Failed love,pain crawling in

Hi all cancers,is it just me,or after a break up,it takes time for pain to crawl in,first day i feel kinda ok,second day is harder,and then it gets harder and harder,i have to keep doing something to keep myself on feet,because when i have nothing to do i feel that pain and bad thoughts take over,the love you once had just isnt there anymore,the dreams you shared the future you talked about together,its just hard to get over it,all cancer are like this or is it just me that holds on to these painful memories after love fails?

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Hi all cancers,is it just me,or after a break up,it takes time for pain to crawl in,first day i feel kinda ok,second day is harder,and then it gets harder and harder,i have to keep doing something to keep myself on feet,because when i have nothing to do i feel that pain and bad thoughts take over,the love you once had just isnt there anymore,the dreams you shared the future you talked about together,its just hard to get over it,all cancer are like this or is it just me that holds on to these painful memories after love fails?

How long has it been for you?

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its only first day after i rly know its over,im going back to my country now,ill tell full story when i comeback,i failed hard and sacrificed so much,but atleast now i know that i would move mountains for the person i love,the thing is, love was one sided 😉

The worst part is is she would come back in half a year of a year,i might still love her,and forgive her,and she might do the same shit all over again..but i hope i will not feel that or that this thing would never come to this,because all exs i had either tried to comeback or atleast be friends sayin they were sorry.

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It's the Pisces? We told you not to go!

I hope you don't make this mistake again and learn from it

it wasnt a mistake,i realised and learned alot now,now i know how much i would sacrifice for love and my dreams,i would move mountains,and its not talk and thoughts only,it was my experience ,she made me grow so much,im improving as a person,heart hurts,but my char improves ,she uncovered some one my char qualities i never knew existed.i'm grateful for this exeperience,heart will heal ,mistakes are only real when you gain nothing from it,i gained so much in this heartache that i can't compain,even now i feel growing,ideas and everythin ,i even feel proud of myself that i could do that much for a person i love and make such sacrifices,but can't do anythin by youself,takes 2people to tango on this one,i have some goals and dream this year anyway,i'll keep on going 🙂 i'll show you guys what vission i had now,i'll post you some pics in the summer so you can see what goal i had and what i accomplished , as for now, i might sound crazy,but i lost my job so i decided to live outside the house for a week,without that comfort,shake up my life a little bit,i'll be going to london and stayin there for a week in the streets to test myself and see how hard it is to live like that,did that once but just for night,now im going full week and other town,travelin all over the place by feet and talking to homeless people,people who need help,and just street singers,street artist and shit,its amazing rly what stories these guys can tell sometimes,1time i talked to homeless guy,turns out he had a huge company and a family,and in 1day hi's life changed all the way around,not only did he lost a job,but wife left with kids,and he was so broken that he couldn't do anythin,now he's on streets for a few years,searching for a job,having hope for a beter life,thats a warrior right there,thats why i never judge people by its cover,not talking about these homeless people who only get drunk and live another day to do the same tho,cya guys in a week,take care!

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It's the Pisces? We told you not to go!

I hope you don't make this mistake again and learn from it

it wasnt a mistake,i realised and learned alot now,now i know how much i would sacrifice for love and my dreams,i would move mountains,and its not talk and thoughts only,it was my experience ,she made me grow so much,im improving as a person,heart hurts,but my char improves ,she uncovered some one my char qualities i never knew existed.i'm grateful for this exeperience,heart will heal ,mistakes are only real when you gain nothing from it,i gained so much in this heartache that i can't compain,even now i feel growing,ideas and everythin ,i even feel proud of myself that i could do that much for a person i love and make such sacrifices,but can't do anythin by youself,takes 2people to tango on this one,i have some goals and dream this year anyway,i'll keep on going 🙂 i'll show you guys what vission i had now,i'll post you some pics in the summer so you can see what goal i had and what i accomplished , as for now, i might sound crazy,but i lost my job so i decided to live outside the house for a week,without that comfort,shake up my life a little bit,i'll be going to london and stayin there for a week in the streets to test myself and see how hard it is to live like that,did that once but just for night,now im going full week and other town,travelin all over the place by feet and talking to homeless people,people who need help,and just street singers,street artist and shit,its amazing rly what stories these guys can tell sometimes,1time i talked to homeless guy,turns out he had a huge company and a family,and in 1day hi's life changed all the way around,not only did he lost a job,but wife left with kids,and he was so broken that he couldn't do anythin,now he's on streets for a few years,searching for a job,having hope for a beter life,thats a warrior right there,thats why i never judge people by its cover,not talking about these homeless people who only get drunk and live another day to do the same tho,cya guys in a week,take care!

