Moody or Insecure?

There's a guy at my job , can't give you an exact age just know that he could be 10 years older than me. The first day we met through a mutual coworker. He felt the need to speak every time he passed my work station with a joke or two. I love jokes so I instantly thought we'd get along. The next day he didn't speak much, just stocking as usual. He walks over to me two hours before closing to say I hope I don't offend you but you are beautiful and I didn't want to let another opportunity go by to tell you then walks away. I bump into him at the time clock, I tell him I wasn't offended and to enjoy his day. A week later he asks for a ride since we're in the same neighborhood and it became a reoccurring thing of great conversation. Recently I'm not as verbal with all the work stress and hostility. He's very verbal as he'll walk to me and ask what's wrong? Why am I ignoring and avoiding him? Why the cold shoulder? And should he leave me alone and just how he's feeling at the tine. I explain I need time to myself. He asks if I want to talk about it, and I say it's just work. Long story short each day after checking on me and if I'm in a mood it seems to bother him I don't care to discuss. I don't need solutions I need a pick me up joke. I am then ignored when I do cool off after an hour or told about how I act. Is this the experience of the mood swings of a male with insecurities seeking emotional/verbal connection? Or is there something wrong with me? (Now would be a great time to scope for Mrs.P)

I'm naturally a cheerful person, lately I've been the opposite and isolate myself.

I guess lately I've found it hard to properly express myself when hurt, and I hate to be seen in that state. I try and smile and say I'll be ok, but he comes back and says I can't take that answer as acceptable. My means of communication is misunderstood.

You end your Post by asking, "Is there Something Wrong with Me?"
Well... what do (you) think? I think you probably know the answer.

You say "You don't want solutions"from him, jJust a distracting Joke. Are you fearful to exploring the reasons for your deep sadness?
Don't be. Things get better once you decide to get busy.

It sounds like you're in a bad place. Work/Relationship/Ex?.
Hostility? Isolation? They are extraordinarily negative words. Particularly when you describe yourself as 'naturally cheerful'.
Your profile - with the beautiful piscean subaquatic paintings - says "You have to be willing to be mocked, hated...to be great"
'willing', really?? - 'prepared' maybe...Interesting how theres moonlight atop all your paintings btw..wonder what your moon is?

Though other posters suggest you trust the guy and be responsive - I have some questions please..

Wouldn't a deeply caring man, seeing that you were so low - refuse to get all sulky?
Maybe an Aqua/Sag/Leo/Aries would be doggedly trying to figure out the source of your Isolation? and help fix it hopefully?

He seems needy. He seems surprised you don't respond in a way he had presumed/expected. And tells you so.
He may therefore be compounding the (original) source of your unhappiness, instead of attending to it selflessly.
He's 10 years older. You're a catch. He's wants more. Thusfar, you're not eager. Fine.
That's not weird! Thats intuitive.

Like most of us, you have some shiht to work out.
Maybe you need to ask for help with that. Maybe thats tough. But maybe it should be priority.
And maybe someone who is more maternal than paternal would be good to explore your thoughts with?

Im a total amateur when it comes to this astro stuff. But we all have our intuitive sensing.
What does (your) intuition tell you?
Are you often slow to say no to new ideas/people/projects? Do you welcome distractions? Do people make an impression quickly?
Maybe you need to put Mr. Needy's advances on hold.
And prioritise Project Self?
Nobody on here knows anything like what {you) know.
About yourself.

Whatever you decide, put yourself first.
Be selfish. But don't wallow.
Swim!

aquapisces wow you hit all key points my brain was analyzing. I agree with a lot of what you said and posted regarding everything.I doubled looked over my work and you're right. I'm an Aquarius sag rising and sag moon. I was destined to be born March 19th but ended up February 14th. I am aware he requires more attention than most and therefore is needy and seeing our misunderstandings only adds on to my unhappiness like you said. I suppose my inner voice says don't rush it and put myself first .I'm often slow to distractions unless it's a first great impression which takes a lot. I can usually tell after 5minute a of conversation if I want this person around or not. But you are right I will focus on myself and constantly building. That touched me deeply and I appreciate it, you gave me the reality check I needed. I will think on these questions tonight. And all of you guys taking out time to post and help me make sense of things, I thank you as well.

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Hey Porpoise - thank you.
Everyone loves a wow once in a while 🙂

ALL of us need perspective sometimes.
We aint robots.

You seem like a cool person and I'm sure your focus will return.

By the way, if you're floating a bit or in stassis, try to tie yourself down.
Sometimes in life we imagine we are wonderfully diverse folks, running after subjects and ideals and people and concepts.
It can be a negative influence if we tie ourselves to too many kites.
Sometimes we're just finding fragments of [our] latent talents manifest in our lofty projections.

You're clearly a creative soul.
Are you creating?
Regimentally?
Or occasionally?

Do you look up to those who are 'fighting the good fight'? - If true, Maybe don't so much...

You have everything you need in you.
You probably don't need any 3rd party validation.
The reason we recognise others' skills, perspective, energy and outlook is often because we possess the same skills, but don't yet have confidence to develop them. Can they be developed? Sure - your an Aqua/Sag...

