Capricornio man

Hi, I am acquarius and me my capri man about 3 months ago. I came from a very violent ex who I divorced 3 years ago and I am healed but xtremed cautioned to the point that I made up a husband for the rest of the world so that will keep guys away at least until I was completely healed. With that said, I had work for this place over a year and I never met my cap man until the very final weeks before I left. He is the owner of one of the big companies we used to buy from. I dis not know that at that moment, one day he shows up with this charming personality and it clicked it triggered my desire to get to know him. I treated him the same way I treat the rest of my vendors with respect but, in my special nice way with humor and he flirted with me and asked me to go out for a drink that weekend which I responded with a nice thank you but bo thank u. Then he gave me his cell number and asked me to call him if I wanted to do something other than drinking that weekend.
I surprisely woke up that Saturday thinking of him and I called him and invited him to come with me to my friend's housw by the beach during the day, nothing to do with romance or sex.
He answered yes right away and asked me when and where to pick me up and with my natural cautioness I said give me your address and I will pick you up. He did and when we met again he said please let me drive. We had a nice ride and conversation and it was always pointing to the sexual desire. I flirted but also let him know that I had no intention to waste my time in a one night only.
Afterwarda we went back home he let me see his place, showed me the empty room which used to be his ex's daughter bedroom. He told me about his 4 years relationship never told me the reasons they broke up and also told me his is a one woman man.
It ended up in the best sex I ever had.
Spent the night with him.
Along these 3 months he had have a few quickies and a bunch of great sex nights which has also open up nice converstions: deep issues, we had shared tv shows and movies always his place, he leaves the dooe open for me, we showered together, had coffee and beeakfast, enjoyed out time before and after sex. He started to make eye contact during sex about a month ago. He has been more and more affectionate. After our first argument he got really angry but, did not stop talking to me. After all he knew he has let me down. I apologized to him first because I was also very annoyed and angry and then just then he did gave me a short I am sorry which to me was meaninful
knowing it was really hard for him
To accept he was wrong too.
That weekend after we had some make up sex (I had note mentioned he always receives a lot of affirmation from me, nice body massages after work which he loves! A lot of attention and affection, I had told him and go above and beyond to show him my admiration and respect) we spent this Awesome Friday night with laughter, lots of cuddling and smooches follwed up by a Wonderful picnic all day Sat

Saturday at the Park by the ocean with sandwiches I made myself last
Minute and he surprised me bringing the wine and the blanket and the eye contact, care and attention with what in his own words was the proof to me that he also has a heart and he be so special to me too. (I was walking in feathers os heaven) total melted my heart. I initiated some sex but, people started coming and neither him or I could accomplish our mutual fantasy.
I did have one of my fantasies fulfilled with him before and he knows it.

Then after all this beauty I had also taken care of his health giving him not only those awesomes massages that he adores so much but massages in the jacuzzi with homeopathic salta and also started to give him healthy smoothies in the mornings which he was very appreciative of.
He keeps asking me why am I so nice to him
And then I introduced him to my heart and told him that my nature is not only to be kind with everybody in my posibilities but, I truly has started caring for him. And I told him I was falling for him. To which he responded: You can't because I am
Not a good person I will hurt you.
Then he goes to the protective mode
Told me he wants to be supportive to my feelings and telling me he knows I am a strong and good woman and he wants to help me to be even stronger

Now about a week ago he got ill and hide all week. He did not want me to see him. I knew he was home because I passed his home and he was there. I did not knock at his door. I respected his desire of dealing woth this alone.
He keep txtng and telling me not to worry, he will be fine. He had fever and cold sores ans pain in general I know he does not watch what he its and he over works sometimes and I know for a fact he careies a hugw amount of streas at the office. I tried to comfort him with my words.

He txt me saying he felt like shit and then I offered my company and my help again, he finally lets me see him and I brought my special oils to give him a restoring massage which I did.
We made love, he was sleeping soundly but every time I reach at him with my foot he moved away, nothing like the past when he hold me and never rejected me.
At 2:00 he wakes me up asking if I was sleeping because he has insomnia. I caress him and he goes back to sleep. He never mentioned he had to wake up at 5:00 am. We generally wake up around 6:30 amd leave by 7. When he had told me he needs to wake up earlier I prefer to see him and then leave or not see him at all to let him rest.

We woke up at 6:39 and he is maddly angry I tried to caress him and calm him dow , he jumps out of the bed and tells me: this is why I shouldn't have you here at 2:00 am!!!
I got dressed and left, no morning hug or kiss I just went down staira and told him do not forget your smoothie (I had brought the fruits and vegetables and blend it the night before to make it easier for him) to what he responded thank you and that
Was it!

Not a single answered to my texts since that day: one

I sent him very heart warming txts saying how much I hurt because he did not directed his frustration the right way and he took it on me. I also said I was not mad because I acknowledge that he is a human being like me, I could reacted the same way accidentaly. I had openly told him that I already started to get fond of deep feelings including love for him and that I knew he had told me not to but, I couldnt help it but to fall in love.
I had expressed my fears to lose him but, I had also let him Know that I respect him and I will accept if he has to go. I said feel free to go.
Even with all these feelings I am grateful and did not regret a single moment together not even the last night together when he was mean to me the next day. I has asked him to look deep inside his heart and find the value and true meaning of my words.

That was yesterday And still not a single word.

I went this morning just out of curiosity to check his place and see if he perhaps had company and he wasn't even there! He did not spend the night there which never happened before ¢
Please give Me your honest opinion!
Chapina22

well... if you're single now- I'll bloody date you! You sound awesome! 😛

I think you'd end up with a lot of heartache and wasted time if you let this continue.

He told you out of his mouth that he's not a good person and will hurt you. Regardless of if you see something different in him, he chose to speak that negativity, and he WILL make it happen and be content afterwards because in his mind he warned you. That was the start of his opportunity to do whatever he wants.

I think he needed sex and companionship, so he showed you his best to get what he wanted and now you are seeing why he's been single.

You seem like a nice and caring person. Please dont let this nutjob take that away from you.

Another red flag is him talking about his ex and showing you her daughters room. He is still in the past mentally and emotionally.