back again about aqua,she said we need talk soon

Some of you remember me about this aqua... We started hanging out back in sept. we were friends first.. in November we kissed and it all went from there. These past 9 months or so , she has been hot and cold.. to wanting me to not wanting me... I know she is trying to go through things and i am being patient..

Long story short, shes going thru a divorce.. i am not her first woman either... She has a kid....End of july she asked if my mom and i wanted to go on vacation with her ... There was a condo next to her families... I couldn't go. She was so sweet while she was down there. Saying happy birthday love.. Hi love! Stuff like that..Her and i hung out for 4 days in row before she left and after she left as well. She was so sweet...

Early August she was sweet as well.. Then backed off.. She even pretended to be a mutual friend by texting me through her phone. I thought it was my friend holly no it was her.. Holly ( actually my aqua) texted me are you still in love with so and so? and is like i don't think its gonna work.. I said why not. She was like bc someone else is interested in her.. well a couple of people. I lost it.. I said holly why would you hook people up with her when you love im in love with her.. thats bullshit... Few seconds later holly is like she took my phone..

After that my aqua and i hung out for a few days acted as friends nothing more. She avoid any intimate texts... But would initiate hanging out...

So friday comes I didn't answer my phone in a few minutes. my aqua got mad.. then a hr later she is like we're gonna need to talk soon..
I said about what? And honestly i asked if she wanted us to work? She said she was busy and couldn't do it tonight.. but told me to stop freaking out and jumping to conclusions... I love this woman.. yet I am sooo nervous to what she has to say. She never says we need to talk. She usually has a wall.
I texted her when she wanted to talk.. she said shes busy...

Now I'm so confused. Please help.. Do you think she will knock down her walls and tell me she wants to be my girl.. Why would she text me through a mutual friends phone and ask are you in love with so and so.. or do you think she is gonna to break up and say its over?

I love her with a passion. I'm a leo,34, shes 43...

I love this woman with all of my heart. . I will give her her time to be independent and work out whatever she needs....

I am nervous but hopeful once she told me bot to jump to conclusions..

I am very loyal... Thank you for your advice.. was just scared since she never says we're gonna need to talk soon....

I texted her today said just let me know when is a good time to talk..

No response. ... and she isnt that busy that she cant respond. Shes all over facebook...

I dont get that a month ago she was saying happy bday love to this.. I hope she follows her heart bc I know she has feelings..

Thing is her husband lives in basement .. and she recently started divorce

I am not one to do this.. to be with someone during this time of hers but what I felt wad something I never have....

I hope sshe doesnt give up.. im sure she is afraid to come out as well

Thank you your honesty. .. I'm backing up a bit.. and letting her come to me..im trying not to freak out anymore.. I do love her

She texted me last night..say what are you doing... and also said what are you doing tomorrow. I told her work.. interview and school. Finished at 645.. told her night and sweet dreams... she texted just a lil..

I'm giving her space right now.. and letting her come to me

She called me last night. So i said what did you want to talk about? She said the stars, the sky, you know hang and chat... I was at her house wed to hang and chat.. and she texts friday says wants to talk..

This seemed like a bullshit answer....

I then asked if we could hang out tommorrow shes like maybe...

Seems to me shes pulling away

jade729808/8/2013 9:57:37 PM

That is the date of your first post about this aqua. Including many others in between. I've said the same thing every time as with others.

Stop torturing yourself otherwise man up.