I LIVE IN MY VAN! PART 2

How do I tell my parents I want to move out and go a more unconventional route?

Right now I'm going to college and working and I feel my life to be going nowhere. I know. Wait a few years and opportunities will come. Well, hey. You. I got something to tell you. Shut up.

I was hit in the face by a thought the other night. "If you don't like your life right now, what makes you think you will ever like it?"

I'm in three classes. Philosophy, Economy, and Composition 2.

Acing philosophy, failing economy, and doing good in comp thus far. Grade in econ is due to the fact that the teacher is a fucking blabber mouth who talks for 2 hours straight. No pauses. Only grades you on 4 tests. That's it. The whole class grade is based on you performance on four tests. On top of that, I've developed a very anti money value system. I hate it. I hate what it does to people. I hate taking it from people. Which kills any freelance business kind of thing I could do because I'm way to generous and horrible with finances.

Honestly, I don't think my gpa will be too impressive once this semester is over.

I don't actually live in a van. But I want to.

I'd havta start working full time again. It'd kill my mother and father. they're soooo conservative that doing something so "wild" and "outlandish" to them would just be pure absurdity. My Dad may understand it a bit more but ultimately disagree and my mother is the HUGEST worry wart when it comes to my brother and I. If I so much as mentioned the idea with any bit of seriousness behind it, she'd breakdown and cry.

I just have no desire to get a degree and work for some company. My major right now is Studio Art with a minor in marketing. A studio art major is probably almost as bad as a philosophy major as far as good luck with finding a job especially in, yes I'ma say it, this economy.

If you were to ask me my dream, I guess I'd say to write a book that would become a hit movie. Thing is, I never read. I think I'm good at writing though. Good enough to make a book that would at least do well enough to make some money off of. I know that may be a pipe dream but I honestly feel i have a better chance of achieving that than doing anything significant with a studio art degree.

At this point, I would love to thank everyone who has read this self pity fest. I'm not saying that I am going to do this. I'm just strongly considering it and if I'm going to, now would be the time.

I'm horrifically unmotivated to do anything and I feel it's because I'm living this boring, sedentary life where I see no exciting future.

Tell me your thoughts. Walk in my shoes. Any advice is appreciated. Thanks.

@PotHeadVirgo22 - See that's the thing, man. If I wait a year or two, there will really be no point. Honestly, idk if I can even make it that far. I'll just stop doing the school work and start failing everything. You said your last semester, what degree will you have soon?

@R24 - Agreed. :]

@Torro - Thank you. Yeah, I don't want to make decisions based on my family because in the end, if my heart is not in my schooling now, it'll all unravel eventually.

That's a cool dream. Like mine but aquatic. I understand. Assignments you really don't want to do but do to get a grade. I'm just sick of that. Mind me asking what grade you're in? Freshman? Soph..ect?

@BikerCh1ck - Yes, I know I have a lot to plan and I will so that if I do make this transition it is as smart and smooth as possible.



One thing is that it may be better to do it with a friend and i talked to my friend last night and he was like "Dude, take me with you.." But like, I think it would be wise to do it on my own for a while. If I find myself in need of a side kick, I can always pick him up but it'd be mean if I started the journey with him and half way through am like "yeah, I'd rather do this on my own." It wouldn't be cause he's obnoxious or anything, it's just I may need the pure solitude for a while.

Plus, I don't have a girlfriend at the moment but the opportunity my arise and having a male friend would just complicate things because I don't think I'd want more than 2 people in my van including myself.

Hahhaha. However, I know it probably hurts my game with some dames who would never wanna just jump in some guys van and drive off. But at the same time, if they're not the adventurous gung-ho type, I probably don't want to get with them anyways..

Like BikerCh1ck said, the timing is crucial. I need to start sculpting out this plan better and give it some shape.