He's just not ready for a woman like me and no matter how much I wished he was he just isn't. So I moved on no hard feelings. I just need him to shut the hell up about me before I kick him in his damn throat

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I'm a Cap too! But yeah. I dislike being an empath. But she's a real person to an extent, I know she'd never bad mouth me, she'd rather not even acknowledge me haha. Smh. I've acknowledged that I wanted recipocation, but I'm numb to the fact. I just wanted to vent on here after the things I've said to her. She won't let me go!

Posted by TheChosenOne
I can't feel anything, I couldn't cry if I tried.I'm numb. She don't care for my existence. She deserves to suffer. She doesn't deserve happiness. So, now I'm the runner and she's the chaser? Not even. She don't love me, she can't be the chaser nor could I be the runner.

Sweetheart, like one poster said...you still love her or else you would not go on and on about how much you hate her. Do you know how much energy it takes to hate someone that you once claim to love? Also, how do you know that she never loved you? That's exactly what Twin Flames are: Mirrors of each other emotions and feelings. She probably feels the same way you do, but acts out differently. Are you a Cancer or have any crab in you?

OK..so you're a Cap....you must have some Cancer in there though.....What is her sign?

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question, why should I want the best for someone who has done nothing for me? I don't even know how she feels about me but I'm supposed to send her love anyway? wild

Loving someone is not about "expecting" something in return... It is supposed to be free. When it ends depends on how it ends it can be devastate especially if the person has done you a grave injustice and i sought revenge and won but that's another matter. I learnt my lesson.

People treat us how we allow them to treat us... So you are just as guilty as she is...

Try to mediate, concentrate on positive things and your life goals and everything will turn out better in the end.

You are deeply hurting right now and I sense it in your thread...

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I know what you mean but I promise I'm not hurting. I'm numb, I can't feel when it comes to her anymore. I've been focused on other things until this morning. I was good and still am, only difference is that I'm thinking about her and her bs. I told her I wanted her to treat me better, I've taken breaks. People treat you how they want to treat you.

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Posted by TheChosenOne
I can't feel anything, I couldn't cry if I tried.I'm numb. She don't care for my existence. She deserves to suffer. She doesn't deserve happiness. So, now I'm the runner and she's the chaser? Not even. She don't love me, she can't be the chaser nor could I be the runner.

Sweetheart, like one poster said...you still love her or else you would not go on and on about how much you hate her. Do you know how much energy it takes to hate someone that you once claim to love? Also, how do you know that she never loved you? That's exactly what Twin Flames are: Mirrors of each other emotions and feelings. She probably feels the same way you do, but acts out differently. Are you a Cancer or have any crab in you?

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Sweetheart, I've stated that I don't hate her in a literal sense. Sweetheart, I've also stated that I don't hate her countless of times. Sweetheart, proofread.

Posted by LIb4Life
OK..so you're a Cap....you must have some Cancer in there though.....What is her sign?

She's an ugly Scorpio. I have Pisces Sat. Cancer Lilithh.

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Posted by TheChosenOne
Block her to only take more jabs at her self-esteem.? No, she has to block me.

You are both fixed scorpio rising and scorpio sun. So I'd neither of you take the courage to walk away and amputate permanently, this cycle you both have will continue indefinitely...

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Oh but we used too. She used to block my number but not anymore.

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question, why should I want the best for someone who has done nothing for me? I don't even know how she feels about me but I'm supposed to send her love anyway? wild

Loving someone is not about "expecting" something in return... It is supposed to be free. When it ends depends on how it ends it can be devastate especially if the person has done you a grave injustice and i sought revenge and won but that's another matter. I learnt my lesson.

People treat us how we allow them to treat us... So you are just as guilty as she is...

Try to mediate, concentrate on positive things and your life goals and everything will turn out better in the end.

You are deeply hurting right now and I sense it in your thread...

I know what you mean but I promise I'm not hurting. I'm numb, I can't feel when it comes to her anymore. I've been focused on other things until this morning. I was good and still am, only difference is that I'm thinking about her and her bs. I told her I wanted her to treat me better, I've taken breaks. People treat you how they want to treat you.

Numb is a factor connected to pain ie when you hurt yourself physically the pain is numbed for a short period of time before the pain really sets in.... This is how you are feeling right now. When you finally face reality the numbness will subside and then you will be faced with your true pain...

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Capri,

You're right and I do apologize. There's no facade here. I'm honestly numb.

