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Hello, this is my first post here so I should start with the basics. 31yo Male Pisces, Virgo moon & Sagittarius Ascendant (Mercury/Venus/Mars/Lilith in Aries).

I feel like the combination of 3 different elements (with a strong firey influence) are driving me insane. I call myself an astrological fruit salad. I was inspired to post here after reading that Moody Pisces thread. I have the Piscean creativity and I can do wonders with music, I have the sharp bubble-piercing Sagittarian tongue with a knack for saying stupid things before I've thought it through, and I have the Virgo stoicism & perfectionism (and the extremely sensitive tummy - I do NOT like people touching me there).

My Virgo side seemed to emerge during my teens, when crappy family conditions forced me to erect impenetrable walls around my emotions in order to keep me functioning, and I've been like that ever since. I'm very quiet around new people and I prefer to observe for some time, test the water before I get into things. And then it happens. I completely surprise people by making hilarious jokes and reducing them to laughing fits by sharing hysterical true stories from the past or making observational comedic comments. 5 minutes later I'll be back to my sullen quiet self.

15 minutes later I'll have them in hysterics once more and.........shut down. By this stage people don't know which version of me they're gonna get. And more often than not I don't even know which side of myself I'm gonna get the next day. It seems to get worse when I'm under stress or anxious. The thing is, looking at me you'd never tell if there's anything wrong. I can be boiling on the inside and look completely placid on the outside.

On the other hand, it occured to me that it could be mild bipolar disorder. But that is a rather extreme conclusion as I don't become all doom & gloom ---> hyper at the flip of a switch. Still, it's not how I want to be in the future because it's quite draining. I mean, I don't want to turn into Norman Bates in the end or something. There's like 3 versions of me. The wise-beyond-his-years music lover with a therapeutical inclination, the wise-cracking bubble-piercing mega comedian, and the literal statue.

Am I going crazy? How do you handle something like this without going bonkers?
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Hi, Piscean here. You're NOT bipolar. Read up more about our zodiac sign. We're MUTABLE! Meaning, we can change into anything at the snap of a finger! So what if you're quiet, you observe (it's good to be since you don't "jump in'). You're considered more of an introvert than most of us Pisceans (I am an extrovert according to my birth chart). You're the jokester, the life of the party, and again, so what if you get quiet. You know when to stop; in other words. Be proud of your Piscean ways. Glad to hear you explained yourself as a Saggy (sharp tongue that gets you in trouble); but you CAN think before you speak. Just like you are "quiet and reserved" you CAN do the same before you speak. Your mental thoughts are of Saggy; not! Your TRUE strong planet is that of your sun sign; Pisces. THAT sign can PUSH aside all others (Ascendant, moon, etc.) why? Because we are MUTANTS. Just think about the movie X-Men. That's how a Piscean is (mutable).

Remember that Pisces is the last of the zodiac sign, so we FEEL what the 11 others are feeling + our own. That's allot to carry and if you're STRONG enough (and I know you are) we can deal with anything as we are the suffers of the zodiac wheel. Stay focused, stay strong, and stay a TRUE Piscean!

🤗 cyber hug

Love, Eva
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Posted by EvatheDiva
Hi, Piscean here. You're NOT bipolar. Read up more about our zodiac sign. We're MUTABLE! Meaning, we can change into anything at the snap of a finger! So what if you're quiet, you observe (it's good to be since you don't "jump in'). You're considered more of an introvert than most of us Pisceans (I am an extrovert according to my birth chart). You're the jokester, the life of the party, and again, so what if you get quiet. You know when to stop; in other words. Be proud of your Piscean ways. Glad to hear you explained yourself as a Saggy (sharp tongue that gets you in trouble); but you CAN think before you speak. Just like you are "quiet and reserved" you CAN do the same before you speak. Your mental thoughts are of Saggy; not! Your TRUE strong planet is that of your sun sign; Pisces. THAT sign can PUSH aside all others (Ascendant, moon, etc.) why? Because we are MUTANTS. Just think about the movie X-Men. That's how a Piscean is (mutable).

Remember that Pisces is the last of the zodiac sign, so we FEEL what the 11 others are feeling + our own. That's allot to carry and if you're STRONG enough (and I know you are) we can deal with anything as we are the suffers of the zodiac wheel. Stay focused, stay strong, and stay a TRUE Piscean!

🤗 cyber hug

Love, Eva
I can literally feel your energy from over here in the southern hemisphere, Eva. You're like a hamster on coffee! It's very infectious.

I know we're mutable, as I tend to treat every person different according to their vibe and I can adjust my exterior personality to suit my surroundings. I've also heard the saying about our soul being born in every sign (in proper order) during each lifetime and we end in Pisces, so it's like we have aspects of everyone before us.

