Through their eyes

So it's been about a year, ups and downs, all that jazz with the saggie.

I think we've had a final falling out *shrugs* there's just certain things that I can't let slide and I think she hit the major 3. It is interesting however to see things as she describes it. Maybe my memory's gone fuzzy or I just can't remember details correctly but her version of things are very different to how I remember them.

Makes me wonder if it's actually an aqua thing or just another odd placement of mine (probably). I tend to just let things unfold I think the weird romance thing that was going for a while died pretty quickly I made it clear that it's okay with me I thought we'd move on from that point on. Wasn't til today I just found out she still holds on to a bit of it. We've been through a lot this year (mainly because we do work together). The way I saw the events was that she was always overworked so majority of our time off was just really getting her life back in shape.

Lately it's my turn, working 90 hour weeks is exhausting and it's making me slightly volatile and agitated at work. Apparently this behaviour was enough to make her resign. Can't help but feel like it's a bit unfair, I was asking for a hand but none was shown and instead I turned out to be the bad guy.

Hearing her describes things doesn't make it any better. As a self reflection I really don't like it when I'm not in control of my emotions or just in general not in control of myself. It's a shame really it had to come to this. As butthurt as I feel right about now it's more disappointing to have someone who I thought was a friend bail on me.

Anyway just thought I'd share. As much as I want to say I have no fault in this, according to her perception there were so I suppose I can't be too upset at this.

Sounds like you barely had time to sleep, much less do something for other people. Maybe she got so used to you being there for her that she failed to realize why you couldn't do as much when you were working so much. Maybe she's the one that can't see a situation from another person's point of view.

Sucks that you were there for her and when you needed her to be there for you, she complained instead of looking after your needs.

Aww man Snoz! That sounds rough! How did you manage such a work load? I can't imagine. Sorry to hear things have gone they way they have.

"Can't help but feel like it's a bit unfair, I was asking

for a hand but none was shown and instead I turned

out to be the bad guy."


I know where your Moon is... where is hers?


And *hugs*

Been balancing work/life doing 60 odd hours beforehand, both of us. Just due to company changes and our roles. Been doing 80 to 90 for the past month when she started letting her duties slide otherwise the workload is somehow manageable. I know she tries but as a colleague I also need to point out where she's slacking I believe this is when she gave up.

@magma: I did bail on her in a way, when important aspects of her job and duties suddenly fell on me and I can't call her out because we were 'friends'... that doesn't make it okay for me. End of the day I'm also accountable for those jobs, we look after a team of 20 together and failure to finish those jobs ends in disaster. She's never been a good communicator so I had to backtrack her work to report to my superiors and also my team to work out what she made decisions on. Again I still see this as partly my fault for not making it clearer in the first place rather than letting it slide. Tbh I don't know if she realises this... I thought she did. To some extent.

@mont: her moon is in aries

and big hugs back to all of you. Now to dread that I've suddenly taken on two managerial roles.

You need to find yourself a libran my dear, they're awesome at relationships, mine picks me up from rehearsals with maccas all the time and does my laundry! What did your girlfriend do for you?

@Aquamermaid: There's a part of me that doesn't want to believe it. It's strange but I feel like the second I start believing in the worst of people I'll just become this bitter person 😛

@11th: It's weird but I love looking after whoever I'm with. I'm pretty stubborn when it comes to them looking after me tho lol

@Tizi: Yah, definitely takes a toll. Funny enough I thrive on long hours and implementing systems that work. Just need to do some damage control for the next month or two!