If theres a legal phone line or political cause that needs a volunteer, try and sign up maybe.
Something that give you a platform for your many opinions and ideas.
The time/regime/knowledge/energy in the work may have an upifting+grounding effect.
Maybe develop a schedule if possible around one of your many latent interests or talents.

People always need smart people. Take a RISK on something intellectually interesting to you.
And if you're in a work-rut then broadening your circle via volunteering could be real helpful.
Something to 'get out of your head' and back to the world 🙂

Distract yourself. get physical with sport or exercise or something frenetic like a day a week at a shelter or music collective etc
If work is undermining you, or stealing your voice, find an outlet where you can be expressive and take greater responsibility.
Somewhere where you are calling the shots. (i.e. the volunteering possibly)

Or go to lens rentals or a friend and get a camera for the weekend.
Put on some boots and head for a local festival or gathering.

Stick a picture on the wall of a crystallized goal. A practical dream.
Hitting A Gallery in Ghana or Self Curating an Exhibition in Chicago.
If you're dreaming, keep it to one at a time.

I'm rambling but you get what I''m saying right?
(and dooo forgive my numerous free-styling presumptions!

I love the simile well metaphor yes I think that is exactly it. And to answer those questions I create occasionally, my mind is occupied with work so I hadn't had much free time to do so. When you say good fight what is that exactly? And all after that has just amazed me! It's like you spoke a piece into my future and uplifted my dreams. I am a bit more motivated now. I used to volunteer at an arts and scraps place not too far from me. Maybe I'll look back into it, I ran from there because I felt like I didn't follow through on a lot and didn't want to be seen in that light. A lot was required and with work obligations I was all over the place. However I am sure to get back to it and try to maintain some sort of balance between work and family and self. You are truly amazing, my apologies for such a delay but I am so glad to have logged back on and seen this. Hugs from far away

Aw shucks Porpoise...you are so welcome 🙂
Its funny, but I can see' potential clearly - just not always my own lol

Any confusion you feel is human. All Others have felt it too.
Nobody can judge us for getting a little lost.
Forgive Yourself.
Look Forward.
Keep Moving.
On Up.

'Fighting The Good Fight' is...

A worthy/meaningful 'cause'.
Ambitious project.
A voice of Justice - Ethics - Change

Something You Can Believe In?
Something You Defend?
Something You Want to Champion...?

Some 'ideas' or projects/work scenes are overly politicised/ disorganised/ or my pet hate: bureaucratic (I like results)
Do you like being in the thick of it? Seeing what you've done/changed?

Examine your emotions.
What are the Opposites?

Like...
Someone who is innately Idealistic will become Hopeless. Pessimistic.
A wise courageous animal (caged) will bark and bite at everything.
A person who is born to Explore, will stay in a corner. Live in the shadows.
One who loves 'sparring' confidently in Argument will become silent, fearful, or self-critical.
One with a gift for Changing/Defending Attitudes will accept their lot; lose their ambition.
Those with unrealised ambitions will put others on a pedestal for their rebelliousness/courage/ambition...
DON'T!
Find your own.

So - often the 'down-side' of life is a great teacher.
We see what we need...(the opposite).

Discover your inner/future self.
Not the You that others see.
Don't be afraid.
It's in you.
So it can only be good.

Don't only imagine what you want, and haven't got..
imagine what you need, but haven't asked for.
Sometime we Must Ask.
It's allowed.
Especially for those who hate asking. (opposite - right?)

New places, a new start, might transform your life completely.
If you follow your instincts to a new city - away from past/youth - how would you feel?
Would you feel liberated, excited and enabled? To get busy?
Well then...

Its crucial to develop practical expertise. You may have already.
People will implicitly respect your knowledge and approach.
DayDreaming is useless + Dangerous. Avoid.
'Hone' your communication style.
Find an outlet for what you believe in.
You'll achieve great results.
Others will do all the remarking.
(So you won't have to).

If you're not valued somewhere do not complain - change the place.

Make any sense Porpoise?

Oh haha I definitely understand now. The person seeking to explore living in the shadows sounds a lot like me. I always contradict myself, I am still dusting the debris off of myself and searching for my voice. I feel like a change of scenery isn't bad, I'd be so liberated. I always imagine life with no time restrictions. When you have to do this, or in life you should have completed that. I have so many views and visions I think it's something of a utopia. However, those never exist only in the mind. I also find disappointment to be a good teacher, and I am always looking for ways to improve. You have challenged me here and I really do believe you are the iron that has sharpened a piece of me. In the meantime I'm working on 'changing the place' as you mentioned but in a positive way. Hopefully it brings me either great results of memorable experience. I am in debt to you a painting, it'll be something extraordinary 🙂!

Hey Sister...

I agree with you about disappointment being a good teacher. Albeit a harsh one.
So very cool your changing your place. Great decision.

I will be willing you on, from a distance.
Stay strong - Big Love and Luck with the move.

Let me know how it goes, and stay in touch.

PS:
Can't wait to see the painting 🙂