Met a sag last year. However due to his insecurities and something that happened he wouldn’t make me his girlfriend. I blocked his number, he blocked mine, we unblocked each others number and talked on and off since February of this year. He’s made so many efforts to see me, but I’ve always made it seem that I’m so busy because he hurt me so bad, but apart of me will always care for him so much. I finally gave in and let him take my to lunch, he then took me to brunch the next weekend. This guy knows i care as I’ve expressed it several times to him him, but he’s never expressed it back to me. Not once has he told me he liked me even if he’s showed it. Sorry not sorry that’s not reassuring to me. He is moving in a few weeks and while i get that it would be very hard to be in a 6 Hour relationship, every time he came to visit from the last time he moved he would always text me stating he wanted to see. I might as well add the real reason he couldn’t date me. Before I met him I dated his brother and he knew this, but he still had interest in me and he pursued me. He recently told me that the reason he came back to me was because the last girl he dated also dated his brother and slept with his brother before he got with her and that’s what opened his eyes to dating me. Last night I sent a text stating how it’s astonishing how much he “sleeps on me” and how he’ll never feel what I feel. All he responded with “how do I sleep on you though.” So I sent him a message that he just isn’t interested in me. No worries. But I can’t do this anymore. It’s not fair he continues to come in and out of my life knowing how much I care about him and make it known I care about him. And he never texted back, so i guess i got my answer. I guess I really didn’t have a question. But sometimes I just hate how I am as a person. He’s not worthy of anything yet I let him get the better of me. I’ve always made it so clear about my feelings for him through actions and verbal communication. I’ve always treated him so good. He sleeps on an air mattress, has no furniture, and his car that wasn’t even in his name just got repossessed, can’t keep a stable job except for being in the military which is why he’s moving. But I always saw something better in him that materialistic things. I’m a prenursing student with my own apartment, own car, GPA is a 3.37 which is equivalent to a B+ and I have a full time job. It’s crazy that I let someone who does absolutely so little for me have so much power over my emotions. I’m sorry for the rant. I really need to vent. I’m in between blocking his number and maybe thinking that’s a little Petty. Idk. But whoever reads this, I appreciate it. Thanks you
