disappointment

This is my first time posting on the virgo board, so hello to everyone I haven't met yet!

I went to a interview today for a job as a flight attendant. I thought everything went well with the interviewer and, on the way out, one of the flight attendants staffing the welcome table pulled me aside and started to give me the requisite paperwork that new hires complete. The first thing out of my mouth was, "I'm hired? The interviewer told me that I would hear from them in 4 to 6 weeks." At that, the flight attendant excused herself, went and double-checked, and came back to tell me that she had made a mistake and that I wasn't being hired today. I asked her if that meant that I wouldn't be hired at all and she said that I would have to wait for the official letter from the airline.

Of course, I wasn't hired. This isn't negative thinking. There have been a number of forums online discussing the hiring process and the unanimous consensus is that if you're hired, you do the new hire paperwork immediately.

Now I'm really bummed out.

I've been working on my phd for 6 years and really wanted a job that would allow me a break from that soul crushing experience and provide some positive interaction with people. I was in a relationship with a drug addict/alcoholic for five years that ended in December. I have been looking for some redemption from that soul crushing experience in the form of a positive relationship, and that hasn't been going to well.

In essence, today I'm feeling pretty darned unattractive and pretty darned unloved and pretty darned useless.

Is this a pity party? Definitely. This is me being unabashedly sorry for myself (although I also realize I'm being kind of ridiculous here).

Can someone give me some sort of guidance as to where to find all that good karmic love that is reputed to be floating around in the world?

There's the karmic love!! Thank you archer! As stupid as it may sound, I think I just needed an "awwww" and a pat on the head.

I have been looking for some redemption from that soul crushing experience in the form of a positive relationship, and that hasn't been going to well.

What hell—

Are you blaming yourself for a negative experience..??

Come-on lady... Believe in yourself and your abilities, life has a lot of twist and turns and I am sure that you know it...


It is just weak moments and it will passing by? believes me on that... I've been there many times...

archer - Oh wow. What lesson are you taking away from that?

qbone - No, I'm not blaming myself. At the same time, I'm also not a victim. I think there's a certain craziness that ensues whenever addiction is present in a relationship. The addict is crazy, the person with the addict is crazy. He certainly pulled some mind-bogglingly stupid crap, but I inflicted some massive damage as well. I've apologized and moved on with a bit more wisdom and understanding under my belt, which is really the only thing that I can do.

And thank you for the pep talk. I do recognize that it's just a moment. I'll wallow for a few more hours, go to bed early, and look forward to another day tomorrow. None of these feelings here are worth dwelling on longer than that (onwards and upwards and the rest of that).

dc - My problem hasn't been meeting pisces, it's been hanging on to them (slippery little bastards that they are). I'm assuming I've got the wrong lure or am fishing in the wrong stream or something because whatever it is I'm doing just isn't working. Damn it that I didn't read Cosmo more diligently!

You know dc, in my more holistic moments, I do find I can do just that. I've been sending my resume out to all sorts of jobs for the past two years and have been coming up with absolutely nothing. During the conversation I was having with myself on the drive home today, I finally accepted the conclusion that I am simply meant to complete my phd. If I accept the possibility that there is some sort of force which guides us all, the only thing I can take away from all of this is to simply stop struggling against it and keep my fingers crossed that I'm here and doing what I'm doing for a reason that I may just not understand yet.

archer - Not to put words in dc's mouth (writing?), but what I'm taking away from his comment is that there's a distinction to be made between what one can and what one can't control. There's a lot of latitude for choice and individual action, but when you don't get a job or your partner doesn't reciprocate your feelings or all sorts of other things... those things are really out of your hands.

If we take that leaf metaphor, accept that the wind is going to toss you about where it may. Your duty as a leaf is simply to land where you do and be an industrious little leaf doing your leafy thing at the place you're at until the wind picks up again.

Just enough time for it to heal ..

Sorry, you didn't get the job v-lady.

((((( hugs )))))


You're just getting piscean hugs all over the place, aren't you? I don't hand them out to Virgo's very often, so consider yourself defo huggable.

