I'm crushing on a strange cancer guy

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ahzura
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8 Years

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So i really like this 18-year-old boy in my class, who's a cancer. Don't ask me why i like him, because trust me, there is literally nothing to like. He's the exact opposite of someone I would consider dating. He has a huge ego and he’s showing it every way he can. He acts super cocky, he acts as if he’s superior to everyone and he can be really rude most of the time. It seems like he only cares about himself and his opinion is the most important thing in the world and obviously the only one that matters. He treats other boys in class as his pawns and they follow him blindly, otherwise he makes sure to put them down in some way and he always finds a way to make them feel bad. He’s always saying he hates everyone.He never seemed to care about girls in our class, even though he puts on a huuuge “fuckboy” mask.

But everyone who knows him or who is somewhat close to him knows that he’s super insecure and shy deep down and that he can actually be a really good and supportive friend. I have seen that side of him and I consider myself lucky to be one of the few people he doesn’t hate.

But the relationship between us is somewhat strange. I’ve been told by a friend that they thought he liked me last year and I was surprised because he never really talked to me. We rarely talked and we were rarely around each other. But talking to him was fun, as he’s really intelligent.

This year, I’m crushing on him hard and he’s acting strange. For example, he never looks me in the eye for more than a second when we talk. He is always somewhere around me doing something to catch my attention and when he gets it, we talk for a couple of seconds then he just storms off or does something weird, like turn super cold all of a sudden or he would say something really rude and just walk away. He could also sit next to me and say absolutely nothing, but he would always touch me in some way. Like his hand could be resting next to mine, or he would spread his legs and rest his leg against mine. And when I try to move it slightly away, he pushes it against mine again. He can be super sweet and nice and talkative one moment, then the polar opposite the next. Some days he would act like my best friend, the next day he would completely ignore me or even be rude to me for no reason at all. He’s really strange and not even his friends understand why.

A few months ago, someone pointed out how cute we look together and we were both embarrassed, so we flirted with each other awkwardly and jokingly. Then things escalated and we started “jokingly” flirting every single day. It got to the point where everyone knew we were just a joke. I knew it was a joke but I hoped there was at least some truth in it.But he would never actually invite me to hang out with him after school and he would never text or call me unless it was absolutely necessary. I invited him for a drink on valentine’s day (jokingly ofc; also there were 3 or 4 girls from my class also there because we were all single and wanted to party later. I invited some of my friends as well), and when he found out there were gonna be people from class also present, he refused because he hates them. But he still showed up later and It was fun. The next day, when he was bragging about being with me some boy said to him “you know she invited me too, right?” and he responded coldly “yeah I only went cuz free drinks”. Basically, he played it off as if that was the only reason he came. And I never invited him anywhere again.

We were still cool and flirting with each other, it basically became a thing. Then one day, he was having mood swings again and he told me I had to stop. He said that things had gotten too far and he needed me to stop (even though HE was the one who always started). I was fine with that. A bit shocked and offended, but fine.

Then a month ago, he was rude to me for no reason again and I responded angrily and he pretty much ignores me since. He only talks to me when he absolutely has to and there’s this weird tension between us. He also started flirting with every single girl he claimed he hated, and he flirts with them in front of me now. And he seems to hate me. But I really like him and I don’t know what to do.

He's really hard to approach in general and he's unpredictable. It's as if you have to be really careful what you say in front of him not to hurt him or make him hide behind his fucking wall.

I really don't know what to do.