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Holy crap, I have the same placements as you...what is your rising? I am going through heart break as well and totally identify with what you say, I feel all over the place it sucks :/ I seem to always be on a relationship roller coaster either heart break, crushing or in-love...do you feel like that too? I'm gonna blame our Venus Leo and Cancer placements on all that lol

@Moonbutter virgo rising,yeah always the same,but its first time i've accualy done something so crazy for love,traveled half the world and left my job,and i knew that was a huge chance i might fail,but that 1% kept me going,like in a quote,each person has to do 10steps each towards each other,i did 20and she did her 10the other way,its first time someone didn't appreciate such huge efforts,i made her basket full of 100origami flowers that took 12hrs or so,i expected a smile atleast,didnt get a smile and didnt get a thanks even,tho she's rly something,i dont know about that pisces girl,but i would never cuddle and tickle a person that i don't like,we both were layin in bed,cuddling,tickling each other,talking with open souls,but in the end she chose him,i just dont uderstand how can you cuddle or tickle ,get so close,open up and feel nothin,she might felt like i was her friend and i wondered,does she do this with all of her friends,but she made a decision,i did to,now its time to move on,goals and vissions come this year,after heart heals i might get another love experience,hoping a good one.she might got scared because of how much i would do for her all of a sudden,but at the end of the day,thats how i love,i would give up almost everythin i have for love,well not everything,dreams and vissions and real friends i trust,but other than that,i give up everything,that might be the thing that scared her of ,thats how i'm tho. risking for the love and for the dreams all the way.first time i went in so fast like a wind,usually i build up slow ,but this was something extraordinary ,emotions are coming out like a volcano this year,so am i!

@Moonbutter

virgo rising,yeah always the same,but its first time i've accualy done something so crazy for love,traveled half the world and left my job,and i knew that was a huge chance that it will not work out,but that low % chance was the think that kept me going,if i even have 1% i'll go on in and try,if i fail i'll fail hard,but hey,like i said,it takes 2 people to tango,can't go all the way on your own,you'll break to pieces and burn out all the energy,like people say,you have to take 10steps and other one has 10steps to make,and now i made 20steps,but she made 1,and her step was in other direction...first time i failed so hard,but realised many things,and i feel lke growing,just need to heal with time..i have 6 water signs total in my chart ^^ today is the last day i'm home,tonight i'll be leavin to get some crazy life experience.

Just imagine how bad ass you're going to be when you overcome this loss.

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@Moonbutter

virgo rising,yeah always the same,but its first time i've accualy done something so crazy for love,traveled half the world and left my job,and i knew that was a huge chance that it will not work out,but that low % chance was the think that kept me going,if i even have 1% i'll go on in and try,if i fail i'll fail hard,but hey,like i said,it takes 2 people to tango,can't go all the way on your own,you'll break to pieces and burn out all the energy,like people say,you have to take 10steps and other one has 10steps to make,and now i made 20steps,but she made 1,and her step was in other direction...first time i failed so hard,but realised many things,and i feel lke growing,just need to heal with time..i have 6 water signs total in my chart ^^ today is the last day i'm home,tonight i'll be leavin to get some crazy life experience.

Aww yeah you will be fine, thank God for that Sag Moon keeping the optimism alive...let the adventures begin!