It just feels that the other influences are too strong in me. These days I'm more like a Virgo with Piscean inclinations. Having several planetary bodies in Aries also makes me intolerant to time-wasters (which is why I have a big problem with procrastinating Libras and people who overcomplicate simple things) and I get easily frustrated after having had a lifetime of disappointment.

During a reading I had some time ago I was told I'm out of balance spiritually, and I was given suggestions on what to do about it. The issue is, those suggestions feel extremely weak to me. I haven't taken them up at this stage because I feel like they won't do any good. I'm easily disappointed now and I give up quickly on something I feel it won't benefit me. Being an Ox doesn't help either.

Am I rambling? I think I'm rambling. Well, I think the lyrics that fit me best are: "I need time. My heart is numb, has no feeling so while I'm still healing, just try and have a little patience."

Heh Gary Barlow is da bomb.
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Hi, Piscean here. You're NOT bipolar. Read up more about our zodiac sign. We're MUTABLE! Meaning, we can change into anything at the snap of a finger! So what if you're quiet, you observe (it's good to be since you don't "jump in'). You're considered more of an introvert than most of us Pisceans (I am an extrovert according to my birth chart). You're the jokester, the life of the party, and again, so what if you get quiet. You know when to stop; in other words. Be proud of your Piscean ways. Glad to hear you explained yourself as a Saggy (sharp tongue that gets you in trouble); but you CAN think before you speak. Just like you are "quiet and reserved" you CAN do the same before you speak. Your mental thoughts are of Saggy; not! Your TRUE strong planet is that of your sun sign; Pisces. THAT sign can PUSH aside all others (Ascendant, moon, etc.) why? Because we are MUTANTS. Just think about the movie X-Men. That's how a Piscean is (mutable).

Remember that Pisces is the last of the zodiac sign, so we FEEL what the 11 others are feeling + our own. That's allot to carry and if you're STRONG enough (and I know you are) we can deal with anything as we are the suffers of the zodiac wheel. Stay focused, stay strong, and stay a TRUE Piscean!

🤗 cyber hug

Love, Eva
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I can literally feel your energy from over here in the southern hemisphere, Eva. You're like a hamster on coffee! It's very infectious.

I know we're mutable, as I tend to treat every person different according to their vibe and I can adjust my exterior personality to suit my surroundings. I've also heard the saying about our soul being born in every sign (in proper order) during each lifetime and we end in Pisces, so it's like we have aspects of everyone before us.

It just feels that the other influences are too strong in me. These days I'm more like a Virgo with Piscean inclinations. Having several planetary bodies in Aries also makes me intolerant to time-wasters (which is why I have a big problem with procrastinating Libras and people who overcomplicate simple things) and I get easily frustrated after having had a lifetime of disappointment.

During a reading I had some time ago I was told I'm out of balance spiritually, and I was given suggestions on what to do about it. The issue is, those suggestions feel extremely weak to me. I haven't taken them up at this stage because I feel like they won't do any good. I'm easily disappointed now and I give up quickly on something I feel it won't benefit me. Being an Ox doesn't help either.

Am I rambling? I think I'm rambling. Well, I think the lyrics that fit me best are: "I need time. My heart is numb, has no feeling so while I'm still
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It just feels that the other influences are too strong in me. Uh, impossible unless you're opening that "portal". Let me explain: When I read about Pisceans being "alcoholics, drug addicts, depressed, etc" I look at the screen and get mad!! I'm FUMING! You cannot tell me that it's written in stone...it's not! That's being mutable in my eyes because I "mentally transform" those words into the POSITIVE. I guess you can also call me "optimistic" (to include hamster on coffee).

Hello down under!

You can also be optimistic where you turn the negative into the positive. And getting your reading done is something I should NOT do anymore. God is the one that determines your destiny, future, etc. Look at what you got out of the reading..."given suggestions" that didn't do you any good. You went in there with 1/2 a doubt and the cards (or palm reading) flip flopped on you because of your strong aura. No one can determine your future, but God. So I'd stay clear of getting another reading done.

I see you also mention your Chinese zodiac sign. Don't believe everything you read (again) about our sign. If you're easily disappointed, to me, that's just a season you are going thru. Since you're into the zodiac sign, read up on the planets, Jupiter, mars, venus, as well as your ascendant, Lilith, etc, That stuff fascinates me! I'm NOT against having someone read your birth chart. I believe there in a website in your country that can read your birth chart (just don't pay on line and have them e-mail to you because it's just a thick 30 page of who you are etc., and not a sit down one on one interpretation of your birth chart).

I feel as if you need time to yourself for a while. Life itself will be the one that will be "patient". We need to mentally and spiritually rest. I am doing the same here in Texas. 🤗 cyber hug!

