and today's theme is sadness....

saturn is a fuck. i'm on a rollercoaster of varying emotions all of which seem really extreme.

today i am sad. my son has been staying in spain for the last week or so and i took him to the airport to fly home last night. actually sad is an understatement cos each time i say goodbye to him, i'm reminded of how half our family is in spain and the other half in england...brother and sister miles apart from each other. it's a woman thing i guess but i just feel so fucking GUILTY!

to top it all, yesterday my daughter wanted to show me a picture on facebook. it was of my aries ex husband painting a wall in the house that he shares with his aries partner the marriage wrecker. he'd painted 'I

Lol ..... sucks being a Pisces sometimes .....

* ponders why Pisces seem to be "drawn "to sadness like a bloody magnet *

Good that you still have your sense of humour ...

I have been miserable for the last 6 months....just when I think im slowly coming out ...something pulls me back under :/ . I just had my saturn return so I dont think that's the reason. People dont believe when I say I dont think im meant to be happy...must of done some horrible things in a past life or something.


Where my leo moon when I need it!

Damn, dxp.

Rig...,

That's gotta hurt!

Rig, i know how u feel, i feel weird too when my son leaves after a visit- it passes in a day or 2 tough. Just curious, why do u feel guilty over your ex and his suni? Funny thing, my son's father is an aries too and he is the opposite of yours- likes too much attention given to him, always following u around, commands time. This caused most of our fights cause i dont need someone up my arse 24/7. Are u feeling guilty bcoz u think u didnt give him (lets say attention) as much as suni gives him?

Rig ...I didnt wanna hijack ur thread with my sadness ...sorry!

Hope things look up for you! 🙂

awwww....everything's always better after a dxp hug 🙂

lostinmymind11: please PLEASE hijack this thread with your sadness. it's here so we can spread the misery should we be feeling it.

plus it would be nice to know i'm not the only one feelin' blue.

Hey Rig. Big hugs to you. Can relate to some of the misery you are feeling lately. Having a rough week myself in that department.

Hoping too that it will get better...only place to go is up right?

Posted by R1g0rM0rT1s
awwww....everything's always better after a dxp hug 🙂

lostinmymind11: please PLEASE hijack this thread with your sadness. it's here so we can spread the misery should we be feeling it.

plus it would be nice to know i'm not the only one feelin' blue.

Misery loves company..

Posted by MellyMel
You are not the only one feeling it, Rig. I must have bought a season pass to an amusement park, for all the emotional roller coasters I've been riding lately. 😢

Same here. Been trying to turn it around, focus on the positive when I'm sad, calm myself when I'm angry, but it seems futile. So for now, I'm just trying to let the emotions happen and ride them out.

Posted by R1g0rM0rT1s
awwww....everything's always better after a dxp hug 🙂

lostinmymind11: please PLEASE hijack this thread with your sadness. it's here so we can spread the misery should we be feeling it.

plus it would be nice to know i'm not the only one feelin' blue.

I unhid it. You are def not the only one! (((((Hugs))))) 🙂

NovLady: you know how it is with mothers. there's a saying that when you have your first baby, you give birth to guilt, lol. i think it's probably something fathers feel too in some circumstances. i know my ex did when he left the country and i had custody of both our kids. the feeling of guilt attached to the impact of YOUR actions on your children is HUGE which is why many people stay in unhappy marriages for the 'sake of the kids' although personally i think that can do more harm than good. i tried it for 4 years but when trust is gone, the relationship can never be the same.

Posted by LostinmyMind11
I have been miserable for the last 6 months....just when I think im slowly coming out ...something pulls me back under :/ . I just had my saturn return so I dont think that's the reason. People dont believe when I say I dont think im meant to be happy...must of done some horrible things in a past life or something.