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@Moonbutter

virgo rising,yeah always the same,but its first time i've accualy done something so crazy for love,traveled half the world and left my job,and i knew that was a huge chance that it will not work out,but that low % chance was the think that kept me going,if i even have 1% i'll go on in and try,if i fail i'll fail hard,but hey,like i said,it takes 2 people to tango,can't go all the way on your own,you'll break to pieces and burn out all the energy,like people say,you have to take 10steps and other one has 10steps to make,and now i made 20steps,but she made 1,and her step was in other direction...first time i failed so hard,but realised many things,and i feel lke growing,just need to heal with time..i have 6 water signs total in my chart ^^ today is the last day i'm home,tonight i'll be leavin to get some crazy life experience.

Aww yeah you will be fine, thank God for that Sag Moon keeping the optimism alive...let the adventures begin!

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yeah,its like in a quote:Sometimes you find yourself in the middle of nowhere and sometimes in the middle of nowhere you find yourself.
Gna no to nowhere and see what a person i'm becoming,need to experience this,need to be in middle of unknown,in the middle of nothing that seems familiar,to find my new person,because this pain,ant this growth,these changes this year comes so fast,i can't keep track of it,need to go and figure out who i'm becoming! 🙂

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@Moonbutter

virgo rising,yeah always the same,but its first time i've accualy done something so crazy for love,traveled half the world and left my job,and i knew that was a huge chance that it will not work out,but that low % chance was the think that kept me going,if i even have 1% i'll go on in and try,if i fail i'll fail hard,but hey,like i said,it takes 2 people to tango,can't go all the way on your own,you'll break to pieces and burn out all the energy,like people say,you have to take 10steps and other one has 10steps to make,and now i made 20steps,but she made 1,and her step was in other direction...first time i failed so hard,but realised many things,and i feel lke growing,just need to heal with time..i have 6 water signs total in my chart ^^ today is the last day i'm home,tonight i'll be leavin to get some crazy life experience.

Aww yeah you will be fine, thank God for that Sag Moon keeping the optimism alive...let the adventures begin!

yeah,its like in a quote:Sometimes you find yourself in the middle of nowhere and sometimes in the middle of nowhere you find yourself.
Gna no to nowhere and see what a person i'm becoming,need to experience this,need to be in middle of unknown,in the middle of nothing that seems familiar,to find my new person,because this pain,ant this growth,these changes this year comes so fast,i can't keep track of it,need to go and figure out who i'm becoming! 🙂

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Good quote...I think I'm stuck in-between finding myself and being in the middle of nowhere lol. I'm excited to hear about your revelations upon your new and exciting journeys.

@Moonbutter

yhh im stuck also heart pain and such sudden changes,thats why i feel like i have to shake up my life a little bit,so i can maybe find myself ,scary ,but have to do it,i feel like i need it

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@Moonbutter

yhh im stuck also heart pain and such sudden changes,thats why i feel like i have to shake up my life a little bit,so i can maybe find myself ,scary ,but have to do it,i feel like i need it

I get it...I did just that, left the place I have been living, my friends, my ex, etc and moved like 900 miles away as a kind of cleanse. We all need to hit the refresh button once in awhile.

Posted by KinglyCrab
At least you did something and learned. I did nothing and she went away. Much disappointment , there is.

well im also disappointed with the outcome,i sacrificed so much,and nothing.....its hearbreaking,but i did all i could......can't make a person feel something that isn't there,even if you're doing your best,like i said,takes 2to tango .....you'll be fine one day,like all the cancers.

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For me it takes about 3 months to realize what even happened. Until that I feel either almost completely fine or just very anxious about everything. Then 3 more months with on and off suicidal thoughs and trying to figure out what to do with my life

for me the 1st day is easiest,but after that the feel of reality kicks in,i cry and shit,but at the same i realise,i was the one who decided to be with her and i knew the risks,the love and relationship doesnt come with a waranty,so i embrace it,made my choise,now i have to be strong enough to live with consequences,ofc she broke my heart,but it's the part of my foult,because i made decision to let her in,so this is called taking the responsibility for yourself,hard pill to swallow,but i keep reminding myself,it was my choise,so don't complain about it,just accept what happend,as hard as it is,it's life rly,can't be only beautiful moments in life rly 🙂

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@Moonbutter

yhh im stuck also heart pain and such sudden changes,thats why i feel like i have to shake up my life a little bit,so i can maybe find myself ,scary ,but have to do it,i feel like i need it

I get it...I did just that, left the place I have been living, my friends, my ex, etc and moved like 900 miles away as a kind of cleanse. We all need to hit the refresh button once in awhile.

