Part 2 of 2 Advise Needed.

Like I said we, my buddy and I, have been friends for 13 years and it has been a great friendship, he is non judgmental, caring, generous and always good for a night out or watching football or a laugh. He is the perfect gay guy's friend simply because you can't go there with feeling of having a gay relationship and I was content with him being there for my problems as I was for his.
Anyway one night, in s drunken stupor, we crossed the line that should not have been crossed. He instigated it and I let it happen. Since then it has happened three more times usually when we are drunk, don't get me wrong he is still straight but his tells me he is addicted to sex and can't seem to get enough.

We are still buddies and I have been waiting for the next encounter but the last one was over three months ago. I confronted him about it and, naturally he got defensive saying he is not gay and that he is sorry it ever happened the first time. Naturally this conversation developed into a full blown argument. I am not a stupid person, though you would not think so after what I have just written, but I want our friendship to go back to what it was before. I want to work out how to process this and what I should and should not be doing to correct it. My buddy has already corrected it in his own head by saying that it (the sex) will not be happening again.

I need advise on how to deal with this as I have never crossed a line with a friend, if it had have been a total stranger, sure ok but this is not the case. I feel confused, upset, angry, pissed off that this happened, I wanna lash out and tell everyone that knows us what happened I have not reputation to lose but he has..then again that would be childish and the end of a beautiful friendship that I expected to last a lifetime. Please can someone help me out here. I would appreciate some insite, empathy, and understanding. I need to know how to sort this out. Please not cheap shots or fag jokes this is serious. Many thanks in advance.

Well, it's important for you to note that my advice comes from only 18 years of experience and that "words of wisdom" may not exactly be my strong suit. But I personally think that we gays have a serious shadow to overcome relationship wise. Relationships are hard for us you know? But we compensate for our struggles with awesome senses of humor (not to mention incredibly open hearts and minds) and I feel that difficulties are what define our entire lives, and it's all about growth. I think you're absolutely right that it would be childish to release his little secret, but does that have to mean that you should bear your pain in silence? I don't think so. Again, you should definitely avoid letting it get the best of you and making his life harder by telling everyone about it, but I think that if you have someone you absolutely trust not to spill the beans (ideally a third party who doesn't know him), you should consider confiding in someone you care about - and someone who cares for you too. You have every reason to be hurt, and angry, but it don't think there should be a reason that you let this reduce you to a point of depression (tough for a pisces, I know). As far as setting things right, I see 2 ways you could go about it; 1- you could follow his lead and pretend like nothing ever happened. Not good for you at all, but it may salvage the friendship. Or 2- you could try again to talk with him about it. You don't need to drown him in your sea of emotional tides and currents, as we water signs have a tendency to do, but you may try explaining openly and honestly exactly what it is you expected although it would be of utmost concern that you do NOT try to guilt trip him (Taurus don't appreciate this much), and then explain to him that you understand, or that you're at least trying to understand where he's coming from, and that you just want things to be normal again. Hard to do without making a martyr of yourself, but then again being a martyr is one of pisces strong cards. Don't just take my word for it though, I'm a teenager on an astrology forum not a guru, ask someone you can trust and confide in. Answers will come, just keep your chin up 🙂

I don't see what the problem is, if you don't want the sex, just avoid getting drunk when you're alone with him, that should be a no brainer.
If you feel that you are being raped/coerced, then I don't see why you would hesitate to ruin his reputation. Just tell his friends about it, that should teach him a lesson.
If you really don't want the sex, you should put clear lines not to be crossed, but I'm not sure you really know what you want.

whats wrong with dying alone

If he is your friend, Just dont cross the line.