The healing powers of pisces love are truly extraordinary. I've gone from despondent to being bathed with sunshine and kittens.

[Well, not really sunshine and kittens, but I do have to admit that I'm feeling much better. I also tend to think that pisces have a certain, quite lovely, healing quality about them.]

"Yes .. when we're not being slippery little bastards, of course."

That would be you, I'm a girl .. slippery little bitch.

All this talk about gold fish and healing got me thinking about that fairy tale about the gold fish. Here's a brief excerpt...

"There was once a poor man and a poor woman who had nothing but a little cottage, and who earned their bread by fishing, and always lived from hand to mouth. But it came to pass one day when the man was sitting by the water-side, and casting his net, that he drew out a fish entirely of gold. As he was looking at the fish, full of astonishment, it began to speak and said, listen, fisherman, if you will throw me back again into the water, I will change your little hut into a splendid castle.

Then the fisherman answered, of what use is a castle to me, if I have nothing to eat. The gold fish continued, that shall be taken care of, there will be a cupboard in the castle in which, when you open it, shall be dishes of the most delicate meats, and as many of them as you can desire. If that be true, said the man, then I can well do you a favor. Yes, said the fish, there is, however, the condition that you shall disclose to no one in the world, whosoever he may be, whence your good luck has come, if you speak but one single word, all will be over."

Ok. So you can take this as a metaphor for pisces (to a certain extent) - enjoy the riches that they give you, but the moment you break the spell with something as banal as language, it all disappears (poof!).

At the same time, and I don't know if this is a virgo thing or not, I think it's a good justification for avoiding commitment.

One of the reasons I think I've been so eager in my job search is that I have serious issues tying myself down to any one thing. This applies to my relationships, my work, everything really. I like the illusion of freedom, even though deep down inside I recognize how intensely committed I am to the things and people that I love.

So how do you get past this fear of commitment if you approach life as if you were that fisherman about to lose his good fortune?

Has "slippery little bastard" been taken as a slur? If so, I am very, very sorry!! I used the word bastard as a term of endearment, if that's possible of course.

"Slippery little bitch" just doesn't roll off your tongue, does it? We might have to think of something different for women pisces, p-angel. 😛

"Has "slippery little bastard" been taken as a slur? If so, I am very, very sorry!! "

No way .. not from my perspective.


I liked your story .. what's a cupboard?

I'm rolling around in the sag love!! I didn't think to mention it because it's just oozing off of me and already has that taken for granted quality about it as I've integrated it into my very being so easily.

A cupboard is the place in the kitchen (cabinet, shelf, pantry) where you keep your food and your dishes.

So, I guess I was missed with the handing out of intelligence .. pantry's have to be explained, lol Thanks v-lady. 🙂

Thanks for explanation, i didnt' get it either.

"meaning—??..."

Well, dc had pointed out that I was expressing my appreciation of the pisces love sent out in my direction. He suggested that I might have overlooked the sag (read: archer) love that I also received.

I took that suggestion seriously and wanted to provide a reason I wasn't gushing as much about sag love as I was about pisces love.

So what I tried to say is that sag love is like a really nice flower outside your window. You see the flower, you like the flower, but after a while, you don't notice the flower and take the beauty for granted. Your lack of attention doesn't make the flower less beautiful or wonderful, it just means that you don't notice it immediately.

Good God I'm feeling inarticulate!!!

dc - political science (international relations and political theory)

Now, I'm completely lost .. must leave before my head starts spinning.

What does what mean to an idiot?

"What does what mean to an idiot?"


I dont' even know what the "what" is in that to mean idiot .. so, screw it .. I'll just take another bong-hit and not worry about being on this side, while everybody esle is over there.

Getting the munchies, though .. I have shrimp .. is anybody hungry?

*tosses p-angel some oreos*

v-lady, I have family who lives in your area .. are you in the city, or the burbs?

