Recovering from trust issues!

First off I'll warn you that this might be a long read, I've been through a couple of really tough break ups over the past few years and it's led me to become fairly cynical about finding someone.

Going through the list super quick, first love, the best kind with a shy Gemini who only seemed to have the one side! Though after a year of lovey dovey dating, suddenly this darker side starts to show, finding out they had been cheating on me for a month and then angry at me for being upset with them by breaking up with them. Soon led to them turning a few distant friends against me though my closer friends knew I shouldn't be happy for someone who messed me around.

Next up, pretty much the same thing but it only lasted about 4 months, cheated on once more by a leo who I was a sucker for since they could sing and I adire nothing more than beautiful singers, to which they loved the attention.

Now, first 'bite' I'll call it, pieces, oh man you guys know how to twist the knife! So for about 6 months I had been going very very slow with this pieces, it was on and off constantly albeit through my reassurance that it was probably fate from meeting. Suddenly one day I go to their house and they just tell me never to see them again, okay, cut my losses move on, no point in sulking. Three weeks later I get a call from them bragging to me about being with a new guy who was better in bed, typical demorilzing jazz. Upon reminding them that we never got to the point of even sleeping together since a kiss was barely out of the question, I could see they were just playing with me and wanting to carry on the torture, cut contact, feel bad, blah blah.

Final one which has nearly put the nail in the coffin. Aries, knew this person for 5 years maybe, very close friends, became much closer, oh man we are perfect for each other! Confess love for them, they feel the same, finally I've met someone who feels the same way and doesn't want anyone else! Next day they tell me they love someone else and don't want to speak. This person they now have a very happy relationship with, they knew for 2 weeks. Oooh sadness into rage into super moody isolated bull up until now.

So to wrap things up, I'm either the definition of a nice guy finishing last or have the worst luck when it comes to finding someone who is loyal.
I suppose this is a half rant just to get this junk off my chest the other to say hey! Long time lurker first time whiner!

As much as I would like to have the frame of mind and I'm sure I could, I'm still feeling a little misguided without having anyone to share intimacy with. I'm not all too sure about myself being a dominant Taurus but I know I have a fairly soft heart and I work much harder/feel better/live happier even when casually dating someone else. Living for work and business seems empty to me without the drive behind it, something like "I need to do this to get home quicker and see x". Though I may have become accustomed to having that outside force driving me.

BullTrue - you look pretty young. I experienced a lot of unfaithful women when I was in my teens and twenties. I was looking for a long-term relationship since 2nd grade. Younger people really are not; I feel they've been socialized and programmed for the most part to believe they need to have a bunch of random sex. If you're a spiritual person, you might try to find someone within a spiritual or religious community - anything where people have a different set of values, less in line with the spirit of the age. As you get older, and you start running into women who are desiring to settle down, you'll probably have a lot more luck in love.

My advice to you is to focus on your self and career for a while. Don't search too hard. Also, start going to the gym and get ripped. You'd be surprised how much more magnetic you are to women, and how many more options you have, when you are in peak physical shape. The Taurean physique is a big part of our appeal, it will boost your testosterone like crazy, which will in turn boost your self-confidence and assertiveness (something young bulls really need IMO). Sounds superficial I know, but we are a very physical/earthy sign, in a very physically-focused world. Might as well use what you've been given....

Cheers for all the comments guys and gals, the advice is more than appreciated.
- Milkysoft, I do go into each new person with a fresh start, don't get me wrong I'm just a lot less "heart on my sleeve" for the time being. I do think it has been run of the mill bad luck.

-TLS, funny you mention that, should but all those I have dated ranged from 20 - 26 so I wouldn't call them all immature if that's what you were insinuating. I agree that it's become an overly sexualized way of being, this young, though as you're hitting the nail on the head, I'm far more spiritual than that. That may be the way to go, the waiting game which I'm fine with, get over all my past cripes and bitterness.

A good combination of what you and Redbull say! A gym sesh or two I've been going to, just to better myself and such and I do feel that if I did consider myself a stud of sorts I'd be much more willing to go out and flaunt. Use to play the perfect bull sport of rugby though stopped for an injury, getting the weights and some swimming sounds like a step in the right direction.

When cheating happened the first time, were you carrying the fear of your partners cheating on you again to relationships that followed?

- Theatrum, no, as I said in return to Milysoft I gave everyone a new refreshing acceptance, it's just my luck of the draw going for signs that live a little too fast and want to live hard die young sort of deal.

Ah, I see, I just read your original post but after reading through the comments I'd say that you should go with what TLS said. Good advice. Let us know when things go better for you romantically. 😛

All women, but that was pretty nasty of you. Do you have a problem with bisexual or gay people? cause it certainly comes across that way.