Love,

Eva
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It just feels that the other influences are too strong in me. Uh, impossible unless you're opening that "portal". Let me explain: When I read about Pisceans being "alcoholics, drug addicts, depressed, etc" I look at the screen and get mad!! I'm FUMING! You cannot tell me that it's written in stone...it's not! That's being mutable in my eyes because I "mentally transform" those words into the POSITIVE. I guess you can also call me "optimistic" (to include hamster on coffee).

Hello down under!

You can also be optimistic where you turn the negative into the positive. And getting your reading done is something I should NOT do anymore. God is the one that determines your destiny, future, etc. Look at what you got out of the reading..."given suggestions" that didn't do you any good. You went in there with 1/2 a doubt and the cards (or palm reading) flip flopped on you because of your strong aura. No one can determine your future, but God. So I'd stay clear of getting another reading done.

I see you also mention your Chinese zodiac sign. Don't believe everything you read (again) about our sign. If you're easily disappointed, to me, that's just a season you are going thru. Since you're into the zodiac sign, read up on the planets, Jupiter, mars, venus, as well as your ascendant, Lilith, etc, That stuff fascinates me! I'm NOT against having someone read your birth chart. I believe there in a website in your country that can read your birth chart (just don't pay on line and have them e-mail to you because it's just a thick 30 page of who you are etc., and not a sit down one on one interpretation of your birth chart).

I feel as if you need time to yourself for a while. Life itself will be the one that will be "patient". We need to mentally and spiritually rest. I am doing the same here in Texas. 🤗 cyber hug!

Love,

Eva
Heh the reading was a random thing, it wasn't something I seeked out. It was interesting but what irritates me about these things is that you get a lot of random stuff that don't make sense.

Ooh as far as God goes.........don't get me started on that subject. And no I'm not growing horns, fangs & a forked tail as I type this lol. But me and God don't get on at all. If I were able, I'd find him and rip his beard off by hand. If he exists in the way that Christians say he does, to me he's nothing more than a bored old bag with too much power in his hands and nothing to do with it. I would be a far better God, that way justice WOULD be served.

I did have my free birth chart drawn up online some time ago, that's how I found out my influencing planets. But I didn't have anything explained to me by anyone. As far as disappointent goes, I've gotten used to it from a very early age. It's got nothing to do with my star sign and everything to do with life
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It just feels that the other influences are too strong in me. Uh, impossible unless you're opening that "portal". Let me explain: When I read about Pisceans being "alcoholics, drug addicts, depressed, etc" I look at the screen and get mad!! I'm FUMING! You cannot tell me that it's written in stone...it's not! That's being mutable in my eyes because I "mentally transform" those words into the POSITIVE. I guess you can also call me "optimistic" (to include hamster on coffee).

Hello down under!

You can also be optimistic where you turn the negative into the positive. And getting your reading done is something I should NOT do anymore. God is the one that determines your destiny, future, etc. Look at what you got out of the reading..."given suggestions" that didn't do you any good. You went in there with 1/2 a doubt and the cards (or palm reading) flip flopped on you because of your strong aura. No one can determine your future, but God. So I'd stay clear of getting another reading done.

I see you also mention your Chinese zodiac sign. Don't believe everything you read (again) about our sign. If you're easily disappointed, to me, that's just a season you are going thru. Since you're into the zodiac sign, read up on the planets, Jupiter, mars, venus, as well as your ascendant, Lilith, etc, That stuff fascinates me! I'm NOT against having someone read your birth chart. I believe there in a website in your country that can read your birth chart (just don't pay on line and have them e-mail to you because it's just a thick 30 page of who you are etc., and not a sit down one on one interpretation of your birth chart).

I feel as if you need time to yourself for a while. Life itself will be the one that will be "patient". We need to mentally and spiritually rest. I am doing the same here in Texas. 🤗 cyber hug!

Love,

Eva
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Heh the reading was a random thing, it wasn't something I seeked out. It was interesting but what irritates me about these things is that you get a lot of random stuff that don't make sense.

Ooh as far as God goes.........don't get me started on that subject. And no I'm not growing horns, fangs & a forked tail as I type this lol. But me and God don't get on at all. If I were able, I'd find him and rip his beard off by hand. If he exists in the way that Christians say he does, to me he's nothing more than a bored old bag with too much power in his hands and nothing to do with it. I would be a far better God, that way justice WOULD be served.

I did have my free birth chart drawn up online some time ago, that's how I found out my influencing planets. But I didn't have anything explained to me by anyone. As far as d
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It just feels that the other influences are too strong in me. Uh, impossible unless you're opening that "portal". Let me explain: When I read about Pisceans being "alcoholics, drug addicts, depressed, etc" I look at the screen and get mad!! I'm FUMING! You cannot tell me that it's written in stone...it's not! That's being mutable in my eyes because I "mentally transform" those words into the POSITIVE. I guess you can also call me "optimistic" (to include hamster on coffee).
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Eh, what did you say? Hit the max characters in post. Speak without quoting.