Finally going to see him after 2 years...

Okay.

2 years ago I met a cancer male out of state (my friend moved there and I came to visit and was planning to move there as well) he was a co worker of hers. She set us up

Talked a month before we met. Spent a week together and I was floored as I have never felt so strongly about someone in such a short amount of time. I am the type that it takes a long time for me to develop intense feelings for someone.

But it was just too easy.

Fast forward 2 years...

I never ended up moving down there. But we kept in touch this whole time and talk nearly every day- we have stayed close and I still to this day am crazy about him.

I have tried to meet up a couple times but he always backs out or has an excuse.

Come to find out he told me he is "difficult with me"

That he really does care about me and he has thought about being with me but he is scared and has a lot going on. But after 2 times of being ditched I had quit trying to initiate anything and let him come to me if it gets to that point.

This was about 5 months ago.

He now has asked me to come see him in the first week of July. We both have a week off for vacation.

BTW he has told me he loves me a couple of times (he was the first to say). He is not the most verbally expressive guy but I know how he feels by his actions.

Anyways - I am scared and happy at the same time.

I do not know what to expect and whats to come from this but I guess I will find out. I am not keeping my hopes up.

By the way I am never the type to chase a guy...

But my gut keep telling me not to give up on him, something feels so right...

Also tables are turning as in he is initiating everything now.

Not exactly sure what the point of this post was maybe just a vent.

Any advice or comments is welcome.

Thanks

I don't know that I would consider him asking you to visit as him 'initiating everything'. Your the one traveling to him and making the big effort.

Good luck tho