Surely it must be Wine Night!

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Moscato, and Dxp sounds perfect to me. 😄

So, little update on me... (and yes, I am opening myself up and being vulnerable)
I have had to end things with the Scorpio guy I was dating over the winter. It was a difficult decision, and it still pains me. I am slowly recovering from it with a great deal of insight into who I am, and where I am broken. I believe he is either my Twin Flame or my False Twin. I have never met anyone in my life that was so much like me. I let him go Because I love him.
It doesn't just apply to romantic relationships either. I have spent a lifetime with my wounded child making choices and decisions.
I just didn't know it.
Since I walked away from my marriage 4 years ago I've had quite the journey to get here.
Give me a scenario that crosses a red line issue and I have probably lived it. I am not scared of much anymore. I live small but I love Grande! My family consists of my kidlets and some really beautiful people that do not share my blood.
Through it all, I am thankful. So thankful for all that I have and it is SO much in it's simplicity but fullness.
I am more content and peaceful today than I have ever been.
So what is the real lesson of it all? To LOVE ourselves first? To love others even when they are hurting us? To love and forgive all the wrongs? Or to realize that the heart inside your chest needs to be cradled.... first. To learn about the light and dark that exists within and to LOVE all of it anyway? To be free of all of the encumbrances of the Ego, and realize that we all have hurts in one way or another? That we are ultimately here to learn.....

Is there a point to this? Maybe.
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Thankyou for the hugs my Dear Soul Sister. I wish I had been sitting and having a glass of wine with you, and I miss it too. There will be more impromptu visits to CA to come. 🙂
Life is both painful and glorious and I do believe that without the one we would not be able to fully appreciate the other.

tiziani, I read that quote years ago and thought I understood it well. In reading your post this morning I realize that I have an even better understanding of it than what I did years ago. Stronger at the broken places being where I focus now as opposed to the part about how the world breaks us.

Lib, very true comment. Alchohol is a way to escape and sometimes needed.
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Woohoo for impromptu visists! I need to plan some of my own to you. I also need to get my crazy life into a more stable routine. Fuck the ex for finding everything under the sun to balk at in the divorce, but I laugh at him complaining about legal fees and attorney fees when he's the one running to the court to try to get out of paying alimony and child support, trying to balk on custody stuff; if you don't want the legal fees and hassle then stop fighting the process! ~headdesk~

Alcohol is only an escape if you're getting drunk or wasted TO escape. Most people just drink a little here and there because it tastes good...like homemade strawberry banana daiquiris.
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The impromptu visit was awesome with the exception of that NASTY flu bug that has lasted nearly a month. I am so happy to be feeling better and actually able to sleep at night.

The Ex Assclown deserves all that he dishes out, and it will come in due time. Meanwhile, don't let him ruffle your feathers and no more bangin your head on the desk you could get a concussion!! Lmao!

Vodka Crantinies instead of Moscato last night.... I changed my mind, I am entitled. Lol They were very yummy and I slept like a baby. You are right though, I did not have two drinks last night to get drunk but instead because they taste goooooooood. Apparently though, I have turned into a lightweight worse than I was before. Geesh!
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The impromptu visit was awesome with the exception of that NASTY flu bug that has lasted nearly a month. I am so happy to be feeling better and actually able to sleep at night.

The Ex Assclown deserves all that he dishes out, and it will come in due time. Meanwhile, don't let him ruffle your feathers and no more bangin your head on the desk you could get a concussion!! Lmao!

Vodka Crantinies instead of Moscato last night.... I changed my mind, I am entitled. Lol They were very yummy and I slept like a baby. You are right though, I did not have two drinks last night to get drunk but instead because they taste goooooooood. Apparently though, I have turned into a lightweight worse than I was before. Geesh!



I felt so bad that you got sick on my watch. Sheesh, fail at hostessing, right? lol

The ex is an ex for that exact reason: he's an ass. Can I bang his head on a desk?

I might be a bigger lightweight than you. One glass of a good red will put me to sleep fairly quick. 😛
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The impromptu visit was awesome with the exception of that NASTY flu bug that has lasted nearly a month. I am so happy to be feeling better and actually able to sleep at night.

The Ex Assclown deserves all that he dishes out, and it will come in due time. Meanwhile, don't let him ruffle your feathers and no more bangin your head on the desk you could get a concussion!! Lmao!

