so hard to move on...

I get it. Meeting her was a lesson. In a few days, it'll mark one year since I talked to her. She's moved on, she has a partner. I learnt a lot from her. I get it. Now can I please move on? I'm seriously conversing myself to tell my heart that it's over. Stop thinking about her. Why do you put yourself in this endless cycle of pain. Fuck, let it go.



fuck.

What you need to do is refocus on yourself and your goals. I got rejected late last year and I have just managed to break back to my usual not caring particularly much about anything. Set yourself a goal and pick up a hobby to do in your spare time to help you distract yourself. For example, my goal is to get an A in Chemistry and I picked up penmanship as a hobby.

Posted by janvier10
I get it. Meeting her was a lesson. In a few days, it'll mark one year since I talked to her. She's moved on, she has a partner. I learnt a lot from her. I get it. Now can I please move on? I'm seriously conversing myself to tell my heart that it's over. Stop thinking about her. Why do you put yourself in this endless cycle of pain. Fuck, let it go.



fuck.

That's your Pisces moon in action.

Strong Pisces involvement has tendency of codependency, have a read about it if you recognise anything

Posted by Sheever

Posted by janvier10
I get it. Meeting her was a lesson. In a few days, it'll mark one year since I talked to her. She's moved on, she has a partner. I learnt a lot from her. I get it. Now can I please move on? I'm seriously conversing myself to tell my heart that it's over. Stop thinking about her. Why do you put yourself in this endless cycle of pain. Fuck, let it go.



fuck.

That's your Pisces moon in action.

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Please tell me more. Cause I feel like it's getting out of hand. I have Pisces Moon in House 7.

Posted by Sheever
Strong Pisces involvement has tendency of codependency, have a read about it if you recognise anything

Not to mention, I fell in love with a Pisces Sun, which made it that much harder to forget about her.

Posted by Ownard
What you need to do is refocus on yourself and your goals. I got rejected late last year and I have just managed to break back to my usual not caring particularly much about anything. Set yourself a goal and pick up a hobby to do in your spare time to help you distract yourself. For example, my goal is to get an A in Chemistry and I picked up penmanship as a hobby.

Thanks for the advice. I've been there before. I'm at the stage after occupying yourself with hobbies. I made it to the other side, like a wave of refreshment. Yet, now that I have some relax time, the memories still come back. It's a daily struggle yet again. Wtf.

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Posted by Ownard
What you need to do is refocus on yourself and your goals. I got rejected late last year and I have just managed to break back to my usual not caring particularly much about anything. Set yourself a goal and pick up a hobby to do in your spare time to help you distract yourself. For example, my goal is to get an A in Chemistry and I picked up penmanship as a hobby.

Thanks for the advice. I've been there before. I'm at the stage after occupying yourself with hobbies. I made it to the other side, like a wave of refreshment. Yet, now that I have some relax time, the memories still come back. It's a daily struggle yet again. Wtf.

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It's the same for me bud. I've grown past the asking questions and just accepted it. We had a great friendship before I got the feels and that's what I remember but then I think of the way she treated me after rejecting me. I do struggle but one of her friends is trying to get us back to being friends but I'm hesitant.

But enough about me. What you should do is begin to focus on yourself, look at what lessons you have learned and try to improve on yourself for the next time.

Posted by Aquarelle
Try to stop fighting it and go through all the emotions as they are. If memories come back, let them come back. Close your eyes, feel whatever they make you feel like and just breathe....the feelings will pass.

If it hurts, let it hurt, if you feel numb, just accept that too. Go easy on yourself AND your emotions. Don't push them aside, don't fight them, just let them wash over you and let them flow away.

This only helps if you give it time and practise acceptance while you are at it.

Thank you for your wise words. I really appreciate all your beautiful words. I know this may sound alittle bit cliche, but this relationship and the cosmo got me spinnin' about her. Everything that happened between us whether it's how she grew up, her profession, her interest, her whole situation were all so similar to myself. I can't help but believe she's my twin flame. If twin flames only happen once in a life time, I'm just scared to let her go. I've been waiting for so long for someone like her, yet at the same time, I'm honestly really tired mentally and emotionally. Only time will tell. Feels so hard to accept that it might just take who knows how many more years for someone like this to appear again. It's like yearning for a cosmic event that happens who knows when. Or the idea that it might not ever happen in my lifetime again...this is sounding so dumb right now.

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Posted by janvier10
I get it. Meeting her was a lesson. In a few days, it'll mark one year since I talked to her. She's moved on, she has a partner. I learnt a lot from her. I get it. Now can I please move on? I'm seriously conversing myself to tell my heart that it's over. Stop thinking about her. Why do you put yourself in this endless cycle of pain. Fuck, let it go.



fuck.

what was her sun and moon sign?

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She's a Aqua-Pisces cusper. Feb 21. I'm not sure about her moon. But my instinct is telling me it's either Moon Gemini, Moon Cap or Moon Virgo. Cap and Virgo I can handle. But if she was a Moon in Gemini, it also explains why I was so hesitant to make it an exclusive relationship when we were still LDR.

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Posted by janvier10
I get it. Meeting her was a lesson. In a few days, it'll mark one year since I talked to her. She's moved on, she has a partner. I learnt a lot from her. I get it. Now can I please move on? I'm seriously conversing myself to tell my heart that it's over. Stop thinking about her. Why do you put yourself in this endless cycle of pain. Fuck, let it go.



fuck.

what was her sun and moon sign?

She's a Aqua-Pisces cusper. Feb 21. I'm not sure about her moon. But my instinct is telling me it's either Moon Gemini, Moon Cap or Moon Virgo. Cap and Virgo I can handle. But if she was a Moon in Gemini, it also explains why I was so hesitant to make it an exclusive relationship when we were still LDR.

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She would tell me she's going to this and that party this weekend and share poems she writes to whom she never disclosed who it's for. So, honestly, I don't know why I fell in love with her cause my logical mind is like, she wasn't that into you. But fml, my heart is stuck with her. OH WHAT THE FUCK.

Caps and y'all exs....