In here so deep??

Why do I still love you? Why do I love you?
Is what I ask myself all the time
It makes no sense in my head at all, not even a nickel or a dime

15 cents, 15 cents, wow could it be? I don't know it seems hopeless
like a penny with a hole in it to me
ups, downs, ins, outs, lefts, rights through all the fights
I still love you??_yes I do

In here so deep, sometimes I can't sleep, may even weep when I think of you??_
my mind is tired, my nights are long & my days are cerulean blue
damn I need a clue, but it's true because I still love you

Leaving my feelings behind, ignoring my longing & denying what's in my heart
is difficult trying to understand all of this, like an abstract piece of art
bit by bit, day by day, no matter whom else may come my way
you??re in here so deep, I can't seem to keep, my interest in another too long anyway

We are soul mates, I knew it was fate, I knew it was meant to be
but during the process I had to experience pain & be grateful for everything you taught me
you were a student as well learning from me, valuable lessons that are priceless & shine bright
we've conquered the hills & valleys, swam the deepest sea, & climbed the highest height

Are we ready for round 2? Start a new, relationship that's fresh without strife?
I believe we can, standing hand in hand because it's been so bland without being in each other??s life
In here so deep, I don't think I can keep, these emotions suppressed for too long
it may be wrong, yet I'm remaining strong, but in my arms is where you belong

You feel it too, the love between me & you, it's written in the
stars on Venus & Mars that you??ll always be my boo
Laugh out loud; I want to scream it to a crowd, boastful & proud

But my brain says —wake up you foolish girl, none of this crap will be allowed!??
my heart kicks in, declares —no you won't win??, —she loves him which is not a sin,
they will renew their love & begin again??.

Posted by xdimplez
if this was facebook, i would like it

i liked it a lot. very nice

Thanks xdimps! 🙂

Posted by CluelessCancer
Very nice. Clap clap clap.

You Virgos surprise me. I'm going to go ahead and say that this must be the LIBRA side...

And that must be your BITCH side.

Hahahaha...thanks.

Brilliant and beautiful, thank for sharing RT 🙂

RT—

Loved it
Brings back memories of a past life (sigh)

Thank you guys! 🙂

Posted by virgodreamz
RT—

Loved it
Brings back memories of a past life (sigh)

Yes. Those are not easy to forget at all. Especially if you've shared 2 past life experiences with them. Have you ever seen Frank Ocean's video thinking about you? Alot of people didn't understand it, but it clicked with me immediately. 🙂

RT yes@Frank Ocean.
You must tell me your take on the vid. It used to drive me crazy. I need to know!

I believe the video behind the song is referring to that person he is singing about being his soul mate. They're not together anymore, but he still thinks about & loves this person.

My past life interpretation of the video is regarding a husband & wife/lovers/partners, in which the woman fell ill & the only way to save her was to give his own life, hence is why he looked so frightened when the man touched his face. He knew what he had to do to save her, but he was dying in the process. When he finally reached her, he put the jewel in her hand & took his last breath. She felt his spirit leaving & inhaled his essence is why she took such a deep breath to breathe again.

In this life they're mother & child. The Dr. is telling him this great story about something that happened centuries ago regarding a man saving a woman's life (what's happening in the video). He's feels like the story is very familiar to him, but he doesn't understand quite so clearly.

She has to repay her past lover for his great bravery, & martyrdom, & the only way to do it is to sacrifice herself, as he did for her. Her son sees the ring which was the "jewel", takes it, & then she dies.

Well that's how I see it anyway...🙂

Posted by virgodreamz


Brings back memories of a past life (sigh)

I was never one to believe in soul mates, but I did some research & it seems logical. In my case my ketu is in Pisces & his moon is in Pisces, as well as his ketu is in Cancer & my Mars is in Cancer. His Venus is in Cancer which conjuncts my Mars too, but that's different in regards to soul mate connections.

My south node in Pisces conjucts his moon which results in an extremely strong emotional bond. This is copied off of an astrology website.

Moon-South Node. This connection represents a past life connection, which may have been a Mother-Child relationship. When the two individuals meet, a sense of familiarity, security, comfort, and safety is indicated. You share a need for emotional security, and are similar in your emotional reactions. This indicates a significant emotional bond, and the two of you may settle into repetitive patterns. The Moon person may feel —emotionally indebted?? to the Node person, and may constantly —feed?? the Node person??s emotional needs, leaving them feeling drained. The Node person may feel —held back?? by the relationship due to the lack of emotional growth the relationship offers. Regardless, the pull can be hard to resist!

