F Taurus in LOVE with my M Cancer friend/co-worker

Helloooo,

Ok so we are starting April and I have worked here since late August. Exchanged small talk in November and by January became friends. A mutual co-worker always mentioned how they would discuss how hot I was etc. I had no interest at the time, but loved him as a friend. Day before Valentines i freaked out and explained how it would never be more... & I would hurt him etc. Then a week later I realized I looked him. FML ONLY ME! So after trying to get him not to like me for a month.... I now work on the opposite. End of February I ask what b he wants soooooo I can move on or stick it out. He said he likes me but needs time to get to know me better. BTW I AM 30 4/29 him 31 7/15...... We kissed once...... It took everything for me not to rip his clothes off. Dealing with wisdom heath issues waiting for surgery most of March then waiting to recover..... I have yet to recieve another kiss. Once I like you I want to be grabbed and kissed and romanced. He sleeps over two days out of the week btw...... Only cuddles but prefers me to do all the work. Talk about emotional roller coaster.... No more touches, or sweet gestures.... Finally last night he tells me that he is not as attracted to me because i gained weight..... He was afraid to tell me.... Because gee knows it is wrong but thus is why he always pushed gym dates..... Oooooooooooh hell no! First of all not a big deal.... I lose weight easily..... Yet i am like what whirl happen when i get wrinkles or pregnant. Yes, I think he is the one.. Moving right along he tells me that would be different. He also wishes I was more humble.....

Things I can work on, losing weight easy humble not so easy YET I will be careful to chose my words wisely and not mention every compliment or profusion of LOVE I get. I like to let go a little to see if guys are still interested in me if I am not all dolled up. Testing to see if they like me for me not my looks, because looks fade. IDK I am going crazy think I will need to quit in order to make this work. Then i will just have to deal with his constant mood swings & his need for time alone. I am fixed, constant and loyal also VERY AGRESSIVE.... I LIKE TO HUNT...

I forgot to mention he said I could be overbearing at times.... But he thinks I am an amazing person.... We are going on a lunch date today. HELP! I.think have a slim.chance to reignite the fire but I am unsure of the game plan. I want things ok come my BDAY! CANCER MEN WHAT SHOULD I DO?

LMAO!!! Bwuahahaha!!!!!!!! Yeah, that is way done and over all he does is stare at me all the time. I moved on way on, I found myself again thank goodness!!!