what do you make of this: last weekend my scorp told me that he had to take his clients out for drinks and then he got to my house later that night all drunk and really scared me by saying that he has to tell me something. he told me that he lied and he felt really horribly bad about it and he kept thinking about it the whole night and felt really guilty and had to come clean. i thought that he was out with another girl. but turned out that he wanted to have a boy's night out and was contemplating whether or not to invite me along. i don't understand why he thought i'd be upset since i told him a long time ago that i'm ok with a boy night out since i want my girl night out too. i also find it weird that he doesn't want to go out with me much but spends all of his time with me including every night. we're way past fwb stage at this point. he calls me his gf but and says we have a relationship but i don't feel much of it the way i look at. he's in his late 30's so he should know better. he probably stays at his place like 3 times a month for the past couple of months. coming to my place without calling me whether or not i'm home, cooks, takes garbage out, makes the bad, and bringing groceries and planning dinners for the next night and cooking. in one way we're like totally together but on the other hand he doesn't let me in his world much. he told me that bringing me in his world would be an ordeal whatever it means. but then he tells me how much i mean to him and important in his life. i don't know if i should take it or leave it. it's like you're important and i love you but it's an ordeal to have you in my life. wtf? any inside?