Vodka Crantinies instead of Moscato last night.... I changed my mind, I am entitled. Lol They were very yummy and I slept like a baby. You are right though, I did not have two drinks last night to get drunk but instead because they taste goooooooood. Apparently though, I have turned into a lightweight worse than I was before. Geesh!



I felt so bad that you got sick on my watch. Sheesh, fail at hostessing, right? lol

The ex is an ex for that exact reason: he's an ass. Can I bang his head on a desk?

I might be a bigger lightweight than you. One glass of a good red will put me to sleep fairly quick. 😛
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No, you definitely don't fail. You were an awesome hostess!
Lmao, Sure I think banging his head on a desk sounds much better.
If one glass does you in Moon then for sure you are a bigger lightweight than I am!!
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Moscato, and Dxp sounds perfect to me. 😄

So, little update on me... (and yes, I am opening myself up and being vulnerable)
I have had to end things with the Scorpio guy I was dating over the winter. It was a difficult decision, and it still pains me. I am slowly recovering from it with a great deal of insight into who I am, and where I am broken. I believe he is either my Twin Flame or my False Twin. I have never met anyone in my life that was so much like me. I let him go Because I love him.
It doesn't just apply to romantic relationships either. I have spent a lifetime with my wounded child making choices and decisions.
I just didn't know it.
Since I walked away from my marriage 4 years ago I've had quite the journey to get here.
Give me a scenario that crosses a red line issue and I have probably lived it. I am not scared of much anymore. I live small but I love Grande! My family consists of my kidlets and some really beautiful people that do not share my blood.
Through it all, I am thankful. So thankful for all that I have and it is SO much in it's simplicity but fullness.
I am more content and peaceful today than I have ever been.
So what is the real lesson of it all? To LOVE ourselves first? To love others even when they are hurting us? To love and forgive all the wrongs? Or to realize that the heart inside your chest needs to be cradled.... first. To learn about the light and dark that exists within and to LOVE all of it anyway? To be free of all of the encumbrances of the Ego, and realize that we all have hurts in one way or another? That we are ultimately here to learn.....

Is there a point to this? Maybe.



Leave it to the french to make the best wine.



Who is grande? Maybe the lesson hasn't revealed itself yet..?
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That looks good.... 🙂
Grande as in Love Large, and even though I have learned a lot about myself I have no doubt there is more to it.
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The impromptu visit was awesome with the exception of that NASTY flu bug that has lasted nearly a month. I am so happy to be feeling better and actually able to sleep at night.

The Ex Assclown deserves all that he dishes out, and it will come in due time. Meanwhile, don't let him ruffle your feathers and no more bangin your head on the desk you could get a concussion!! Lmao!

Vodka Crantinies instead of Moscato last night.... I changed my mind, I am entitled. Lol They were very yummy and I slept like a baby. You are right though, I did not have two drinks last night to get drunk but instead because they taste goooooooood. Apparently though, I have turned into a lightweight worse than I was before. Geesh!



I felt so bad that you got sick on my watch. Sheesh, fail at hostessing, right? lol

The ex is an ex for that exact reason: he's an ass. Can I bang his head on a desk?

I might be a bigger lightweight than you. One glass of a good red will put me to sleep fairly quick. 😛



No, you definitely don't fail. You were an awesome hostess!
Lmao, Sure I think banging his head on a desk sounds much better.
If one glass does you in Moon then for sure you are a bigger lightweight than I am!!
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Thank you and next time you're not allowed to get sick. 😉

It's weird, but red wine will make me very sleepy. Champagne and moscato do not. Rum does almost nothing for me.
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Leave it to the french to make the best wine.



Who is grande? Maybe the lesson hasn't revealed itself yet..?



That looks good.... 🙂
Grande as in Love Large, and even though I have learned a lot about myself I have no doubt there is more to it.



Oh. lol

Yeah, in a situation like you are in.. hopefully you can try to be easy on yourself. I find that life is too short to put pressure on my mind or heart to come up with the answers to the lessons in life: when I just relax or am not thinking too much, the answers come in flashes of intuition. Then it's like "Oh now I get it!" to some things that happened that I did not completely understand at all if that makes sense.
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It's been ... chaotic, and thankyou for the words of advice. I can be very hard on myself and push to find answers but I do love and adore those moments of clarity, no matter what the answer is.