Where my leo moon when I need it!

oh gosh yeah. i thought i must've been atilla the hun in a previous life for all the shit that's come my way but how you react to it is just a state of mind. i embrace my sad days. wallow in it. indulge it for all it's worth cos i really believe we need to acknowledge what we feel while making sure we don't let it define us.

imo, it's when you try and push the bad crap to the back of your mind that you do the most harm. it festers inside you which can have a serious impact on your emotional health.

it's not about 'cheering up' either. why do we always have to be cheerful?!?! why not be moody and miserable if that's how you feel. as long as you're not dragging anyone else down with you, what's the problem.

also, i'm so bloody old now that i've learned that even in your darkest moments, if you keep looking up rather than down you'll soon see a shaft of light....an opportunity to turn things around...but if you're too absorbed in your misery, you won't see it. the only way not to become too absorbed in it is to let it aaaaaall out.

well after reading venusianbull's thread i realised i have absolutely nothing to be down about and now i have GUILT for making this thread.

i'm gonna hug my little girl a little tighter tonight for sure.

Posted by MidniteStar




I'm sorry you're feeling down Rig. Hope things cheer up for you soon.🙂 It's no fun being down, but sometimes it can be a release of some sort if that makes any sense? I know that's how it is with me.

Anyway, I can relate. For some reason this year I've felt worse. I'm depressed because I'm getting older and not exactly where I want to be in life. Ten years ago, I never thought I'd be here. Makes me feel like a bit of a failure. I've procrastinated on fulfilling my dreams for years. Mostly out of fear I guess. I really don't know. Perhaps I'm just plain lazy. This year I've reflected on my life more than ever and what I saw disappointed me. I feel I've let people down, but mostly myself. I fear the future and the unknown.

Ah you speak of Aries women...I don't know what it is about those Aries women. My ex Pisces and ex Aqua both left me for Aries ladies. Makes me wonder what they have that I don't? Probably more confidence in themself. Looking back on my relationship with the Aqua depressed me the most though. I was with him for two years, but comparing our relationship to the one with his new Aries wife makes ours look pathetic. He could never settle down with me. Was never ready for anything stable or long term. Never really romantic with me etc. Yet he leaves me for the Aries who he marries and has a son with. I can tell he really loves her which hurt because that's all I ever wanted from him was love in return. He has all these pictures of him and her on his facebook...pre-marriage pictures. Him with his arm around her etc. and you can tell he really cares for her. Never once showed that emotion with me...never really knew he had that emotion until he met her. I guess it all depends on meeting the right person to bring it out. I look back over the two years spent with him and there is not a single picture of us together...perhaps he was too ashamed to take one with me. I was probably just a secret sexual fling to him. He drank a lot when I was with him as well and looking back I sometimes wonder if he had to drink just to be able to touch me? I know it's pretty negative, but those thoughts I can't help but think about. Those Aries women must be pretty special for sure! lol

Other than that, just a lot of regrets. Well, that's my vent for tonight. Lots and lots of reflecting. Feel better soon Rig. 🙂

wow yeah..that sounds

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!! POO PANTS!!

wow yeah..that sounds very similar to my experience with the aries. i do like aries women in general...my daughter's one so i kinda have to lol although she is redeemed by her scorpy rising.

the thing that makes aries women so 'special' to some men is their total belief that they ARE special. the ram that's with my ex has him cooking and cleaning and running around after her cos that's what she EXPECTS and he can't help himself but deliver. he did absolutely nothing domestic when we were together. the kids always said his signature dish was tinned ravioli on toast which he still managed to burn, lol.

it just shows you that if you are a compliant kind of woman who doesn't mind doing that kind of thing, the man inevitably is happy to leave it to you...while of course devaluing domestic efforts as 'women's stuff'.

my aries friend has been married to a gemini forever. she told me when she first met her husband she claimed not to be able to cook, clean or perform any domestic chore and has been treated like a princess ever since, lol. there's something about those ram ladies that makes you feel 'honoured' they're giving you the time of day.

just goes to show that men really DO love bitches, lol.