Am very confused. I met this guy a fellow cappie, 8 and 1/2 years ago. I was 15 and he was 23. We clicked right away and I developed a huge crush on him. We were both invloved in the same society which meant every year for about two weeks while taking part in an annual show. Anyway after knowing him for five years he finally asked me out. Seemingly he had fancied me for the last three years but never thought that i was interested in him. Unbelievable I had really given hope at that stage. However his Mum died a few days later and as I was in the middle of exams I couldn't attend the funeral. To make a long story short we broke up two weeks later, he was still in shock from his mUm's death and couldn't cope with getting close to someone at the moment. He told me this wasn't a brush off and that his feelings for me hadn't changed. I was going through a lot of personal stuff at the time too, my Dad had been diagnosed with Cancer a few months prior to this and I failed two of those exams I had just sat. Anyway he continued to ring me for about six months, but I never rang him or never suggested we meet even though he did. i don't maybe I was a bit immature. We've met a few times over the last number of years and I always feel that there is something there between us except I reckon that he thinks I have no interest. I just found his email recently and am tempted to mail him but am scared. He travels alot so I don;t know where he is at the moment. Should I just leave well alone.........