I'd hug you. I recognize Scorp energy because my Venus is in Scorp. You're also an empath like me. We are weak for certain people. My perceived twin blocked Me last week and started talking shit about me to his friends. I'm ok with the separation but the shit talking has me on a war path mentally. We were involved 2 + years. I lied to myself over and over again saying I hate him and he's a nobody and I wanted nothing to do with him when In all actuality I wanted everything I gave to him. I could not heal properly until I admitted that to myself. I did everything and I felt like he spit in my face...whether entertaining other women, ignoring me at times, not following through with plans. I was the chaser. I did an awesome job of pretending it didn't bother me either. The cold Capricorn face was always in full effect. But now I am truly ok without him. I don't hate him, he's not beneath me. He's just not ready for a woman like me and no matter how much I wished he was he just isn't. So I moved on no hard feelings. I just need him to shut the hell up about me before I kick him in his damn throat

I'm a Cap too! But yeah. I dislike being an empath. But she's a real person to an extent, I know she'd never bad mouth me, she'd rather not even acknowledge me haha. Smh. I've acknowledged that I wanted recipocation, but I'm numb to the fact. I just wanted to vent on here after the things I've said to her. She won't let me go!

What's her sign

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Ugly Scoripio.

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Me and my twin flame.

Oh jeez!! That's bad!!!

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LoL. What do you know?

Posted by Redoctober2000
Sorry OP, I thought you were a scorp sun but it seems you are a scorp rising and VIS?! Is this correct?

I'm only Scorp Rising.

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Block her to only take more jabs at her self-esteem.? No, she has to block me.

You are both fixed scorpio rising and scorpio sun. So I'd neither of you take the courage to walk away and amputate permanently, this cycle you both have will continue indefinitely...

Oh but we used too. She used to block my number but not anymore.

The cycle has already started.. You need to use that "hatred" to delete her number and move on with your life... Otherwise you will both be stuck for enternity. How old are you both?

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Listen, I've told that broad to block my number. You say it as if I live my life focused on her. Are you crazy? This bs just hit me today. She needs to block my number, I've begged her to block my number but she refuse. I'm not blocking her number because I will be triggered again!!

Who else will be my punching bag if it isn't her? The nicest, disingenuous thing she's said to me was: "Well I hope you feel better. What's bothering you?" "Thank you for sending me positive energy. I really appreciate it."

BS, she doesn't appreciate anything. She also doesn't care. It's all a facade so I would stfu.

Posted by Capri__unicorn
Oh Darling. I had a Scorp.except he was the chaser and I was the runner because he was wayyyy too watery for me. Overly clingy and emotional about every thing. But there was a point where I was all in. Until I found out about other women. Then poof! I was gone. Just do is on yourself sweety. Immerse yourself and your cap work ethic and go hard for something like a promotion or attaack some other goal

How many times do I have to tell y'all I wasn't thinking about that broad until today? smh.

Scorps are terrible, all of them.

She doesn't want to let me go, she can't block me. It's our only form of communication. I used to have others tell her to speak to me but that's no more. One time she told me the only reason she spoke time was because others told her too. but she's a fool, no one could MAKE you do anything. she didn't do it for them, she did for herself.

I know how she felt about that, now no one is involved. That why she won't block my number. she's afraid because she knows I'm not going back to my old ways.

Posted by LIb4Life
OK..so you're a Cap....you must have some Cancer in there though.....What is her sign?

that woman has no love for me.

"just wanted you to know I hate you a lot I wasn’t even going to say nothing but yeah I don’t love you ? I had to clear that up. there’s nothing to love about you. look at you…look deep within yourself. peace"

last message I sent, and she has yet to block me...

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Posted by TheChosenOne
She probably felt impowered and flattered that I could ever love her, of course she didn't reply but the fact still remains. Whatever she feels about that situation, needed to be taken back. No, I don't love her. No, I don't want the best for her. Yes, I want her to suffer. I've let go. I used to hold love for her within my heart the first couple days, now I'm like: "fuc it and fuc her." I'm happy to not feel anything for this woman. She never deserved my love

You don't sound like it. When you truly let go of someone their is no negativity there. You sound very bitter. And you don't get over someone in 6 days unless something very drastic happens

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I'm irritated with myself for giving that broad the time of day. get it?

it's like she Ioves these outbursts.

she loves to be mistreated and not respected.

Posted by Capri__unicorn
Oh Darling. I had a Scorp.except he was the chaser and I was the runner because he was wayyyy too watery for me. Overly clingy and emotional about every thing. But there was a point where I was all in. Until I found out about other women. Then poof! I was gone. Just do is on yourself sweety. Immerse yourself and your cap work ethic and go hard for something like a promotion or attaack some other goal

promotions are for slaves. jobs are for slaves. fuc a promotion.

this sounds like something a scorpio moon male would post...

your ascendant clearly has a lot of influence on you. her being a scorpio probably does not help the situation. find someone who will help you transform into a better version of you. right now, you are definitely not that person. just being blunt.

the person i believed to be my TF was a Taurus. he did not make me a better version of myself either. my "scorpio" showed. nothing i'm proud of. i sounded a lot like you after it ended. hate was prominent. i grew up around aquarians, libras and aries. eventually my Venusian nature made me let go of the "hate" (literal or not) and i made peace with him. we still occasionally talk. our connection was undeniable. but when it first ended there was a lot that made me feel as you do now. so i understand. in a literal sense since i have been there.