I am a male Cancer who recently ended a very passionate affair with a married Pisces woman who is 10 years younger (she is 30). It was during my separation from my ex wife that I met this woman and the connection we experienced was so deep and spiritual unlike anything either of us had ever encountered. We were both certain that we were soul mates. I was led to believe that she was also in the process of getting a divorce and so began the most intense but painful 12 month experience of my life. Things were amazing at first as we discovered each other and the passion was so intense that she would need to make contact with me sometimes even five to six times a day. Phone calls, texts and short visits for passionate lovemaking. After a few months passed her husband found out about us (refusing to leave her) and so our visits became less frequent. It became apparent to me that I had been misled and that there was no actual divorce taking place and that her and her husband were just leading separate lives while living together for the sake of their two children. This began to weigh on me morally and we began to discuss our future together. She declared her undying love for me and that her heart and soul belonged to me but also brought up her fear of me falling out of love with her and it ending up another mistake – this was her second marriage. She just was not quite ready to leave and also felt sorry for her husband who would be devastated in the process. I also began to notice that she had a drinking habit and would be out in bars sometimes four nights of the week, mostly with a female friend but sometimes her male friends would also be hanging around. She stated it was because she did not want to be at home with her husband but obviously couldn’t spend too much time with me in case her husband came looking, and so had to settle for bars. This began a series of events where I would end our relationship due to the moral complications and her excessive drinking but then in my weakness take her back after she would plead with me, because I simply loved her that much and was at the point of no return. During this time I even tried again with my ex wife but went back to this woman because our love just could not keep us apart. I finally ended it for good 6 months ago and told her that when she was ready to leave her husband then we could build a future together. I just couldn’t keep doing this to her husband and it really weighed on me. I found out through friends that she was devastated, as she believed I was the love of her life. 3 months after the breakup she was telling her friends that she still misses me everyday. However I found out that she began an affair about two months ago with a male friend that she has known for a while yet she is still married. I now wonder if her love for me was real at all, as I always believed she would do the right thing during our time apart – heal herself, leave her husband and pursue a future with me. Can her moral compass really be so distorted that she really believes it is OK to bounce from affair to affair while married? How could she appear to love me so deeply and then just fall into the arms of someone else a few months later appearing to repeat the pattern all over again? Could this be a rebound that she forced herself to have to get over the pain of losing me, or is she just a morally corrupt person? Is it natural for Pisces to have an absence of good morals or integrity?