Also his south node conjuncts my mars:

Mars-South Node: This karmic link indicates the two of you may been sexual partners in a past life. Alternatively, you may have been competitors or partners in battle. The South Node person likely expended a lot of energy to further the goals of the Mars person. The Mars person may have been violent with, or at least, mistreated the South Node person, so residual anger may exist between the two. Now, the South Node person has returned for —payback.?? The Node person may drain the energy of, and act as a restrictive influence on the Mars person. The Mars person may feel the Node person impedes upon the Mars person??s actions. Nevertheless, the South Node person is irresistibly attracted to the Mars person, and the Mars person readily gives the South Node personal sexual pleasure. Mars also supports the Node person??s actions and strives to further their goals.

The Mars person may have been violent with, or at least, mistreated the South Node person.

Cut off.

"This indicates a significant emotional bond", is true. We were very much attached to each other, but couldn't seem to get it right. I believe we had to go through pain in order to learn the lessons we needed to. Not sure if we're going to be back together, but we've recently started talking again & I'm just gonna flow with it. 😉

Do you have any experiences?

Oh yeah...& the sex was just off the charts!!! That Mars connection rings true too regarding that! It was very intense, passionate, sensual, which was so in sync. We couldn't keep our hands off each other sexually.

Thank you for the video synopsis!!!
Finally one that ties it all together 🙂

Also I'm a Mars in Cancer too.
As for past lives I don't know that I've felt that with an ex love. Your poem made me think of
something so long ago it may as well have been a lifetime ago.
But I'm open to the idea of past lives through this weird connection I had with an acquaintance.

Your relationship sounds like it had too much passion. Was it a long time ago?
Maturity or even just more self awareness added to round 2 might tame the fiery dynamic enough for it to work this time.

One more thing: how do you find your ketu?

Wow really? It possibly could be. Maybe you are remembering excerpts of your time with someone.

Yes, our relationship did have alot of passion. He has Scorpio in Pluto, with a fiery Mars in Leo & Cancer is in my 8th house...(Scorpio)I think that adds a bit a flame to the fire...😉

We broke up last Summer. We've had a few serendipitous meetings after that, but I just ignored them. I really thought I let him go because I wasn't contacting him, & I moved on to someone else in which I had really liked this person. Well that situation didn't work out & here I am. The ex started contacting me again, I ignored him at first because I just wanted to forget him, but I kept thinking about him & I was longing to see him again, so I just said fuck it...we'll see what happens. 🙂

You can find your ketu & rahu on astrolada.com, & enter your info, along with the other persons' & at the bottom it will give you that info. Also Virgoking had a thread on that a while back. I'll look for the link to his thread & post it for you.

Ok Thanks RT I will check out my Ketu
You know I've kind of noticed the same thing in myself as far as cutting someone off. I can stay away but when they always come around it melts me down if we were close.
Overall I'd rather take the risk and explore the possibilities as opposed to never knowing and always wondering what could've been.

Yup. That thread is actually not VK. He made some valid points though, so I totally forgot it was someone elses thread, lol.

https://www.dxpnet.com/opinion/virgo/virgo-men-and-extra-marital-affair-3687803/
That's the thread.

I appreciate the link 🙂
I checked it all out: My BFs moon is in my north node implying that he will be very giving in the relationship more so than myself
but then my sun is in his south node so in the case of a past life he was the one who gave and has now returned for the payback.
It made me think of the Frank Ocean video (I'd better hold on to my jewels lol)

Anyway one day you and VV need to go to Layna's chat for a Vgirl meeting.

Really? See that? Was it him you may have been remembering? Lol @ Frank Ocean jewels. Yeah...he wants whats his! He won't stop until he gets it! In the same boat...but I wonder what the hell was it that I gave him? My cookie? 😛

Yes. I had a membership to the chat but I forgot my password, requested another & everytime I link to the page, it gives me an error message. I may have to do it all over again.

Lol that's some cookie if it's transcending through lifetimes!
@Wireclub yes come back

See u later