Wait, I'll roll a spliff, then we can share

I have cocktail sauce and tartar

* puts tray of shrimp in middle with sauces for all to enjoy

Thanks for the oroes, v-lady

Ok. Let's synthesize....

conversation track #1: I was bummed but am now feeling much better, thank you very much. Appreciation goes out to all the pisces and sag comments which brought me to my happy place.

conversation track #2: pa and archer are enjoying some shrimp.

conversation track #3: dc asked me to translate "international relations and political theory" into layman's terms.

oh, lol, that was easy .. where the heck I got lost, I've no clue.

Can we make a distinction between "intellectual" and "pompous fuckwit"?

I've paged around the virgo boards a bit and, as a virgo, a lot of what I read really makes me cringe. At one point I think I came across a discussion that was supposed to sound intelligent, but came across as: 1) talking points from an extreme right-wing talk show; 2) questions that I would be embarrassed to give undergraduates on an exam because they are soooo transparently uninteresting; and/or 3) lots of words strung together in an effort to make the author appear smarter than he/she is.

In that spirit, I will not talk about my academic work! No!

[DC, if you're really, really interested, please pm me. Otherwise, I'm not going to add to the arrogant dickwad virgo image by talking about what I do for fun.]

I don't blame you .. people, like me, for example, like to take punches at Virgo's.

Silence is always better ..

Awwwww .. I get bestest award, thanks archer ..

the lady swings .. she told me .. why do you think I keep following her 😉

who is the lady under discussion here?

I borrowed it

* hands whip back over to archer

I'm not JUST a fish, archer .. I'm an Angel Fish .. DC gave it to me, remember?

Oh wait! Is "the lady" me? I'm so retarded sometimes. Archer - Are you talking about me inviting dc to ask about my academic work?

The only thing I meant by singling him out is because he specifically asked about what "international relations and political theory" is. I didn't want to bore everyone else with the details. It's certainly no reflection at all on how much I respect everyone in this discussion.

Nobody puts archer/p-angel in the corner - that's my motto.

v-lady, you're the lady

Thanks p-angel. I choose the user name in a moment of haste and still can't really identify with it. It's a lot like walking around with a little post-it note glued to your forehead with a name on it. Everyone else knows who you are, but you have no idea who they're referring to when they mention the name.

"So I get the choice to look like a retard in public or in private."


Awwww .. you can't say that, I'm a fish and I'll get all sappy and shit .. now I have to come over and give you hug.

Thing is, archer has a whip ... so .. I'll throw you one

-----> *hug*

P-Angel and DC hugging while archer looks on with a whip?

Soooo kinky.

As I'm the only other person involved in this discussion, just let me be the weird dude in the corner watching. 😛

"Everyone else knows who you are, but you have no idea who they're referring to when they mention the name."


Eh, don't worry about it *says in Peschi voice* .. sometimes, v-lady, I don't know someone's referring with me, too .. with my real name.

Sometimes, every knows me, except me .. just have to tap on the side of the tank once in a while.

** sshhhhh, don't tell her how we operate, we're suppose to be sneaky and shit

Noooooooo DC!!!!!

We're standing on the shoulders of giants. You're the giant holding us all up.

Are we having some kind of wierd orgy?

"I wonder how many 'virgoans' are looking at this with disgust"

Really? Is this like the conversational equivalent of kids throwing spitwads at the teachers, with the virgos being the teachers?

oooooooooohhhhhhh. I feel so subversive.

"I wonder how many "virgoans" are looking at this with disgust"


Hey .. they could use it, they're gonna bitch anyway

Except for v-lady .. you know, I don't think you're really a Virgo, are you?

Archer - My comment about dc being a "giant" was just me petting him in response to his feeling blue about being at the bottom of the pile (in his view). Had anyone else said it, I would have replied with the same thing.

Everyone - You're all special. Mama loves each and every one of you.

I am really and truly a virgo. August 29. Not even a chance of being on the cusp.

"unnoticable flower outside window"


Aww, poor archer .. DC, we need that healing blanket again

Never mind, v-lady made her happy

🙂🙂🙂🙂

lol, it's ok, archer

*pets archer's hair fondly