I'm in a really fucking rough time in my life..

I'm 22 i live parents I don't have a job I'm looking though Im confused about where I want to go next in life I feel so rushed by the world to do something I feel like everyone thinks I'm a loser and drives me nuts I want kick these assholes in the teeth I've been procrastinating alot I'm trying to get on meds for it but my doctors being weird about I wish I could be like my brother he's a Leo and just rushes to things but I have such bad anxiety I also have aspergers I try to fight through it but it's really hard Im sick of living in Texas it blows I want to move Seattle but Idk how please pray or put out good vibes or what ever you believe in for me I want get over this hump thanks

Hi, just to be clear, why do you want meds? Getting a job at the moment might help your cause and change your outlook. That should be your main focus as it will raise your self esteem and you will become less dependent on what others say or think about you.

Life and its many demands can overwhelm us so take it one step at a time.

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Answer is in your question, "....Im sick of living in Texas it blows I want to move Seattle ...."

Just do it. Don't think about it.

Me too 😢 I'm stuck over my grandmother's house until I move out and get a job. The problem with me is I don't like working for people. I rather be my own boss.

the meds would to help me stay focused

Don't worry OP, from my experience being anxious only increases your anxiety. :/ There's got to be something you want the most... whatever it is, it's your priority and you're going to implement it! Find some work, save up money and invest them in your professional development... Stay calm, you're 22. 🙂

Many young people these days want or expect things to be handed to them on a plate. They think the job fairy will come and knock on their door with a highly paid job. The house fairy will deliver them a home, for free. They want it all now, now, now! They think life is tough. At 22? Really! You don't need medication. There's no medication which will give you self respect, initiative, pride, self belief etc. You just need a boot up your arse and DO something to MAKE your life something. If you want something in life, go and get it. Stop sitting at home whining with mummy and daddy wiping your lazy backside.

Try to stop procrastinating and take advantage of the support you have right now from your parents. You are not find in yourself inside the house or inside your head, so get out and meet people. Volunteer. Just do something other than thinking your time and support away.

I course it's all easier said than done, especially when anxiety is involved but you can push through it with determination.