So as far as advice on this I guess you could say for the most part I know what I need to do. You know, be strong, be patient, do me, and I am doing all these things because it's not my first rodeo here, however it's definitly taking a toll and I suppose I'm using this to vent because I feel better and more at ease when I conversation about it, maybe hear other people with similar stories. So the story goes, I'm a 29 year old male, I'm attractive, I know it, I'm a 215 lb. Body builder with no ego because I was raised better than that so I don't flaunt my looks and I also don get alot of girls on purpose, I look for much more than a night of fun. About a year and a half ago I saw a beautiful woman in my eyes across from our work area, in a different area so I couldn't just go up, but I noticed her and my heart got very heavy just seeing her. My buddy in our area happened to be friends with her, so I asked him about her he said she had a boyfriend, however the relationship wasn't good. I admired from a far until one day we finally crossed paths, it was halloween and she stoped and said she loved my costume. I've never locked eyes with anyone that deeply at first sight it was like a movie. We hit it off from there, became good friends. Everyday for the last 8 months I found reasons to go into her area and talk to her, I could tell she loves talking to me and she also confides in me, although she never mentioned, I could tell she isn't very happy in her relationship, I truly think she's just having a hard time letting go because it's been 4 years and she wants him to change. We've gotten to know eachother very well, and I can honestly say that the feeling I get when I'm around her is unlike anything on this planet. Whether she or myself even came into work with something on our minds, all we had to do was have 1 small conversation about it and the rest of the day we were much better, we can talk about anything literally. She finally started opening up to me about some problems she has with her man a few weeks ago, long story short he isn't taking them very seriously and she is going to have to give him an ultimatum. It was a few days after that I found out I had won a bid on a different shift in a different building which I am here now. I had 2 weeks to tell her how I felt about her, so first i got her to add me on messanger because i felt innaptopriate asking a taken woman for her number. So the 2 weeks went by, I literally was on my last few seconds on Friday in the parking lot, she happened to park next to me but I always left 12 minutes before her shift ended. I didn't want to wait on her and seem stalkersh because she already had one of those around, but I was so lucky that a guy from our area came to my car and stalled me to tell me good luck etc. So I kept talking to make sure he stayed there and here she came. He left and we sat in the parking lot and talked for over an hour. Just like always just random conversation after conversation, we never run out of things to talk about. Finally her boyfriends brother who stays on their couch messaged because she pucks him up from work, she had to go and I just came out with it, I did it in a respectible way but she knew what I meant. I told her that I valued the friendship I had gained very much and if at any point in time if the opportunity arose, id love to hang out, and she told me that when and if it ever happened she would have me in mind, I then told her that whatever the future holds that she should be happy because she deserves it and that's what I want for her. She had a heart felt thank you and then it's now the next chapter for me, I took a better position, also on a better shift for my 4 year old daughter. It's been 2 nights now and I miss this woman already pretty dearly, it sucks not knowing things like if I'll ever see her again, but it's natural because I let myself fall for her, and I don't regret it because so far it's the realist thing I've felt. Also an FYI on the kind of person I am, she is beautiful to me, however other guys don't find her attractive, she's not the type that would turn alot of heads, but I could see all that she was and the person she is makes her shine more than anyone else to me. I hope to see her again someday. Just hoping to maybe hear some similar stories, or some encouragement while Im doing what I'm doing. I know how to handle these things on the surface, it's just hard to stop thinking about her because it just felt so natural and right, and I really think it felt good to her too she's just sort of stuck.
