What is going on with this Cancer Male

Hi, all!

I have been dating a Cancer male (27) for 5 months. We saw each other the first time, and we liked each other first sight. He run after me to ask for my number. Met 2 days later.

Everything was great, many things in common. He always showed care, and interest on me.

I have some emotional issues that get triggered when I am in a relationship and feel insecure so I did project some stuff into him blaming him of not caring about me.

I asked him to leave my house twice (after stupid fights) and call to apologize later.

I know I have been stupid, but I also cared about him, and I was loving and supporting.

He said he never felt confident enough to me to develope the strong feelings he had towards me, he said that he can't trust the situation again and he is protecting himself because I hurt him so much.

I apologize, said that I did it because I was scared. Told him that I liked him and I wanted to be exclusive and all the things we never talked about. But he just didn't care. One week before he wanted me to meet his mom and family and after the last fight he became cold and distant.

He said he liked me loads, but he can't now. I have the feeling of he never really cared, as when someone apologizes in an honest way... why it is so hard for him to give it another chance?

His dad left his mom when he was born, I guess this is part of his subconscious mind too...

It's been a month. Doesn't look like he is going to change his mind. I feel like he is really upset with me.

And I feel horrible and guilty, I know I fucked up but I was also brave enough to say sorry. I belive that forgiving is important and I believe in working on relationships. He believes in the perfect fairy tail where there are not problems in love. I understand his point but I can't help but think it's a bit naive.

I am really sorry for what I have done, and I wish he could see who I am regardless my stupid insecurities sometimes...

My questions are: did he ever care? Why did I hurt him that much that he can't forgive and forget? I feel heartbroken 😢

Thanks in advance for your wisdom.

Love,

Jungle.

You asked him to leave? Why? What could have happened that was so serious to you? Asking him to leave made him retreat emotionally. It was too hard of you. You guys just started seeing each other. He needs his alone time now to process what happened and see if you really can fit into his life or not. Leave him be. Let him think. Don't text him anymore. If he comes back, then you will be with him again, but he has to be the one to make that choice. If a Cancer really likes you, he'll be back.

Thanks taurusgirl9000

He didn't do anything. It was only me, being scared and pushing him away like an idiot because I was feeling emotionally insecure. It wasn't the first time and it was a recurrent pattern of the "relationship"

I think he is done, he said he really liked me since the moment he saw me, and he fall for me very quick, that he finds me really attractive and loved to expend time with me but there is just not coming back from what happened as it hurt too much and he can't trust the situation anymore.

And now I am left with million of doubts. Not even sure if I really liked him that much or I fell for the idea, and he was able to see that even better than myself.

I feel so guilty and heartbroken and I wish to be able to take back what I said and did...

Also feels like he didn't care that much about me, as I apologized and was honest...