Poetry I write

Drug Stapled Diet

Swimming in Molly pool
Eat some xannex candy
With blue pill fondue
Crack pipe breakfast
Weed salad lunch
Heroin at supper time
Vodka for dessert
Dirty whore nightcap
Why can't I sleep
These lovely cocktails
Got me in too deep

Did you

Did you taste his skin
Before he slipped it in
Did you like his knob
As he did his job
Did you like his dick
Was it real thick
Did you like his pole
As he filled up your hole
Did you like his cum
Or were you just numb

Arterial Ending

I sat and watched the blood
Flowing through my veins
Im a pathetic sorry mess
Looking at my arms
Figuring out the fastest way
To bleed it all away
Five liters of blood on average
How fast will it go
Which vein or artery
Will let it flow
Oh my God
Im pretty much numb
And dead inside

Just lovely ty 😢

No not at all Don It was more just a wonder thing Thats all

No hun sorry 😢

What I want

Mornings bathrobes and coffee
Walking hand in hand
Head in her lap as I fall asleep
Crossword puzzles
Being held feeling safe
Dancing till dawn
Make love watching the sunrise
Sitting together watching sunsets
Finishing each others sentences
Sharing vows making it complete
Road trips to nowhere

Not dying alone

The First Walk

Holding her hand
Feeling the pulse
Anticipation grows
Look into her eyes
Hearing the words
Its finally happening
The day finally comes
The vows are exchanged
The first matrimonial kiss
The walking down the isle
The beginning of a new life
Building a perfect future as one

CindyK

Smudge Path Euphoria

Spreading wings
Beginning the flight
Through the tunnel of trees
Following the words
Not understanding the language
But understanding the meaning
Come to the end
Pushing my wings hard downward
Forcing myself upward
Chasing the sweet smell
The smoke taking me higher
The words and the smoke
Guiding me upward
Leading my towards my enlightenment
My heart racing faster
Spiritual euphoria
Sees the crimson Goddess
Flying higher up the hill
Higher I fly
The longer it seems
The spirit Wolf calling me to her
Cries as I do
Her sweet song
Her soft scent
My pulse calms
I reach my apex
She opens her paws
I close my wings
I receive her gift

CindyK

You are my sunshine
My only sunshine.
You make me happy
When skies are grey

The other night dear
When I was sleeping,
I dreamed you held me
by my throat

When I awoken
I felt the bruises.
So I held my head,
And cried

I'm your sunshine,
Not your grey day.

I dreamed you loved me.
But that was a lie.
And you're glad I went away.

I still think about you
During the night
The way you??d comfort me
"It's going to be alright."
But now you're gone
And the monsters are still here.

I hate how one little thing can fuck my whole day up. I hate how hearing something can make me sick to my stomach and make me want to lock my door and get high and play video games and pretend the world doesn't fucking exist anymore.
I break promises because my anxiety and depression get the better of me and I stop functioning. I hear things that people mean harmlessly and I interpret them in the darkest ways possible. I feel like every person I meet is a walking inevitable betrayal.