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good 4 you!hope you get better ! 🙂 runing away isn't the same as moving on tho,make sure you're moving on as you are moving to other places,because i knew some people who tried to run away from problems,but then they cought up and the situation got even worse for them,runing ain't the option,but moving to another country or miles away sure makes easier to move on in life!glad for you!keep moving !

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At least you did something and learned. I did nothing and she went away. Much disappointment , there is.

well im also disappointed with the outcome,i sacrificed so much,and nothing.....its hearbreaking,but i did all i could......can't make a person feel something that isn't there,even if you're doing your best,like i said,takes 2to tango .....you'll be fine one day,like all the cancers.

Dude in layman terms, she knew not of what I felt towards her. I didn't tell her. I messaged her and didn't follow through. I was a big phat pussay.

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well actions speak lounder than words,if you showed her with actions and didn't tell anything and she didn't get the memo,its her foult.because actions speak lounder than words,everyone can say i love you,but actions speak the truth,my i love you to that girl was not with words,but i made her a basket full off 100origami flowers,huged her and kissed her on the forehead,didn't need to tell a thing,she felt it.

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@Moonbutter

yhh im stuck also heart pain and such sudden changes,thats why i feel like i have to shake up my life a little bit,so i can maybe find myself ,scary ,but have to do it,i feel like i need it

I get it...I did just that, left the place I have been living, my friends, my ex, etc and moved like 900 miles away as a kind of cleanse. We all need to hit the refresh button once in awhile.

good 4 you!hope you get better ! 🙂 runing away isn't the same as moving on tho,make sure you're moving on as you are moving to other places,because i knew some people who tried to run away from problems,but then they cought up and the situation got even worse for them,runing ain't the option,but moving to another country or miles away sure makes easier to move on in life!glad for you!keep moving !

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Yes, you are right...I had a friend that ran away from things and ended up ping-pong between places for a bit before she settled. Funny thing is I have been wanting to leave the cesspool of evil for awhile, and slowly in a matter of a year people were being taken out of my life so I had no more reasons to stay and it was that much easier to leave. I am with family and much better place now 🙂

I don't drink neither do i smoke,i'd rather die than drink in this situation,drinking fucks up life real bad if you're after a break up,i've seen life's destroyed because people couldn't handle real life and started to drown their problems and depression into alchohol,and that was even worse,they destroyed their own lives......alchohol after breakup is the worst thing that can happen to a person......

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At least you did something and learned. I did nothing and she went away. Much disappointment , there is.

well im also disappointed with the outcome,i sacrificed so much,and nothing.....its hearbreaking,but i did all i could......can't make a person feel something that isn't there,even if you're doing your best,like i said,takes 2to tango .....you'll be fine one day,like all the cancers.

Dude in layman terms, she knew not of what I felt towards her. I didn't tell her. I messaged her and didn't follow through. I was a big phat pussay.

well actions speak lounder than words,if you showed her with actions and didn't tell anything and she didn't get the memo,its her foult.because actions speak lounder than words,everyone can say i love you,but actions speak the truth,my i love you to that girl was not with words,but i made her a basket full off 100origami flowers,huged her and kissed her on the forehead,didn't need to tell a thing,she felt it.

The only thing I did was send her a fb message asking her to coffee and if we could talk at school. None of that happened. Now I have to love in a perpetual "what if "?

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if possible ask that in person,not i facebook ,you still might have a chance,you can stil do something,dont give up while she didnt rly reject you ,goodluck